pakyawanthoughts

bad trip talaga ang monthly curse ng kababaihan. eto at di ako nakatuloy sa tatlong lakad today because of this. bummer. so next time na lang nga.

pero kinakausap rin ako ng stars, sa aking readings this past 3 days.

sabi nung sunday:

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

The New Moon today falls in your 4th House of Roots, reminding you to deepen your soul connection with your home, family and yourself. Although this can play out in a variety of ways, you will likely be thinking about your past as your attention turns inward. But this doesn't indicate a total withdrawal from social activities. Instead, strive to connect your private inner life with your public outer circumstances.

tama siya. dapat konekment ever ang private sa public..pero di rin dapat masyado. dapat selected lang din.

sabi naman kahapon:

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

The Moon in Taurus-friendly Virgo could be creating an emotional renewal for you, yet there is also another influence bubbling up from deep within your soul today. You may be at odds with yourself as your most sensible ideas give rise to corresponding uncertainties. Above all, stay in touch with your indecision, even if it makes you uneasy.

oo nga. indecision galore nga kahapon, especially after sitting in endless consecutive meetings. lalaki lalo ang malaki ko nang wepaks. hay...pero i like that term ha. "emotional renewal." it rhymes pa.

eto ngayon lang:

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

An authority figure may now be the source of confusion, which can make you unsure how to respond. The uncertainty likely stems from a simple misunderstanding rather than a real difference of opinion. It might be frustrating if you try to clarify the issues, for the more that is said now, the less you know. Instead of attempting to find the truth, let things sit for a day or two.

hm. food for thought ito. magandang abiso ng kalawakan... kaya dapat pakinggan. oks. check yan.


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i am liking my scriptwriting class this sem. unlike last sem na namakyaw ako ng yema dahil sa hindi sila nagsasalita, dito sa klaseng ito ngayon ay puro salita naman at nauubusan ako ng oras. pero mas maganda na yung ganun kesa sa nakatanghod lang sila sa akin. i really hate that. we actually hate that, all of us who teach. kasi walang feedback e. teaching is kinda like stand-up comedy, na after the punchline e receive mo agad ang applause o boo. dito sa pagtuturo, after the lesson, dapat i-check kung nagets nila o kunwari lang nagets. dalawa lang naman yan e. pero tuwa ako sa klase now kasi nga at least they speak! and feedback agad, kahit minsan nahihiya. pero constant pa rin ang hiya sa workshops. minsan may mga pikon. may sensitibo. pero mas maraming ayaw mag-criticize. either takot maka-offend o sobrang bait lang. or both. sana mas decisive pa ang mga bata ngayon. but at least marami pa ring patungo sa direksiyong ito.

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hm magre-react na ko sa dami ng holidays this month ha. pero at least tinatamaan ang mga di dapat tamaan sa akin if ever. like aug 20 and 27, both mondays, walang pasok officially. sa thursday afternoon naman, acle-time sa peyups kaya tinamaan ang isa kong klase. last week naman binagyo. hm. sabagay happiness naman ako sa mga ganitong holiday mode. for more...! chos.

maganda lang sa weather lately kasi nakaka-inspire magsulat creatively. may nanganak na namang bagong kuwento sa utak ko kaya eto't pahapyaw ko silang sinulat para di makalimutan. sana more days to come pa na ganito -- not too hot pero hindi rin rainy. at lamig-baguio ang feel. sarap! kape na lang kulang sa tabi ng bangin at cafe by the ruins na ang drama natin. chos.

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speaking of kape, sarap ng cordillera coffee concoctions last friday sa FRIDAY FILM BAR sa bernal gallery. endless refill of hot or iced coffee ang hinain nila sa mga manonood. meron ding native iced tea na endless refill din. kakaiba siya ng lasa at masarap, although sabi ng aming cinema programmer na si nonoy na mas masarap kung hot tea siya. puwede rin.

saya din ng musical number ni kuya sammy of pinikpikan. kakatuwa rin yung drum playing ni budeths, also of pinik. ganun pala ang debakan, skin drum pero puwedeng hampasin ng sticks. now that's my kind of thang! may ganun nga daw sabi ni teta. puwede kong i-explore, dahil talagang naghahanap ng stix ang kamay ko kapag hahampas ako ng percs. pero skin drums with stix? yun ang...pag-iisipan. hm...

this coming friday mas masaya kasi the whole pinikpikan will be there na. enjoy ito ati! dami na kasing nakaka-miss sa kanila ever since hindi na sila monthly lumalabas sa 70s bistro, kaya kahit saan e dinadayo ng pinikheads.

sobrang retro mode lang din last friday. kasi dumating as special guest si direk jomari avellana, son of the late national artist for film lamberto avellana. kasama ko siya sa premiere productions dati dahil friend siya ng boss ko at siya ang scriptwriter ng film project kung saang team ako involved, ang ANAK NG BULKAN remake.ang saya, mega-flashback ako! hay...katuwa lang yung family na yun kasi yung mom niya, si ms daisy, ay philippine theater maven at na-interview ko before when i was doing a piece on phil. theater for mabuhay magazine. na nagkataong anak din niya yung photographer ng magazine that time, si bats. super small na talaga ng world ano? as in.

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some feedback.

thanks for the comment tabel. ganyan talaga ang buhay manunulat, dapat sulat lang ng sulat, para di kalawangin. so go lang din dapat kayo ng go, oks? ayuz.

o sya fly muna ko.

pugad ng mga panulat at pitik

hm bakit biglang naging filipino ang language sa interface ng blogger ko? hindi keri yung iba e.

"kunin ang google account" -- ha?
"tingnang muli" -- grammar check!
"i-edit ang html" -- weird
"mag-compose" -- hmmm.
"mag-sign in"
"bumuo ng blog"

yoko nah.

dapat may taga-sentro ng wikang pilipinong tumingin nito. and how do they spell pictures? "letrato" waaaaaah. ano'ng dictionary gamit niyo! bumili ng vicassan. nyets.

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speaking of pictures, nami-miss ko nang mag-photography ulit. nakaka-engganyo yung mga works ng participants sa basic black and white photography workshop ni anne at beng. nag-exhibit sila last saturday afternoon sa bernal gallery at tumugtog ang ilan sa amin sa engkantada ng two songs lang naman. so bet lang.

miss ko ring mag-exhibit. kahit mega-haggard ang preps, nakaka-miss din kahit papaano...

naisip ko lang. di ko pa yata na-share dito yung photo exhibit chenes namin last year ng mga ex-isis gels and a current isis gel forever hehe.

sampol:


exhibit's title was named
BABAE SA TAG-ARAW:
WOMEN ROMANCING THE SENSES
held at the famed old malate haunt penguin cafe na nagtatago sa pangalang rock ola cafe these days. we opened april 25, a day after my birthday, and closed a month after.



poster design made by lenski.




ang mga puki ng pitik hihihihihi:(sorry addicted ako sa alliteration)


my good friends indira endaya, aileen familara, me and carol bello.

what do we have in common? lahat kami nagtrabaho sa iisang feminist media org NGO. ang award: si lenski, naroon pa rin hihihi. indi's somewhere in europe na, carol is somewhere in UP and i'm somewhere in the cosmos hehehe. chos.

salamat nga pala kay adam dahil litrato niya ang apat na ito.

nga pala, pitik is the term used by newspaper photographers to refer to the action of photographing something. "pipitik lang ako dito." o kaya "pitikin mo na yan." pitik, meaning kuhanan mo na ng litrato.



the mirror thingie and the stage area.


indi's corner walls. doon siya sa looban doon sa cozy nook near the bar. she made two mosaic-type photos of nepali girls and stuff, interactive with post-its whatnots. cute siya.

there i was hanging out with the lezzies at that corner, sina ani and roda and roda's friend. and some other penguin habitues like me, new generation lezzies nga lang sila, most of them also from thelword egroup i belong to, though i can't recall all their names.


len's wall and carol's wall, which was adjacent to one of mine. we three did photographs pero si lenski reversals ang ginawa. cute naman. carol made big prints.



my wall, obviously. i exhibited small prints, mga 5r and 8r lang, the most famous of which is my shot of carol there. ang dami niyang fans na gustong bumili nito, pero ayaw ipabenta ng lola mo e. keri lang.

yeah we were also selling our stuff. may bumili naman.



yeah we had cocktails. salamat kay earnest sa pagtulong sa pag-prepare nito. i brought some red wine bottles. ubos lahat syempre.



and if carol is there, music is also there. they had a music jam nung opening amidst the noisy noisy crowd -- kasi po ang dami lang pumunta sa opening, i swear! tuwang-tuwa kaming apat. this is carol with dibayn and kwami. early incarnations of engkantada, piecemeal baga.



lenski's guests, including ate chi, ang aming favorite copyeditor sa isis.



my guests. that's my tita pining and my cousins, my mom and pop. happy naman sila. happy rin ako. happy kaming lahat nung gabing iyon.



our writer friend guests. si joel g na obsessed sa horror flicks, i think that's ever-brooding poet vince sa likod, and then indi...and then indi and starshuffler jovan, our favorite graphics artiste. at si len. at ang binili kong bailey's, one of our favorite drinks. yummy.

we also conducted a mid-exhibit poetry reading session with music, of course. nagbasa ako ng ilang tula at kumanta ang ilan.



there's ani from the feminine force group who is also a poet. nagbasa siya. thanks ani. i liked her poem. si frances pala yung nasa foreground.



tumugtog ulit ang mga gels.



sa closing night naman, nagkataong may kasabay na eklavu sa gabi yung penguin. there was a world theater conference chuvalu sa CCP yata that week kaya butch, the penguin owner (and ka-band ni carol sa pinikpikan) had a night program where an indigenous group from burkina faso went and played music and stuff. everybody danced. saya!



pero may sarili pa rin kaming ek nun. here's our friend, writer din and now singer isha performing some songs. there's her hubby and gig julalay robert quebral sa likod.



some of my guests pa rin. my cousin rona and her hubby xavier with their french friends.


and jay cruz, a writer friend but more of a dancer, from the dancing wounded commune. nag-hang out din sila dun.

saya nitong mga araw na ito. sana maulit. hm, may venue na e. gawa na lang ng bagong photos...

yeh.

eto yung ilan sa photos na in-exhibit ko. share ko lang.


i call this one "swirl street." nakaw shot a la lomo padaan sa marikina bridge isang gabi, while riding papa's car.








i actually forgot what i called this one. taken during sunset at the batangas flying school of the air force. we had a shoot that day there, my first day to direct LOVELY DAY.







yes, i also forgot this one. tinatanong nila lagi kung ano ito. kung nasa loob ka ng cafe ng ayala museum, tumingala ka.








this one i call "bloom." eto nabenta ito. taken at my former home lang, naglalaro ng macro chuva ng bagong biling digicam. it's actually a flower. some sweet girl gave me flowers and i put them in a vase with water. lasted for days. thanks for the flowers, sweetie.







this one i think i called "lava lump." hehe. la lang. taken at fafa louie bahista ng bayan talan's recording studio.










not sure what i called this. psychedelic yata. in reality, that's the silhouette of billy bonnevie during a pinikpikan gig sa saguijo makati.










one of my favorites. i call this "speed." taken from a balcony sa isang art exhibit area/space sa loob in intramuros, in front of the cathedral.







i call this one "fireworks." simple lang noh. taken during the festivities of the spanish chuvalu event ng instituto cervantes sa may intramuros.

tumatakas sa stress ng araw na ito

ito ang kinaka-stress naming lahat ngayon: balita tungkol sa kaibigan naming si carol.

Pinikpikan singer claims mayor threatened her

May 14, 2007
Frank Cimatu

BANGUED, Abra -- The lead vocalist of the band Pinikpikan accused the former mayor of Daguioman town of threatening her after she took video footage of alleged cheating.

Carol Bello, who is a poll watcher of Daguioman mayoral candidate Lyndon Basingan, claimed former mayor Manuel Co Kue, husband of incumbent Mayor Sally Co Kue, told her she would not be leave Daguioman alive after videotaping alleged ballot tampering.

"Ako raw ay di makakalabas sa Daguioman nang buhay dahil may photo at video ako ng kalokohan ng mayor and her family [I was told I would not be able to leave Daguioman alive because I have photographs and video footage of irregularities committed by the mayor and her family]," Bello told the Philippine Daily Inquirer, parent company of INQUIRER.net.

read the rest of frank cimatu's pdi report here.

eto pa ang detalye sa abs-cbn website. thanks melissa for acting on that so swiftly.

kanina pa nagte-text-an kaming magkakaibigan para matulungan siya. but what else can we do??? punyeta talaga.

kanina pa tumatawag si cynthia a. din sa akin, telling me this is like teta's all over again last year. i agreed. she's now in conspiracy with budeths, carol's co-pinikpikan bandmate, worried to death -- as we all are.

now, we're all stressed. as in.


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tangina mukha akong gago. napa-blogthang tuloy ako. wala ko magawa tangina.

hirap ng ganito. hay naku...


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