tuwa ako sa tripping ng mga fil-am writers and writers in the diaspora. eileen tabios invented the pinoy version of the haiku, called hay(na)ku hehehe. pinoy lang makakaisip nito.
may call for chorva sila. check it out.
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*[Please Forward]*
*HAY(NA)KU = INVITATION*
*You are cordially invited*
by Ivy Alvarez, John Bloomberg-Rissman, Ernesto Priego, and Eileen Tabios
to participate in
*THE CHAINED HAY(NA)KU PROJECT!*
As authors of single-author poetry hay(na)ku collections, we invite you to collaborate with others to create "chained hay(na)ku" -- a poem based on the hay(na)ku poetic form and created by multiple authors (at least three individual authors).
Information on the hay(na)ku are available at:
http://www.meritagepress.com/haynaku.htm
http://www.baymoon.com/~ariadne/form/haynaku.htm
http://haynakupoetry.blogspot.com/ .
For an example of the Chained Hay(na)ku, please visit the blog,
*THE CHAINED HAY(NA)KU PROJECT: AN INVITATION * at
http://chainedhaynaku.wordpress.com/
which features our collaborative poem, "Four Skin Confessions." The poem was written in May 2007 by email, spanning the time zones of London, Cardiff, and California.
We now invite other poets to collaborate with others in creating other chained hay(na)ku. Authors can then contribute their collaborations (including excerpts from such collaborations) for possible publication, which Meritage Press (www.meritagepress.com) will release as either a
journal, anthology, or hand-made limited edition (the final format will depend on the nature of and number of contributions).
Collaborations need not be only in verse form. Visual poetry is welcome, as long as the collaborators number at least three and realize that reproduction is likely to be in black-and-white.
Email Contributions (and queries) to MeritagePress@aol.com
*Deadline for Contributions:* January 31, 2008
Why not get together with others and chain together a hay(na)ku? It's a poetic form that has always been intended to be an Invitation!
All Best,
*Ivy Alvarez*, author of 1 DOZ. POISON HAY(NA)KU (Big Game Books, 2007)
*John Bloomberg-Rissman*, author of OTAGES (Bamboo Books, 2007) and NO SOUNDS OF MY OWN MAKING (Leafe Press, 2007)
*Ernesto Priego*, author of NOT EVEN DOGS (Meritage Press, 2006)
*Eileen Tabios*, author of THE SINGER AND OTHERS (Dusie, 2007)
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ayuz di ba? o ano, patulan natin! sino game? hehe. marns, indi, kia? hehe.
go!
ako may naimbentong haynaku. ngayon lang. eto:
putangina
mamatay na
lahat ng diva.
a haynaku consists of 6 words lang, compared to the 3 lines and 5-6-5 syllables rule nga ba yun na rule ng japanese haiku? tama ba? tapos sa haynaku, 1-2-3 ang word distribution, per line. puwede ring reverse, 3-2-1, like this:
Hindi ka Diyos
kaya alis
diyan.
hahaha. nakakainizzzzzzzzz.
*
dami kasing diva dito sa kinalalagakan ko ngayon e. actually, sa lahat naman ng lugar e maraming diva akong nakakasalamuha. depende na lang sa degree of divaness nila kung kekerihin ko. minsan, keri ko, kasi pinapantayan ko ang ka-diva-han nila. golden rule lang naman yan eh:
"kung diva ka, mas divah akohhhhhh!"
devah?
iba-iba ang uri ng mga diva na yan. may diva na kunwari friend mo pero pagtalikod mo e niyuyurakan din niya ang dangal mo at ang dangal lang niya ang di niya yuyurakan ever. di ba c.a.?
may diva na friend mo talaga at talagang magdi-diva siya kapag may nang-diva sa iyo. so diva to diva fight ito, para ipagtanggol ka. frend! di ba bosing?
may diva na kapag kayong dalawa lang magkasama e chichikahin galore ka niya as if best friends forever ka niya. pero paglabas sa labas sa maraming tao at binati mo siya, aasta siyang di ka niya kilala o maalalang nakilala man lang. di ba b.s.?
may diva din na aastang lord of the chorvas siya saan mang departamento o lupalop siya mapunta, na kahit galit na sa kanya ang ibang kapwa divas e feeling niya mas mataas ang diva level niya sa rest of the diva populace kaya patuloy lang siya sa paghahasik ng lagim. di ba a.s.?
may diva din na gusto niya lagi siyang nagba-bask sa attention ng lahat, diva man o hindi, kahit unnecessary na talaga dahil ang dami na niyang na-achieve sa life. di ba n.g.?
hehehe.
o siya, more diva-ness next time. inuman muna kami ng co-diva ko hehehehe. chos.
26 June 2007
25 June 2007
function vs. feeling + loathing the l word
question: do you need to feel first before you could function, or do you need to function first before you could actually feel something?
just a thought. what are yours on this? comment tag below or message board to your left. or leaflens at gmail. write on...
*
i don't know whose brilliant idea it was to show THE L WORD on cable tv in the philippines. but if SEX AND THE CITY gets bloody beeped because they say penis, vagina, and yes, even sex(!), imagine what more they would chop off the l word. no more than its essence lang naman. tangina.
just caught that big scene near the end of season 1, the opening of the provocations art exhibit and all the girlies and the boylets were there, of course. intense-filled episode this is, for this is the ep where all of the characters receive a major turning point: shane the playgirl exposes her heart on her sleeve and gets shot down for it bigtime; kit the hetero is getting swayed by the wooing of a drag king; bette the married one resists the call of temptation yet again from her carpenter mistress; tina who's married to bette discovers the affair and bursts; marina loonily plays the field to play her loony object of desire; loony jenny enters the scene with a boy date but meets her girl date and receives a call from sorry loony marina and ends up staring at her room with her girl date and boy date both in there -- dressed and asleep; dana gets torn between her crazy fiancee and an old-time friend who frenches her; and alice frenches long-time friend dana whom she has been pining for secretly all this time of bad plant and pay-off storyarcing.
yeah, talk about dyke drama. all of this happens in just one sequence! sankapa!
but three brilliant moments also happen in this episode, especially after this dyke drama sequence.
one -- bette goes home and finds tina. no words are exchanged much, only dagger looks from the aggrieved party that could be more aptly termed as longsword looks, and begging forgiveness looks from the guilty one. etc2ndave channel had the tenacity to edit out the most crucial part of this scene: the sex. yes, when tina finally let it all out and started hitting bette, bette retaliated by pinning tina down on the bed and, yeah, fucking her. just plain fucked her. but it was not for pleasure. no, it wasn't a pity fuck, either. it was an appease-forgive fuck. understand? if you ever experienced being in such an emotional state of rage/anger/frustration and had your lover-fighter pacify you with sex but not for both of your enjoyment but for something else, you will understand the poignancy of this scene. to those who cannot relate...lucky you.
two -- best friends dana and alice share a kiss but again, this gets chopped off. we only see alice hesitating a lot, trying to convince dana that the latter cannot marry because because because, and then *poof* and then we see a shell-shocked dana left on the porch while a flushed alice rushes off. the kiss between friends is not a new storyline but for those who were in this situation before, the scene will get to you, i'm sure.
three -- tina wanted to tell alice about bette's affair with candance. but instead of saying it out bluntly, she just cries, grabs a pen, goes to the board where the chart of lesbian lives are connected/linked together (who slept with whom and so on and so forth), draws a line from bette's name and tries to write "candace" at the other end of that line, but she breaks down crying even more after writing just "c" and "a", and alice consoles her. brilliant brilliant execution this is. now this is the perfect example of the "show, don't tell" tip. good good good.
*
is it this complicated to be a dyke? not really. well, okay, yes, but the complication is not solely owned by the gay world. it is this complicated to be a human being in love, in lust, in like and living life. it's that simple.
i guess that's why i asked if feeling comes first or function comes first. function, meaning we go about our daily routines or daily lives as individuals without feeling much for other people. feeling, meaning we go by how we feel for all things around us, especially the people we care for and nurture, or want to care for and nurture. what should come first, feeling or functioning? or do they go together? or should they even be together? hm.
i ask this because some people say they could function better if they could feel first, meaning they should feel something about their actions, work and whatnot before they could execute it or something like that. and then there are some people who say that in order for a person to function, they need to feel first in order to be functional. magkaiba yun e. and yes, some people say i belong to the second category of feel-function but i don't really know about that...
i don't know if i'm making sense here, but in my mind, what i want to say is clear. not sure if it's translating well...oh well...
i dunno. am i really trying to explore feeling and functioning, or am i talking about being fair game? well, maybe that's also within the periphery of my thoughts. but that might be another discussion altogether.
ahhh. ewan. haywire na rin yata ako from watching this episode earlier and being frustrated because of the cuts. it gives an awfully different narrative when they did that, sa totoo lang. hay...
but i could feel for these girls, really, especially now. that's what's great about this show as i watch it again and again. it gets better and it gets personal that i could actually forgive the bad writing in it and the contrived plotlines of some characters. i never knew these three moments would resonate with me better these days. maybe it's because i've also had similar moments, regardless of which character i could relate to. maybe relate ako sa lahat sa kanila. kakaiba talaga... kaya sometimes i hate this show, because it feels true, and it appears true, and i could relate to most of the plotlines and characters. kakainiz.
it doesn't help that one of my favorite songs in the soundtrack is the soundtrack of the final sequences of this particular ep...
kasi sa totoo lang, i am indeed caught in between all i wished for and all i need. kaya i love this song now more than ever, even if it makes the tear ducts function a bit.
but the thing is, i also need this thing that i wished for. this thing that i wish for, i feel for it, have always felt for it, before and up to now. this thing that i need is what i have and have been having in order to function for the past two years or so.
now only if i could have both. but the world doesn't really work that way. so i will always be caught in between. sometimes i mind, sometimes i don't mind. most times, i just try not to think about it.
hay naku, may god's love be with me talaga...
'til the next ep.
just a thought. what are yours on this? comment tag below or message board to your left. or leaflens at gmail. write on...
*
i don't know whose brilliant idea it was to show THE L WORD on cable tv in the philippines. but if SEX AND THE CITY gets bloody beeped because they say penis, vagina, and yes, even sex(!), imagine what more they would chop off the l word. no more than its essence lang naman. tangina.
just caught that big scene near the end of season 1, the opening of the provocations art exhibit and all the girlies and the boylets were there, of course. intense-filled episode this is, for this is the ep where all of the characters receive a major turning point: shane the playgirl exposes her heart on her sleeve and gets shot down for it bigtime; kit the hetero is getting swayed by the wooing of a drag king; bette the married one resists the call of temptation yet again from her carpenter mistress; tina who's married to bette discovers the affair and bursts; marina loonily plays the field to play her loony object of desire; loony jenny enters the scene with a boy date but meets her girl date and receives a call from sorry loony marina and ends up staring at her room with her girl date and boy date both in there -- dressed and asleep; dana gets torn between her crazy fiancee and an old-time friend who frenches her; and alice frenches long-time friend dana whom she has been pining for secretly all this time of bad plant and pay-off storyarcing.
yeah, talk about dyke drama. all of this happens in just one sequence! sankapa!
but three brilliant moments also happen in this episode, especially after this dyke drama sequence.
one -- bette goes home and finds tina. no words are exchanged much, only dagger looks from the aggrieved party that could be more aptly termed as longsword looks, and begging forgiveness looks from the guilty one. etc2ndave channel had the tenacity to edit out the most crucial part of this scene: the sex. yes, when tina finally let it all out and started hitting bette, bette retaliated by pinning tina down on the bed and, yeah, fucking her. just plain fucked her. but it was not for pleasure. no, it wasn't a pity fuck, either. it was an appease-forgive fuck. understand? if you ever experienced being in such an emotional state of rage/anger/frustration and had your lover-fighter pacify you with sex but not for both of your enjoyment but for something else, you will understand the poignancy of this scene. to those who cannot relate...lucky you.
two -- best friends dana and alice share a kiss but again, this gets chopped off. we only see alice hesitating a lot, trying to convince dana that the latter cannot marry because because because, and then *poof* and then we see a shell-shocked dana left on the porch while a flushed alice rushes off. the kiss between friends is not a new storyline but for those who were in this situation before, the scene will get to you, i'm sure.
three -- tina wanted to tell alice about bette's affair with candance. but instead of saying it out bluntly, she just cries, grabs a pen, goes to the board where the chart of lesbian lives are connected/linked together (who slept with whom and so on and so forth), draws a line from bette's name and tries to write "candace" at the other end of that line, but she breaks down crying even more after writing just "c" and "a", and alice consoles her. brilliant brilliant execution this is. now this is the perfect example of the "show, don't tell" tip. good good good.
*
is it this complicated to be a dyke? not really. well, okay, yes, but the complication is not solely owned by the gay world. it is this complicated to be a human being in love, in lust, in like and living life. it's that simple.
i guess that's why i asked if feeling comes first or function comes first. function, meaning we go about our daily routines or daily lives as individuals without feeling much for other people. feeling, meaning we go by how we feel for all things around us, especially the people we care for and nurture, or want to care for and nurture. what should come first, feeling or functioning? or do they go together? or should they even be together? hm.
i ask this because some people say they could function better if they could feel first, meaning they should feel something about their actions, work and whatnot before they could execute it or something like that. and then there are some people who say that in order for a person to function, they need to feel first in order to be functional. magkaiba yun e. and yes, some people say i belong to the second category of feel-function but i don't really know about that...
i don't know if i'm making sense here, but in my mind, what i want to say is clear. not sure if it's translating well...oh well...
i dunno. am i really trying to explore feeling and functioning, or am i talking about being fair game? well, maybe that's also within the periphery of my thoughts. but that might be another discussion altogether.
ahhh. ewan. haywire na rin yata ako from watching this episode earlier and being frustrated because of the cuts. it gives an awfully different narrative when they did that, sa totoo lang. hay...
but i could feel for these girls, really, especially now. that's what's great about this show as i watch it again and again. it gets better and it gets personal that i could actually forgive the bad writing in it and the contrived plotlines of some characters. i never knew these three moments would resonate with me better these days. maybe it's because i've also had similar moments, regardless of which character i could relate to. maybe relate ako sa lahat sa kanila. kakaiba talaga... kaya sometimes i hate this show, because it feels true, and it appears true, and i could relate to most of the plotlines and characters. kakainiz.
it doesn't help that one of my favorite songs in the soundtrack is the soundtrack of the final sequences of this particular ep...
In The Sun
(by Joseph Arthur)
(by Joseph Arthur)
I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in
May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you
I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake
May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you
'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You
I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me
May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in
May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you
I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake
May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you
'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You
I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me
May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you
kasi sa totoo lang, i am indeed caught in between all i wished for and all i need. kaya i love this song now more than ever, even if it makes the tear ducts function a bit.
but the thing is, i also need this thing that i wished for. this thing that i wish for, i feel for it, have always felt for it, before and up to now. this thing that i need is what i have and have been having in order to function for the past two years or so.
now only if i could have both. but the world doesn't really work that way. so i will always be caught in between. sometimes i mind, sometimes i don't mind. most times, i just try not to think about it.
hay naku, may god's love be with me talaga...
'til the next ep.
20 June 2007
pugad ng mga panulat at pitik
hm bakit biglang naging filipino ang language sa interface ng blogger ko? hindi keri yung iba e.
"kunin ang google account" -- ha?
"tingnang muli" -- grammar check!
"i-edit ang html" -- weird
"mag-compose" -- hmmm.
"mag-sign in"
"bumuo ng blog"
yoko nah.
dapat may taga-sentro ng wikang pilipinong tumingin nito. and how do they spell pictures? "letrato" waaaaaah. ano'ng dictionary gamit niyo! bumili ng vicassan. nyets.
*
speaking of pictures, nami-miss ko nang mag-photography ulit. nakaka-engganyo yung mga works ng participants sa basic black and white photography workshop ni anne at beng. nag-exhibit sila last saturday afternoon sa bernal gallery at tumugtog ang ilan sa amin sa engkantada ng two songs lang naman. so bet lang.
miss ko ring mag-exhibit. kahit mega-haggard ang preps, nakaka-miss din kahit papaano...
naisip ko lang. di ko pa yata na-share dito yung photo exhibit chenes namin last year ng mga ex-isis gels and a current isis gel forever hehe.
sampol:
exhibit's title was named
BABAE SA TAG-ARAW:
WOMEN ROMANCING THE SENSES
held at the famed old malate haunt penguin cafe na nagtatago sa pangalang rock ola cafe these days. we opened april 25, a day after my birthday, and closed a month after.
poster design made by lenski.
ang mga puki ng pitik hihihihihi:(sorry addicted ako sa alliteration)
my good friends indira endaya, aileen familara, me and carol bello.
what do we have in common? lahat kami nagtrabaho sa iisang feminist media org NGO. ang award: si lenski, naroon pa rin hihihi. indi's somewhere in europe na, carol is somewhere in UP and i'm somewhere in the cosmos hehehe. chos.
salamat nga pala kay adam dahil litrato niya ang apat na ito.
nga pala, pitik is the term used by newspaper photographers to refer to the action of photographing something. "pipitik lang ako dito." o kaya "pitikin mo na yan." pitik, meaning kuhanan mo na ng litrato.
the mirror thingie and the stage area.
indi's corner walls. doon siya sa looban doon sa cozy nook near the bar. she made two mosaic-type photos of nepali girls and stuff, interactive with post-its whatnots. cute siya.
there i was hanging out with the lezzies at that corner, sina ani and roda and roda's friend. and some other penguin habitues like me, new generation lezzies nga lang sila, most of them also from thelword egroup i belong to, though i can't recall all their names.
len's wall and carol's wall, which was adjacent to one of mine. we three did photographs pero si lenski reversals ang ginawa. cute naman. carol made big prints.
my wall, obviously. i exhibited small prints, mga 5r and 8r lang, the most famous of which is my shot of carol there. ang dami niyang fans na gustong bumili nito, pero ayaw ipabenta ng lola mo e. keri lang.
yeah we were also selling our stuff. may bumili naman.
yeah we had cocktails. salamat kay earnest sa pagtulong sa pag-prepare nito. i brought some red wine bottles. ubos lahat syempre.
and if carol is there, music is also there. they had a music jam nung opening amidst the noisy noisy crowd -- kasi po ang dami lang pumunta sa opening, i swear! tuwang-tuwa kaming apat. this is carol with dibayn and kwami. early incarnations of engkantada, piecemeal baga.
lenski's guests, including ate chi, ang aming favorite copyeditor sa isis.
my guests. that's my tita pining and my cousins, my mom and pop. happy naman sila. happy rin ako. happy kaming lahat nung gabing iyon.
our writer friend guests. si joel g na obsessed sa horror flicks, i think that's ever-brooding poet vince sa likod, and then indi...and then indi and starshuffler jovan, our favorite graphics artiste. at si len. at ang binili kong bailey's, one of our favorite drinks. yummy.
we also conducted a mid-exhibit poetry reading session with music, of course. nagbasa ako ng ilang tula at kumanta ang ilan.
there's ani from the feminine force group who is also a poet. nagbasa siya. thanks ani. i liked her poem. si frances pala yung nasa foreground.
tumugtog ulit ang mga gels.
sa closing night naman, nagkataong may kasabay na eklavu sa gabi yung penguin. there was a world theater conference chuvalu sa CCP yata that week kaya butch, the penguin owner (and ka-band ni carol sa pinikpikan) had a night program where an indigenous group from burkina faso went and played music and stuff. everybody danced. saya!
pero may sarili pa rin kaming ek nun. here's our friend, writer din and now singer isha performing some songs. there's her hubby and gig julalay robert quebral sa likod.
some of my guests pa rin. my cousin rona and her hubby xavier with their french friends.
and jay cruz, a writer friend but more of a dancer, from the dancing wounded commune. nag-hang out din sila dun.
saya nitong mga araw na ito. sana maulit. hm, may venue na e. gawa na lang ng bagong photos...
yeh.
eto yung ilan sa photos na in-exhibit ko. share ko lang.
i call this one "swirl street." nakaw shot a la lomo padaan sa marikina bridge isang gabi, while riding papa's car.
i actually forgot what i called this one. taken during sunset at the batangas flying school of the air force. we had a shoot that day there, my first day to direct LOVELY DAY.
yes, i also forgot this one. tinatanong nila lagi kung ano ito. kung nasa loob ka ng cafe ng ayala museum, tumingala ka.
this one i call "bloom." eto nabenta ito. taken at my former home lang, naglalaro ng macro chuva ng bagong biling digicam. it's actually a flower. some sweet girl gave me flowers and i put them in a vase with water. lasted for days. thanks for the flowers, sweetie.
this one i think i called "lava lump." hehe. la lang. taken at fafa louie bahista ng bayan talan's recording studio.
not sure what i called this. psychedelic yata. in reality, that's the silhouette of billy bonnevie during a pinikpikan gig sa saguijo makati.
one of my favorites. i call this "speed." taken from a balcony sa isang art exhibit area/space sa loob in intramuros, in front of the cathedral.
i call this one "fireworks." simple lang noh. taken during the festivities of the spanish chuvalu event ng instituto cervantes sa may intramuros.
"kunin ang google account" -- ha?
"tingnang muli" -- grammar check!
"i-edit ang html" -- weird
"mag-compose" -- hmmm.
"mag-sign in"
"bumuo ng blog"
yoko nah.
dapat may taga-sentro ng wikang pilipinong tumingin nito. and how do they spell pictures? "letrato" waaaaaah. ano'ng dictionary gamit niyo! bumili ng vicassan. nyets.
*
speaking of pictures, nami-miss ko nang mag-photography ulit. nakaka-engganyo yung mga works ng participants sa basic black and white photography workshop ni anne at beng. nag-exhibit sila last saturday afternoon sa bernal gallery at tumugtog ang ilan sa amin sa engkantada ng two songs lang naman. so bet lang.
miss ko ring mag-exhibit. kahit mega-haggard ang preps, nakaka-miss din kahit papaano...
naisip ko lang. di ko pa yata na-share dito yung photo exhibit chenes namin last year ng mga ex-isis gels and a current isis gel forever hehe.
sampol:
exhibit's title was named
BABAE SA TAG-ARAW:
WOMEN ROMANCING THE SENSES
held at the famed old malate haunt penguin cafe na nagtatago sa pangalang rock ola cafe these days. we opened april 25, a day after my birthday, and closed a month after.
poster design made by lenski.
ang mga puki ng pitik hihihihihi:(sorry addicted ako sa alliteration)
my good friends indira endaya, aileen familara, me and carol bello.
what do we have in common? lahat kami nagtrabaho sa iisang feminist media org NGO. ang award: si lenski, naroon pa rin hihihi. indi's somewhere in europe na, carol is somewhere in UP and i'm somewhere in the cosmos hehehe. chos.
salamat nga pala kay adam dahil litrato niya ang apat na ito.
nga pala, pitik is the term used by newspaper photographers to refer to the action of photographing something. "pipitik lang ako dito." o kaya "pitikin mo na yan." pitik, meaning kuhanan mo na ng litrato.
the mirror thingie and the stage area.
indi's corner walls. doon siya sa looban doon sa cozy nook near the bar. she made two mosaic-type photos of nepali girls and stuff, interactive with post-its whatnots. cute siya.
there i was hanging out with the lezzies at that corner, sina ani and roda and roda's friend. and some other penguin habitues like me, new generation lezzies nga lang sila, most of them also from thelword egroup i belong to, though i can't recall all their names.
len's wall and carol's wall, which was adjacent to one of mine. we three did photographs pero si lenski reversals ang ginawa. cute naman. carol made big prints.
my wall, obviously. i exhibited small prints, mga 5r and 8r lang, the most famous of which is my shot of carol there. ang dami niyang fans na gustong bumili nito, pero ayaw ipabenta ng lola mo e. keri lang.
yeah we were also selling our stuff. may bumili naman.
yeah we had cocktails. salamat kay earnest sa pagtulong sa pag-prepare nito. i brought some red wine bottles. ubos lahat syempre.
and if carol is there, music is also there. they had a music jam nung opening amidst the noisy noisy crowd -- kasi po ang dami lang pumunta sa opening, i swear! tuwang-tuwa kaming apat. this is carol with dibayn and kwami. early incarnations of engkantada, piecemeal baga.
lenski's guests, including ate chi, ang aming favorite copyeditor sa isis.
my guests. that's my tita pining and my cousins, my mom and pop. happy naman sila. happy rin ako. happy kaming lahat nung gabing iyon.
our writer friend guests. si joel g na obsessed sa horror flicks, i think that's ever-brooding poet vince sa likod, and then indi...and then indi and starshuffler jovan, our favorite graphics artiste. at si len. at ang binili kong bailey's, one of our favorite drinks. yummy.
we also conducted a mid-exhibit poetry reading session with music, of course. nagbasa ako ng ilang tula at kumanta ang ilan.
there's ani from the feminine force group who is also a poet. nagbasa siya. thanks ani. i liked her poem. si frances pala yung nasa foreground.
tumugtog ulit ang mga gels.
sa closing night naman, nagkataong may kasabay na eklavu sa gabi yung penguin. there was a world theater conference chuvalu sa CCP yata that week kaya butch, the penguin owner (and ka-band ni carol sa pinikpikan) had a night program where an indigenous group from burkina faso went and played music and stuff. everybody danced. saya!
pero may sarili pa rin kaming ek nun. here's our friend, writer din and now singer isha performing some songs. there's her hubby and gig julalay robert quebral sa likod.
some of my guests pa rin. my cousin rona and her hubby xavier with their french friends.
and jay cruz, a writer friend but more of a dancer, from the dancing wounded commune. nag-hang out din sila dun.
saya nitong mga araw na ito. sana maulit. hm, may venue na e. gawa na lang ng bagong photos...
yeh.
eto yung ilan sa photos na in-exhibit ko. share ko lang.
i call this one "swirl street." nakaw shot a la lomo padaan sa marikina bridge isang gabi, while riding papa's car.
i actually forgot what i called this one. taken during sunset at the batangas flying school of the air force. we had a shoot that day there, my first day to direct LOVELY DAY.
yes, i also forgot this one. tinatanong nila lagi kung ano ito. kung nasa loob ka ng cafe ng ayala museum, tumingala ka.
this one i call "bloom." eto nabenta ito. taken at my former home lang, naglalaro ng macro chuva ng bagong biling digicam. it's actually a flower. some sweet girl gave me flowers and i put them in a vase with water. lasted for days. thanks for the flowers, sweetie.
this one i think i called "lava lump." hehe. la lang. taken at fafa louie bahista ng bayan talan's recording studio.
not sure what i called this. psychedelic yata. in reality, that's the silhouette of billy bonnevie during a pinikpikan gig sa saguijo makati.
one of my favorites. i call this "speed." taken from a balcony sa isang art exhibit area/space sa loob in intramuros, in front of the cathedral.
i call this one "fireworks." simple lang noh. taken during the festivities of the spanish chuvalu event ng instituto cervantes sa may intramuros.
18 June 2007
film finds
had a nice weekend. did you? hope you did.
bihira ngayon sa aking bokabularyo ang relaxing weekend. pero dahil sa kaka-start pa lang ng pasukan, siguro magaan pa. kaya keri lang. masaya ang lyf.
caught some movies over the weekend and i wanted to share some quickie film reviews.
ANG DAAN PATUNGONG KALIMUGTONG
okay, is it me or is this film just utterly slow and just sooooo... slow!
it's not me. it is slow.
wala namang kaso kung mabagal ang flow and development ng isang pelikula. pero kung ang development ay talaga lang...mabagal...hay...basta. mabagal siya. ni wala nga akong masabi o. hay. basta tip lang: huwag panonoorin ito kapag puyat ka at wala ka pang kapeng nainom.
di ko kasi alam kung ano ang gustong gawin ni mes. either in love siya masyado sa shots na puro babad kasi nga mahirap puntahan yung benguet area chenes na yun, o talagang wala lang masyadong conflict sa kuwentong ito. wala, walang conflict masyado. as in. ni hindi aabot ng signal number one ang conflict nito. tropical depression chuvaness lang, swear. hindi masu-suspend ang class.
kasi naman nagawa na rin yung ibang storylines e no. napanood ko na yung iba sa film na yun ni gil portes kung saan teacher sa malayong barrio si alessandra de rossi (miscast, di niya keri ang role) na tinuruang lumaban ang students using music chenes bago siya nag-ofw. ano nga ba title nito? at least dito, okay ang directing.
di ko alam kung ano ang bago pero siguro novel kay mes yung idea (kids traveling far to reach school every day) kaya novelty piece ang dating nito. pang-international siya, hindi pang-local audience, kasi ang local audience sawa na sa storylines na ito at sobang pamilyar na kasi. hindi niyang nagawang exciting para sa pamilyar na rito.
hence its international acclaim. so there.
well, at least. di ba? o sya.
GRAY MATTERS
i swear, i looooooooooooooooove this film! ang ganda pala nito!
hesitant ako nung una kasi akala ko, maliit lang ang lesbian storyline but no, dominant pala siya, and it's gay-positive at that! and magaganda ang mga lesbiyana hehehe, with heather graham in the lead and that model girlfriend ni big sa SEX AND THE CITY, sinu nga yun? bridget moynahan ata. tapos who can go wrong with that actress who plays helena in THE L WORD? i heart helena. she's pretty. tapos okay pa ang supporting cast, with a funny shrink sissy spacek, and that funny comedian molly shannon. kewl. di ko lang bet yung guy who played heather's bro pero keri na rin. and a cameo by the gloria gaynor singing "i will survive"??? sankapa!!!
man, i love this film. it beats those other lesbian-themed films with mainstream distribution na oo nga't may pretty lesbians and lesbian storylines pero shonga naman yung script at storya! hello, three words: LOST AND DELIRIOUS. hay, minus ten thousand points si piper perabo dun i swear.
check out the poster:
basta cute siya. watch it. saka galing din ni alan cumming dito. he plays gordy the scottish taxi driver. he has the best line, nung kinu-console niya ang kaka-out pa lang sa sarili at sa mundo (at the same time) na 30-year old character ni heather, aka grey:
bet! i'm taking your advise. i'm doing that now hehe. chos.
see ati, hindi lang ako ang late bloomer na lesbiyana at hindi lang ka-tropa ko ang mga late bloomer sa sex and sexuality chenes hehehehehe. marami kami. swear. buti nga ako early 20s no hehe. e itong sa film, 30 na siya ati! hehehe.
saka isa pa, si gordy rin nagsabi:
word.
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hey ki, thanks for the comment. hehe wala lang, kala ko may nag-e-exist na "st scho vibe" e hehe. la lang. imbento.
and jojo, thanks for liking the poem. oo, i know you like staring. sa india na lang e, dami natin tinititigan doon no? hehehe hanggang titig lang tayo dun. bat kaya? hm...
bihira ngayon sa aking bokabularyo ang relaxing weekend. pero dahil sa kaka-start pa lang ng pasukan, siguro magaan pa. kaya keri lang. masaya ang lyf.
caught some movies over the weekend and i wanted to share some quickie film reviews.
ANG DAAN PATUNGONG KALIMUGTONG
okay, is it me or is this film just utterly slow and just sooooo... slow!
it's not me. it is slow.
wala namang kaso kung mabagal ang flow and development ng isang pelikula. pero kung ang development ay talaga lang...mabagal...hay...basta. mabagal siya. ni wala nga akong masabi o. hay. basta tip lang: huwag panonoorin ito kapag puyat ka at wala ka pang kapeng nainom.
di ko kasi alam kung ano ang gustong gawin ni mes. either in love siya masyado sa shots na puro babad kasi nga mahirap puntahan yung benguet area chenes na yun, o talagang wala lang masyadong conflict sa kuwentong ito. wala, walang conflict masyado. as in. ni hindi aabot ng signal number one ang conflict nito. tropical depression chuvaness lang, swear. hindi masu-suspend ang class.
kasi naman nagawa na rin yung ibang storylines e no. napanood ko na yung iba sa film na yun ni gil portes kung saan teacher sa malayong barrio si alessandra de rossi (miscast, di niya keri ang role) na tinuruang lumaban ang students using music chenes bago siya nag-ofw. ano nga ba title nito? at least dito, okay ang directing.
di ko alam kung ano ang bago pero siguro novel kay mes yung idea (kids traveling far to reach school every day) kaya novelty piece ang dating nito. pang-international siya, hindi pang-local audience, kasi ang local audience sawa na sa storylines na ito at sobang pamilyar na kasi. hindi niyang nagawang exciting para sa pamilyar na rito.
hence its international acclaim. so there.
well, at least. di ba? o sya.
GRAY MATTERS
i swear, i looooooooooooooooove this film! ang ganda pala nito!
hesitant ako nung una kasi akala ko, maliit lang ang lesbian storyline but no, dominant pala siya, and it's gay-positive at that! and magaganda ang mga lesbiyana hehehe, with heather graham in the lead and that model girlfriend ni big sa SEX AND THE CITY, sinu nga yun? bridget moynahan ata. tapos who can go wrong with that actress who plays helena in THE L WORD? i heart helena. she's pretty. tapos okay pa ang supporting cast, with a funny shrink sissy spacek, and that funny comedian molly shannon. kewl. di ko lang bet yung guy who played heather's bro pero keri na rin. and a cameo by the gloria gaynor singing "i will survive"??? sankapa!!!
man, i love this film. it beats those other lesbian-themed films with mainstream distribution na oo nga't may pretty lesbians and lesbian storylines pero shonga naman yung script at storya! hello, three words: LOST AND DELIRIOUS. hay, minus ten thousand points si piper perabo dun i swear.
check out the poster:
basta cute siya. watch it. saka galing din ni alan cumming dito. he plays gordy the scottish taxi driver. he has the best line, nung kinu-console niya ang kaka-out pa lang sa sarili at sa mundo (at the same time) na 30-year old character ni heather, aka grey:
"All you need is some fresh air, space and perspective."
bet! i'm taking your advise. i'm doing that now hehe. chos.
see ati, hindi lang ako ang late bloomer na lesbiyana at hindi lang ka-tropa ko ang mga late bloomer sa sex and sexuality chenes hehehehehe. marami kami. swear. buti nga ako early 20s no hehe. e itong sa film, 30 na siya ati! hehehe.
saka isa pa, si gordy rin nagsabi:
"Easy is so bloody boring!"
word.
*
hey ki, thanks for the comment. hehe wala lang, kala ko may nag-e-exist na "st scho vibe" e hehe. la lang. imbento.
and jojo, thanks for liking the poem. oo, i know you like staring. sa india na lang e, dami natin tinititigan doon no? hehehe hanggang titig lang tayo dun. bat kaya? hm...
16 June 2007
an ode to staring
an ode to staring
why do you stare? i've been asked.
i stare when there's nothing better to say, i've been accused
i stare when i feel defeat and don't have the guts to admit it, i've been charged
that's not why. no, that's not why.
i stare when there are no words
to express the appreciation i want to convey
i stare when there are no sounds i could utter
to let her feel what i am feeling, at that moment, for her
more importantly
i stare when i want to say something
but decide against it
because i feel if i do say something
i will be accused and charged
--yet again--
of leading...or misleading...
i don't want to be held in trial again. ever.
but most times, you know,
i stare because i appreciate
appreciate beauty
appreciate kindness
appreciate thoughtfulness
appreciate caring
appreciate friendship
appreciate silence
apreciate respect for silence
appreciate what could have been
appreciate what was there before
appreciate how things are, now
...and appreciate respect
i appreciate.
so staring is a challenge
it's rude, i've been warned
yes, staring is rude
but if you know me or try to know me more
you'll understand that staring is a challenge
staring is my challenge
challenge if i can hold my own
and challenge if you could hold yours
let's see where it takes us, then
yes, let's.
why do you stare? i've been asked.
i stare when there's nothing better to say, i've been accused
i stare when i feel defeat and don't have the guts to admit it, i've been charged
that's not why. no, that's not why.
i stare when there are no words
to express the appreciation i want to convey
i stare when there are no sounds i could utter
to let her feel what i am feeling, at that moment, for her
more importantly
i stare when i want to say something
but decide against it
because i feel if i do say something
i will be accused and charged
--yet again--
of leading...or misleading...
i don't want to be held in trial again. ever.
but most times, you know,
i stare because i appreciate
appreciate beauty
appreciate kindness
appreciate thoughtfulness
appreciate caring
appreciate friendship
appreciate silence
apreciate respect for silence
appreciate what could have been
appreciate what was there before
appreciate how things are, now
...and appreciate respect
i appreciate.
so staring is a challenge
it's rude, i've been warned
yes, staring is rude
but if you know me or try to know me more
you'll understand that staring is a challenge
staring is my challenge
challenge if i can hold my own
and challenge if you could hold yours
let's see where it takes us, then
yes, let's.
13 June 2007
luzon libay, lesbian libay...and other libays...
My Lakbayan grade is D!
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Created by Eugene Villar.
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hmm, i realize i am confining myself to luzon... saka dun lang sa part na iyon sa luzon, sa may kaliwa ng mapa. although i've been sa may gitnang part, pero siyempre concentrated sa negros area kasi been there several times, and then one dot to reveal i've been in davao...teka asan ang cebu? napadpad na rin ako dun e...hmmm...kakaiba no?
okay itong chorva na to a. kay starshuffler ko nakuha hehe. try niyo rin.
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obviously naboborlogs na naman utak ko. i just came from a 3.5 hour meeting kaya i still can't find the energy to leave the office. buti na lang at may internet pa kaya here we are...
yea you guessed it, revaluation committee meeting anew. natatawa lang ako sa mga ka-meeting ko kasi obviously, tired na rin kami lahat. either nagpaaptawa na kaming lahat sa kagagahang makakaharap namin sa cluster committee or nagne-nervous eating kami sabi nga ni mam anne dahil hindi kami naka-order ng pagkaing gusto namin talaga kaya lang wala nang pera sa admin chaka... so binge kami sa msg in foil packs, also known as chichirya, and some chaka food from the cmc canteen. and drinks. man, i want steak.
pero biggest reklamador pala ay si madam journ na medyo nag-OC mode kasi doon kami sa newsroom nila nag-meeting at no eating daw pala doon ever hehe. i guess unlike sa film na we can bend some rules a little as long as we clean up after ourselves and all, medyo tensed ang lola. kaya linis mode herself ang lola after ng meeting. well, such is life, di ba? wala lang, OC lang sya sobra hehe naaaliw ako. obvious kasing di siya mapakali during the meet hehe. pero syempre, makukuwestyon ba niya ang the rest of the peeps, na kung di luminary in their own right like sir nic tiongson e mga chairs of depts? so yun nah...
speaking of sir nic, it takes another geek, a film geek at that, to make this comment to another film geek like me "wow, new hair...and new glasses..." he said that when he first saw my new haircut and it was incidental that i had new eyeglasses made around that time, too. hehehe naaliw ako sa comment "new glasses" geek mode! hehe i heart geeks.
at dahil sa aking hair katay mode ay madaming di nakakilala sa akin nung umpisa at even up to now. like i think direk maryo j took 10 handshakes to recognize me. as in, hindi niya binibitawan ang kamay ko when we saw each other sa investiture rites ni mam gigi alfonso last saturday sa bernal gallery. hahaha natatawa ko just thinking about it... same with sir tikoy aguiluz who took like 6 squints at me and two explanations from tita lalli during the french film festival opening sa shang until his face read "aaah, si libay!" even martin from the french embassy treated me differently. kasi hindi na ko pa-girl noh. as in, total paradigm shift ang looks ko because of the hair. hm, nalalaki yata ang lolo sa akin hahahaha. saka kasi may kasama kong date na girl, kaya double whammy siya hahaha. la lang... some pipol...
in short, nagmukha akong soft butch instead of femme. hahahaaha.
pero on the other hand, natatawa naman ako sa mga sumusubok "umamoy" sa akin dahil dito. like there was this one student from miriam college na applicant for transferee sa film. after i interviewed her, we had this conversation:
her: mam, sa marikina kayo nag-aral ng high school?
me: uh...oo (thought balloon: pano niya nalaman?)
her: (looking so sure of it) ah...sa st. scho?
me: uh, no. sa infant jesus...
her: ah... (starts to walk away)
me: bakit, ikaw, st. scho?
her: (with a smile) yes.
me: ... (thought balloon: hmmm)
do i have a st. scho vibe, man? ewan ko lang. kia?
o dahil nga sa siguro tibamers siya at di lang niya matanong directly na "mam, magic ka ba?" or "mam, magic ka rin ba?" or whatever term her generation uses these days.
ay, oo nga pala, for the uninitiated, the manila exclusive high school girls use this term "magic" to refer to girls who magically turn from girly uniformed high schoolers into butchy-looking lesbians outside school. hence, magic.
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sabi nga pala ng stars sa akin today--as usual swak na naman:
Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)
You just can't see yourself clearly enough now. Your role in the world is muddled, too, for it can be based more on your ideal than it is on the actual reality of your life. Try not to lose track of the truth. Give yourself permission to do a bit of dreaming so you can incorporate parts of your fantasy into your life.
devah.
*
hay nakuh time to go na nga. baka pag-lock-an ako ng building dude ng masscomm, matulad tayo kay tilman na na-trap sa baba hehe.
later.
12 June 2007
Afternoon with French Film director CANCELLED
post ko lang itong update. chorvah. ca va mal...
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The UPFI Cine Adarna regrets to inform you that "An Afternoon with Lionel Bailliu" scheduled on Thursday 1-4p is CANCELLED, due to unforeseen circumstances. Director Lionel Bailliu has cancelled his trip to the Philippines because of personal matters.
We have, however, programmed to screen international indie shorts on the same day, beginning 5pm at the UPFI Videotheque. This is open to the public.
Thank you.
07 June 2007
realignment with the lez perspective
punyeta talaga ang stars kung magsalita ano. swakers ever.
comme ca:
wowee. galeng. swak siya ever. bow ako sa stars.
tama siya. focus on the brighter side. and yes, i am not in denial.
and for the first time in months, i can really say i am truly happy. as in genuinely happy.
i feel alive.
so don't dis me if i smile without reason these days. that just means it hits me that i am happy. because i truly am.
*
been enjoying the company of new friends and old ones lately, again. masarap talagang makipag-connect sa fellow lezzies talaga, i swear, especially the out ones. yung walang kiyeme ang barkadahan kapag nasa labas kayo, single or coupled, at obvious man o hindi na mga tungraiders kayo -- or kami. i really like that. and i so miss my old posse tuloy in that endeavor, kia, dre and the company of fellow sapphic sisters during our UP Sappho days. yung ha-hang out lang sa treehouse to eat dinner and drink and smoke after hanging out at the AS parking lot tambayan while chatting and smoking and all.
man, those were the days, no?
sumabit ang ilan sa amin last night sa hanging out mode ng aking friend si ging and her new jowa rose. it's their third monthsary pala. simple lang naman. just roamed around greenhills after hanging out in a morato meeting and dinner and that's it. well, it didn't help that ging got some kind of allergic reaction to some chinese food kaya the night ended early. e kasi naman ati, chinese e. ano pa ba expect natin lola? hehe. but seriously, i hope you're feeling okay na mare. si rose din.
hehe, i still can't get over couples celebrating monthsaries. i swear, super sickeningly sweet and pukingly romantic ito...or maybe it's just not for me. hahaha yeah i know, hindi talaga. hindi yan bitterness ha. ewan ko ba. minsan naaaliw lang ako sa mga gawaing pang-puso ng sangkatauhan e... heheh. but that's just me. weird ako that way, pramis. and i've become a hapless romantic hehehe. wotevah.
pero happy ako sa mga taong happy sa ganito. lalo na sa mga taong they really deserve to be happy after years or months of being miserable and all, or after having been through a messy separation (non)process with a selfish ex who personify the devil in various degrees and stuff. you get the picture. dami kasi ganyan sa lesbian world, tulad sa het world hehehe. hay sa dami ng naririnig kong kuwentong hiwalayan na ganito kasalimuot sa lezworld lately, puwede na ko magsulat ng nobela about it. hmm huway nat...
people deserve to be happy. yun lang naman ang bottomline ng lahat ng ito. and for some people, being coupled with someone who understands them is enough for them to be happy. siyempre kanya-kanya tayo ng definition ng happiness. yung iba, happy sa pagiging un-coupled. magtatayo na nga sina ani ng "tigang gang" sa penguin e hahahaha. ayuz yan mare! sali ko diyan! yung iba naman, happy sa pagkakaroon ng dalawang partners. siguro magaling sila sa time management, anesh? yung iba naman, happy sa pagkakaroon ng someone sa tabi nila kahit walang kategorya o definition ng kanilang samahan. yung iba naman, happy sa pagkakaroon ng virtual someone na kahit di pa nila nahahawakan e inlab na through online means. so kanya-kanyang chenelyn na lang yun, really.
so to you two lovebirds, cheers from the leaflens perspective. more monthsaries to come. next time, mag-cater na lang kasi kayo hehehe. sayang naman ang chef mode ni ate rose at sous-chef mode mo ging. wag na chinese food sa chinese resto. saka na chicken feet. oke? :P ate rose, wag lang may luya ha. ikamamatay ko naman yun hehe.
comme ca:
Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)
You might be pulled in two directions as you struggle to find a comfortable middle path. On one hand, you have responsibilities that must be addressed, even if you don't want to work much. On the other hand, you may not be able to suppress your smile, for you know that your life is not quite as difficult these days as it has been in the past. Keep your focus on the brighter side, but don't go into denial about your current obligations.
wowee. galeng. swak siya ever. bow ako sa stars.
tama siya. focus on the brighter side. and yes, i am not in denial.
and for the first time in months, i can really say i am truly happy. as in genuinely happy.
i feel alive.
so don't dis me if i smile without reason these days. that just means it hits me that i am happy. because i truly am.
*
been enjoying the company of new friends and old ones lately, again. masarap talagang makipag-connect sa fellow lezzies talaga, i swear, especially the out ones. yung walang kiyeme ang barkadahan kapag nasa labas kayo, single or coupled, at obvious man o hindi na mga tungraiders kayo -- or kami. i really like that. and i so miss my old posse tuloy in that endeavor, kia, dre and the company of fellow sapphic sisters during our UP Sappho days. yung ha-hang out lang sa treehouse to eat dinner and drink and smoke after hanging out at the AS parking lot tambayan while chatting and smoking and all.
man, those were the days, no?
sumabit ang ilan sa amin last night sa hanging out mode ng aking friend si ging and her new jowa rose. it's their third monthsary pala. simple lang naman. just roamed around greenhills after hanging out in a morato meeting and dinner and that's it. well, it didn't help that ging got some kind of allergic reaction to some chinese food kaya the night ended early. e kasi naman ati, chinese e. ano pa ba expect natin lola? hehe. but seriously, i hope you're feeling okay na mare. si rose din.
hehe, i still can't get over couples celebrating monthsaries. i swear, super sickeningly sweet and pukingly romantic ito...or maybe it's just not for me. hahaha yeah i know, hindi talaga. hindi yan bitterness ha. ewan ko ba. minsan naaaliw lang ako sa mga gawaing pang-puso ng sangkatauhan e... heheh. but that's just me. weird ako that way, pramis. and i've become a hapless romantic hehehe. wotevah.
pero happy ako sa mga taong happy sa ganito. lalo na sa mga taong they really deserve to be happy after years or months of being miserable and all, or after having been through a messy separation (non)process with a selfish ex who personify the devil in various degrees and stuff. you get the picture. dami kasi ganyan sa lesbian world, tulad sa het world hehehe. hay sa dami ng naririnig kong kuwentong hiwalayan na ganito kasalimuot sa lezworld lately, puwede na ko magsulat ng nobela about it. hmm huway nat...
people deserve to be happy. yun lang naman ang bottomline ng lahat ng ito. and for some people, being coupled with someone who understands them is enough for them to be happy. siyempre kanya-kanya tayo ng definition ng happiness. yung iba, happy sa pagiging un-coupled. magtatayo na nga sina ani ng "tigang gang" sa penguin e hahahaha. ayuz yan mare! sali ko diyan! yung iba naman, happy sa pagkakaroon ng dalawang partners. siguro magaling sila sa time management, anesh? yung iba naman, happy sa pagkakaroon ng someone sa tabi nila kahit walang kategorya o definition ng kanilang samahan. yung iba naman, happy sa pagkakaroon ng virtual someone na kahit di pa nila nahahawakan e inlab na through online means. so kanya-kanyang chenelyn na lang yun, really.
so to you two lovebirds, cheers from the leaflens perspective. more monthsaries to come. next time, mag-cater na lang kasi kayo hehehe. sayang naman ang chef mode ni ate rose at sous-chef mode mo ging. wag na chinese food sa chinese resto. saka na chicken feet. oke? :P ate rose, wag lang may luya ha. ikamamatay ko naman yun hehe.
05 June 2007
seven random things about me
okay tutal na-tag ako mi marninay sa multiply, post ko na rin dito ang sagot ko.
eto.
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dahil na-tag ako ni marninay, eto nah.
Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!
hmm random pala ha... nakakainiz kayoh may PG-13 akong ka-multiply! kaya di puwede ang r18 stuff hahaha! heniweyz...
1.[to make gaya the pcd] i love having *beep* and i can *beep* even if i just met the person. and i can also *beep* without falling for the person. you better *beep*ing believe it. i just hope the person i *beep* will also reciprocate that way, that the person can *beep* me without falling for me. even if that is *beep*ing hard. harharharhar. chosssssss.
2. i love surfing even if i really can't swim. yes, i am living proof that one can surf without learning how to swim. ayaw kasi maniwala ng iba dyan na puwede yun e.
3. i sometimes write brilliant pieces when under the influence of something that alters the state of my mind. hindi exag ito pramis.
4. i am an emotional and social smoker. meaning, pag nakakainom ako, mas nae-enganyo mag-smoke. kapag emotionally disturbed ako, napapa-smoke din ako.
5. my favorite fruits are santol, strawberry and mangosteen. my favorite veggies are carrots, talong and cabbage. hm, saan ba balong ang kamatis? bet ko rin yun. my favorite ice cream flavor is anything coffee/mocha-oriented. and if richie rich can have his own mcdonald's at home, i'd like to have my own baskin robbins and seattle's best coffee. i can eat tuna sashimi and mild tomato salsa--separate or together--to no end. yes i have strange food combinations, too. i can also dip the sashimi into the garlic mayo sauce thing na sauce ng shawarma. ay men you gotta try that, delish sya pramis.
6. i could be obsessive compulsive about eating. meaning if i tried one good dish in a resto, i stick to it and reorder it and reorder it whenever i revisit the place, without trying the other dishes at all. come hell or high water i will go to that resto if the craving for that certain dish comes. ganun din sa ibang cravings -- if i gotta have it, i gotta have it and eat it. sampol: i used to drive from proj2qc to malate at 1130pm if i get a craving for penguin cafe's lamb chops during the late '90s. yes ganon ka-obsessive.
7. i am still trying to figure out if, to some degree, i am a "down with love" girl. in reference to the movie of renee zellweger and ewan mcgregor. i'd like to believe i am, though.
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okay i'm tagging the people who are always online at may patience (i assume) to answer stuff like this...basically the engkantadas! hehehe. and others.
tag!
eto.
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dahil na-tag ako ni marninay, eto nah.
Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!
hmm random pala ha... nakakainiz kayoh may PG-13 akong ka-multiply! kaya di puwede ang r18 stuff hahaha! heniweyz...
1.[to make gaya the pcd] i love having *beep* and i can *beep* even if i just met the person. and i can also *beep* without falling for the person. you better *beep*ing believe it. i just hope the person i *beep* will also reciprocate that way, that the person can *beep* me without falling for me. even if that is *beep*ing hard. harharharhar. chosssssss.
2. i love surfing even if i really can't swim. yes, i am living proof that one can surf without learning how to swim. ayaw kasi maniwala ng iba dyan na puwede yun e.
3. i sometimes write brilliant pieces when under the influence of something that alters the state of my mind. hindi exag ito pramis.
4. i am an emotional and social smoker. meaning, pag nakakainom ako, mas nae-enganyo mag-smoke. kapag emotionally disturbed ako, napapa-smoke din ako.
5. my favorite fruits are santol, strawberry and mangosteen. my favorite veggies are carrots, talong and cabbage. hm, saan ba balong ang kamatis? bet ko rin yun. my favorite ice cream flavor is anything coffee/mocha-oriented. and if richie rich can have his own mcdonald's at home, i'd like to have my own baskin robbins and seattle's best coffee. i can eat tuna sashimi and mild tomato salsa--separate or together--to no end. yes i have strange food combinations, too. i can also dip the sashimi into the garlic mayo sauce thing na sauce ng shawarma. ay men you gotta try that, delish sya pramis.
6. i could be obsessive compulsive about eating. meaning if i tried one good dish in a resto, i stick to it and reorder it and reorder it whenever i revisit the place, without trying the other dishes at all. come hell or high water i will go to that resto if the craving for that certain dish comes. ganun din sa ibang cravings -- if i gotta have it, i gotta have it and eat it. sampol: i used to drive from proj2qc to malate at 1130pm if i get a craving for penguin cafe's lamb chops during the late '90s. yes ganon ka-obsessive.
7. i am still trying to figure out if, to some degree, i am a "down with love" girl. in reference to the movie of renee zellweger and ewan mcgregor. i'd like to believe i am, though.
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okay i'm tagging the people who are always online at may patience (i assume) to answer stuff like this...basically the engkantadas! hehehe. and others.
tag!
04 June 2007
caffeine as a substitute for morphine+flash film critiques
call me an addict, but the prospect of sitting in on the cluster committee version of the revaluation committee to discuss the film program and cmc's curriculum revaluation prompts me to think of shooting up caffeine directly into my blood vessels, like what morphine and heroin addicts do. kaya lang ugly ang may butas-butas sa arm kaya dedma na... but the thought is tempting, promise.
and lo and behold, aga pa ng meeting!9friggingam! i never thought i'd say this but i'd rather face endless hours of registration advising than sit in that reval meeting for 1/4 of the day! dude, sometimes it takes longer than that! aarrrgh. and it doesn't help that the cluster meeting is at the college of music, because the chair of the cluster committee is the college of music's dean. sana man lang sa cmc para i can escape to my room once in a while but no, suffer kami lahat sa neighboring college bukas. aaarrgggh!
i can't wait for tomorrow to be over. hay. just thinking about it makes me involuntarily lethargic. i hope they serve good food, man. i swear. lengua lang ang katapat nito, i swear.
man, rescue me. i'm so dreading this. but yes, we have to be there. i have to guard the changes we worked so hard on this past schoolyear. para sa ikabubuti ng film program. hay help me goddess...
sa tension, di tuloy ako makatulog. so here we are.
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saw some movies over the weekend and i just want to release what i think of some of them. in a flash.
CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION , THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE
and yet this is another tilda-swinton-bad-hair-day movie (remember CONSTANTINE, and THE BEACH, and others). ito ang "no shampoo no conditioner for 100 years" look para ma-achieve ang ice queen naninigas hair effect. ayuz.
as much as i wanna be dazzled by the special effects and the movie wizardry, can't help but get derailed by how...catholic the storyline is. from the lion's death and resurrection, the sibling's messianic complex to save the people of narnia, the ultimate sacrifice subtheme repeated several times, chenelyn chenelyn chenelyn...kulang na lang may literal na mag-genuflect dito eh. hay...lumalabas ang catholic schoolgirl angst ko hehehe. chos.kaya di ako na-engganyo sa writings ni cslewis e. hm.
at ang lesson dito sa mga bata ay: tigilan ang katakawan. dahil kung di nag-desire sa turkish delight desserts yung isang bata, walang trouble in the first place. hanggang the wardrobe lang ang adventure. wala nang lion witch and other strange creatures we've seen before in lots of literary and film works.
and yeah, it's so freaking british. tea with the little girl and a faun. ay. basta.
SWEET HOME ALABAMA
as usual, reese witherspoon turns a normal role into a good one and saves it from being hollywoodishly banal. yeah, i like her, she's a good actor for me. hello LEGALLY BLONDE na lang no hehe.at classic pa rin si candace bergen. i so miss MURPHY BROWN. they don't make witty funny sitcoms like that anymore. hay.
SHREK 3
scary si snow white. sobra. yun lang.
hm, okay sige more pa. mas witty at funny yung unang dalawa. pero nakakatawa rin naman ito.
and i love the way they poked fun at the disney style when snow white sang that sweet song tapos naging headbanger crazy hahahaha. how irreverenltly schizophrenic! luv it.
oo may hang-up ako kay snow white. scary kasi siya. swear.
*
yeah bumabawi na ko sa panonood ng new material. new for me kahit luma na. like i just started tuning in sa HEROES tv series sa crime and suspense channel. i saw them guest sa show ni ELLEN at naintriga ako. di ko naabutan ang series start sa isang channel kaya buti na lang nakita ko itong sa c/s channel.
at yey natapos din ang binabasa kong isang reference book sa aking thesis. next!
yay i think i got over my de-media-fied mode na. sa wakas!
shet lang di ko napanood ang last ep ng SEARCH FOR THE NEXT PUSSYCAT DOLL. i swear addicted ako sa show na ito. natatawa kasi ako sa mga nangyayari, pero nakakatuwa ring panoorin ang struggles nila. kahit alam ko na kung sino ang mananalo, gusto ko pa rin tignan ang process. hehe. wala lang. after midnight fare kasi ito e. ito ang mga shows na naaabutan ko. pampatulog ba.
*
potah ang init.
*
nakasalang right now ang IWITNESS na pinaghirapan kong i-babysit ang konsepto sa researcher nila. sa dami na ng changes, leads and case studies na na-suggest ko sa batang yun, hay...buti naman nakapili sila ng angulo sa wakas.
"lesbiyana ako" ang titulo at siyempre lesbianism ang topic. kaya ako na naman ang natisod nilang gawing resource person. na naman. ginawa na ito dati nina vicky morales dati, IWITNESS din. gusto sana nila akong i-oncam pero dahil sa hindi out ang girlfriend ko dati, behind the scenes lang ako. i just made sure lang now na dapat hindi na sila magtanong ng stupid questions like "ay, so hindi pala kayo nagsusuot ng brief?"
aiiiiiii. swear. katangahan to the utmost level ang tanong na to.
ayan, buti rin kinontak nila si ate shao, yung kasama kong sp sa lovely day dati. ang laki na ni kalil, yung baby niya! kalurka kasi dati ginamit namin itong baby niya sa isang ep, at potah ginabi ako sa pagdirek nito i swear. kaya stick with the old credo of no babies and no animals on the set.
but what's with the NYPD BLUEish cam movements? hindi achieve, ati...
lesbians with children na lang ang ginawa nilang anggulo. sayang mas bet sana yung power lesbians e. kulit e. yet again, na-stuck sa old gender roles of being a nanay ang naging approach. hmp. sana power lesbians na lang nga. well, sige na nga. buti na lang din at binitawan nila yung plan na may mag-a-out na lez sa pamilya chenes chenes na style ng OUT! dati. kulit kasi e. sabing di effective yun.
hm, pero teka...dapat yata may consultancy fee ako dito a. hm.
la lang.
joke. syempre glad to be of help basta sa advocacy na ito. chos.
at they got my name wrong na naman. libay lisangan cantor. nyets. well at least close. dati kasi dun sa iwit ni vicky noong 2000-2001, ang pangalan ko ay 'libay linsangan center.' joke tuloy for a while sa community na wpw, isang building na pala ako...kalurks.
well, nobody's perfect.
and lo and behold, aga pa ng meeting!9friggingam! i never thought i'd say this but i'd rather face endless hours of registration advising than sit in that reval meeting for 1/4 of the day! dude, sometimes it takes longer than that! aarrrgh. and it doesn't help that the cluster meeting is at the college of music, because the chair of the cluster committee is the college of music's dean. sana man lang sa cmc para i can escape to my room once in a while but no, suffer kami lahat sa neighboring college bukas. aaarrgggh!
i can't wait for tomorrow to be over. hay. just thinking about it makes me involuntarily lethargic. i hope they serve good food, man. i swear. lengua lang ang katapat nito, i swear.
man, rescue me. i'm so dreading this. but yes, we have to be there. i have to guard the changes we worked so hard on this past schoolyear. para sa ikabubuti ng film program. hay help me goddess...
sa tension, di tuloy ako makatulog. so here we are.
*
saw some movies over the weekend and i just want to release what i think of some of them. in a flash.
CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION , THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE
and yet this is another tilda-swinton-bad-hair-day movie (remember CONSTANTINE, and THE BEACH, and others). ito ang "no shampoo no conditioner for 100 years" look para ma-achieve ang ice queen naninigas hair effect. ayuz.
as much as i wanna be dazzled by the special effects and the movie wizardry, can't help but get derailed by how...catholic the storyline is. from the lion's death and resurrection, the sibling's messianic complex to save the people of narnia, the ultimate sacrifice subtheme repeated several times, chenelyn chenelyn chenelyn...kulang na lang may literal na mag-genuflect dito eh. hay...lumalabas ang catholic schoolgirl angst ko hehehe. chos.kaya di ako na-engganyo sa writings ni cslewis e. hm.
at ang lesson dito sa mga bata ay: tigilan ang katakawan. dahil kung di nag-desire sa turkish delight desserts yung isang bata, walang trouble in the first place. hanggang the wardrobe lang ang adventure. wala nang lion witch and other strange creatures we've seen before in lots of literary and film works.
and yeah, it's so freaking british. tea with the little girl and a faun. ay. basta.
SWEET HOME ALABAMA
as usual, reese witherspoon turns a normal role into a good one and saves it from being hollywoodishly banal. yeah, i like her, she's a good actor for me. hello LEGALLY BLONDE na lang no hehe.at classic pa rin si candace bergen. i so miss MURPHY BROWN. they don't make witty funny sitcoms like that anymore. hay.
SHREK 3
scary si snow white. sobra. yun lang.
hm, okay sige more pa. mas witty at funny yung unang dalawa. pero nakakatawa rin naman ito.
and i love the way they poked fun at the disney style when snow white sang that sweet song tapos naging headbanger crazy hahahaha. how irreverenltly schizophrenic! luv it.
oo may hang-up ako kay snow white. scary kasi siya. swear.
*
yeah bumabawi na ko sa panonood ng new material. new for me kahit luma na. like i just started tuning in sa HEROES tv series sa crime and suspense channel. i saw them guest sa show ni ELLEN at naintriga ako. di ko naabutan ang series start sa isang channel kaya buti na lang nakita ko itong sa c/s channel.
at yey natapos din ang binabasa kong isang reference book sa aking thesis. next!
yay i think i got over my de-media-fied mode na. sa wakas!
shet lang di ko napanood ang last ep ng SEARCH FOR THE NEXT PUSSYCAT DOLL. i swear addicted ako sa show na ito. natatawa kasi ako sa mga nangyayari, pero nakakatuwa ring panoorin ang struggles nila. kahit alam ko na kung sino ang mananalo, gusto ko pa rin tignan ang process. hehe. wala lang. after midnight fare kasi ito e. ito ang mga shows na naaabutan ko. pampatulog ba.
*
potah ang init.
*
nakasalang right now ang IWITNESS na pinaghirapan kong i-babysit ang konsepto sa researcher nila. sa dami na ng changes, leads and case studies na na-suggest ko sa batang yun, hay...buti naman nakapili sila ng angulo sa wakas.
"lesbiyana ako" ang titulo at siyempre lesbianism ang topic. kaya ako na naman ang natisod nilang gawing resource person. na naman. ginawa na ito dati nina vicky morales dati, IWITNESS din. gusto sana nila akong i-oncam pero dahil sa hindi out ang girlfriend ko dati, behind the scenes lang ako. i just made sure lang now na dapat hindi na sila magtanong ng stupid questions like "ay, so hindi pala kayo nagsusuot ng brief?"
aiiiiiii. swear. katangahan to the utmost level ang tanong na to.
ayan, buti rin kinontak nila si ate shao, yung kasama kong sp sa lovely day dati. ang laki na ni kalil, yung baby niya! kalurka kasi dati ginamit namin itong baby niya sa isang ep, at potah ginabi ako sa pagdirek nito i swear. kaya stick with the old credo of no babies and no animals on the set.
but what's with the NYPD BLUEish cam movements? hindi achieve, ati...
lesbians with children na lang ang ginawa nilang anggulo. sayang mas bet sana yung power lesbians e. kulit e. yet again, na-stuck sa old gender roles of being a nanay ang naging approach. hmp. sana power lesbians na lang nga. well, sige na nga. buti na lang din at binitawan nila yung plan na may mag-a-out na lez sa pamilya chenes chenes na style ng OUT! dati. kulit kasi e. sabing di effective yun.
hm, pero teka...dapat yata may consultancy fee ako dito a. hm.
la lang.
joke. syempre glad to be of help basta sa advocacy na ito. chos.
at they got my name wrong na naman. libay lisangan cantor. nyets. well at least close. dati kasi dun sa iwit ni vicky noong 2000-2001, ang pangalan ko ay 'libay linsangan center.' joke tuloy for a while sa community na wpw, isang building na pala ako...kalurks.
well, nobody's perfect.
01 June 2007
french spring in upfi-manille + ny film showing
two events for film enthusiasts, one here in good ol' peyups in line with the french film festival / french spring in manille 07, and the other with my friend lyra in new york.
watch! vue! libre ito.
watch! vue! libre ito.
BONJOUR!
The UPFI is pleased to invite you to An Afternoon with Lionel Bailliu – a joint presentation of The Embassy of the
In time for the French Spring Film Festival 2007 in Manila, award-winning filmmaker, screenwriter, and editor, Lionel Bailliu is coming over to the Philippines to present his first feature-length film, Fair Play (2006). In this context, the filmmaker is also coming over to the UPFI Videotheque (at the back of the Cine Adarna), for an afternoon of interaction with students and aficionados, and to present his short works – Microsnake (2000) and Squash (2002). These two films will not be screened in the French Spring Film Festival 2007 or in any other venue in the
The schedule of the program is as follows:
June 14 (Thursday)
(1) Lecture-Forum / Screening of Short Films (1–5 p.m.)
(2) Repeat Screening of Short Films (6–7 p.m. / 7–8 p.m.)
The filmmaker is expected to discuss the current situation of French film culture – such as new trends in films, film producing, and film consuming; the continuations and ruptures of contemporary French cinema from its rich cinematic history; and his personal film practice within these cultural and historical contexts.
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The Awards of Lionel Bailliu
Fair Play (2006)
- winner, Best New Director, San Sebastian Int'l Film Festival 2006
Squash (2002)
- nominated, Best Short Film, Oscars 2004
- winner, Best Writing, Aspen Shortsfest 2003
- nominated, Best Short Film, Cesar Awards 2003
- winner, Best Live-Action Short, Toronto Worldwide Short Film Festival 2003
- winner, Golden Moon, Cinema Jove-
- winner, Audience Award, Clermont-Ferrand Int'l Short Film Festival 2002
- winner, Audience Award, Cork Int'l Film Festival 2002
- winner, Jury Award, Leuven Int'l Short Film Festival 2002
- winner, Audience Award, Palm Springs Int'l Film Festival 2002
Microsnake (2000)
- winner, Special Jury Award, Avignon Film Festival 2001
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For further inquiries, please visit or contact:
Cine Adarna, Magsaysay and Osmeña Avenues, UP Diliman,
Tel: 981 8500 local 4286; 926 3640, 926 2722 (telefax)
Email: < upfi.adarna@gmail.com> Theater Services & Extension
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For those in new york:
Flying While Muslim shows the faces of racial profiling in the post 9/11
On June 7th, come and meet the director - Lyra Porras Garzon's and help support the documentary by enjoying Mediterranean tapas and wine for only $25*.100 % of the proceeds and donations will contribute to the post-production of Flying While Muslim": Racial Profiling Post 9/11.
For more information about the documentary and a preview, go to www.flyingwhilemuslim.com.
When: Thursday 7th June 2007 From 6:30 to 8:30
Where: The White Room At Bello Sguardo
410 Amsterdam Avenue Between 79th and 80th streets
79th Street subway stop on the 1 line
Tel. 212 837 6252
Contact: Chantal Schuster
Email: chantal.schuster@verizon.net
Tel. 212-362-6389
On June 19th, a 30-minute exclusive screening of the documentary will be playing at Pioneer Theater in New York. For advance ticket purchase, please go to http://thirdi.org/~ny/.
*cash only
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