pamatay-diwa

omg! wala nang mas su-swak pa sa advise na ito from the stars today...

Taurus Horoscopes

Sunday, Jun 29th, 2008 -- You may want to kick back and enjoy yourself today, but others seem to have something different in mind for you. Although you might try going along with their plans, don't worry if you reach a point where you think that you've had enough. Just take a deep breath and tell everyone what your boundaries are so there are no surprises when you go your own way.

haaay naku... siya sige na nga. grabe lang. as in. ever.

at dahil sa marami akong isiping ayokong isipin, patol muna sa isang pamatay-isip...

1. If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?

-- depende sa fez mama. kung bet, huway nat. pansinin natin. hi hello lang, ganun.

2. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for.
-- no, because right now, i don't know who that is, that one i fell hardest for. that's a trick question my dear. you talking to me? you talking to me?

3. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
--my girlfriend's house

4. Do you have a best friend?

-- yes. myself. always has been.

5. Do you smoke?

-- yes but methinks i should stop

6. Do you remember what you were like a year ago?

-- at the throes of an abusive friendship. good thing i was able to escape

7. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
-- i cannot remember. i hate crying in front of people. i think my gf

8. Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
-- i am at my place, and i am at peace here, and i do not want to change that anytime soon, and those who know me better accept that fact

8. Can you vote next election?
-- yes

9. Wht are you listening to?
-- right now, wla

10. When will your next kiss be?
-- that's also my question

11. Where do you keep your money?
-- at the bank?

12. Do you love someone right now?
-- yes, this is indeed a trick question

13. Do you like someone right now?
-- another one!

14. Who was the last person to call you pretty?
-- a friend of my gf.

15. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
-- of course. my male friends are eunuchs and i am an amazona so it's safe

16. Where did your last hug take place?
-- inside my gf's house

17. Where were you at 3:02am?
-- kanina? in bed

19. How do you feel about the person who texted you last?

-- we are actually contemplating if we are rehiring him. parang ayaw na namin. ganun.

20. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?

-- not really

21. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

-- oo naman. this is a special talent. make-up pa while driving. kaya mo yun? ako oo. eyeshadow and all.

22. Who did you last go out to eat with?

-- my lesbian friends and their gay friends from UP babaylan. we had a hoot!

23. Do you have unlimited texts?
-- no

25. When is the last time you took a nap?
-- accidentally lang. yesterday after eating late lunch

26. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- my gf

27. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?

-- depende sa okasyon.

28. Do you wear glasses?

-- yes, and i look good in it hehehhehe chos

29. What are you looking forward to in the next month?

-- the end of these darn centennial celebs and doing admin work for them aarrrrrrrggghhhh

30. The way to win your heart?
-- is to simply know that you care about me, and SHOW IT!

31. how was your weekend?
-- peaceful, to say the least

32. Are you dating the last person you kissed?

-- yes

33. What are you like when you're drunk?

-- inebriated? eloquent actually.

34. The last person you fought with?
-- i cannot remember. oh yeah, some girl who still owes me 6,000 pesos

35. What were you doing last night at 10pm?
-- watching dvd, i think.

36. How long is your hair?
-- short

37. Last text message received?

-- someone telling me he cannot make it to a meeting

38. Name what's on your mind right now?
-- sex? hehehe. no, actually it's bangkok. and the thought of going there in november for the loi krathong festival and their gay pride march. we'll see

39. What were you last listening to?
-- i cannot remember

40. When was the last time you sang out loud?
-- kahapon yata. some rent song

41. What do you really want right now?
-- to be reassured that i am still cared for

42. When was the last time you got yelled at?
-- i cannot remember. no one really yells at me, except for praning co-workers who think the universe is conspiring against them, and blaming me for that. oh yea, i was yelled at by someone who thinks this way

43. Who do you really want to see right now?

-- my self, only happier

44. Are you a player?

-- funny enough, someone told someone i know that i was, because i allegedly dumped my previous ex for someone else daw kaya i was branded as a "playgirl!" OMG! i like that new title! so bogus yet so cool! hahahahha. that beats the chismis before about me that i am a marijuana smuggler who flies in bloke-bloke of weed from dumaguete to manila in the early 2000s! hahahaha! this playgirl chismax is definitely better than the druglord one! hahahhaha

45. Who was the last person you slept in a bed with?

-- my gf who else? contrary to 44, i am a monogamous bitch

manila times life and style section

last friday's column:

THE SCRIBE VIBE
By Libay Linsangan Cantor
The toughest writing challenge yet

Last week, I received the toughest writing challenge I ever encountered in my 10-year professional writing career: what to write for a tombstone message.

This may sound funny but it’s actually not. My girlfriend’s mother died last week and I helped with the preparations during the wake, at the funeral and cleaning up after everything. Since I am the writer of the family, my girlfriend asked me to formulate the words needed for two things: first, for the message that accompanied the names of the family members written on strips of ribbon tape pinned on the coffin’s viewing window cover; second, the words on the actual tombstone. The first was actually easier (she approved “with all our love…”) but I had to sweat out the second.

read the rest here.


and an article feature on the women writers of writers bloc:

Drama queens

The women playwrights of Writers Bloc woo words and win wisdom

By Libay Linsangan Cantor, Contributor

Let’s face it: there’s no money in theater. But someone has to do drama. Dramaturgy, that is.

And who could better to do dramaturgy than women. Whether 40-minuter one-act plays or hour-plus-long full-length plays, local women playwrights have devoted time, talent and tough love to produce quality work that say something important about society, about being a woman, and about being Filipino.

read the rest here.


some bts of that interview session. photos by vivian limpin.

mamatay na ang dumukot ng wallet ko

i was robbed the other day, no less inside my office at the good old university of the philippines film institute's academic division at the annex building of plaridel hall or the college of mass communication.

if you've been inside my office or our upfi offices, which colleague and film director ed lejano lovingly calls "bartolina," you'll see how small and difficult it is to maneuver inside, much less have more than two people there at a given time. students come and go inside half my office because i am the academic coordinator, meaning i head the academic division of upfi so everthing academic they ask me, have me sign equipment reservation papers etc. often, i see most students' eyes roam around the "decor" (eg. kalat?) of my room as i browse through their documents before signing them and such. no big deal.

but maybe this time, it was. even if i leave my office door open, the way leads to the common area where our secratary is stationed and where people converge coming out of their respective faculty offices or the technical room. and my room, when open, is so visible even from the corridor outside, kaya nga wala akong takas sa mga naghahanap sa akin. i can't close the door naman for privacy (except sometimes) dahil sira na for ages yung aircon na sine-share namin ng ka-duplex kong faculty room, which houses another colleague, 24oras/unang hirit director roehl jamon. kaya we'd rather conduct our businesses outside or tiis mode na lang dahil walang pera ang cmc pang-repair ng aircon.

and even if you're outside my door, you won't immediately see where i leave my bags. and where do i leave them? my small shoulder bag sling type ek i always hang sa makeshift coat hanger sa dulo ng desk ko, near the farthest kanto na ng office ko. my backpack naman sa baba nun, konti na lang at nasa ilalim na siya ng desk ko, na nasa dulo nga ng room.

i opened my backpack to get stuff and put the music cds i was lending to a friend that afternoon, and i distinctly remembering bringing the SATC OST which was on top of the cd pile on the table. then i prepared stuff and went outside my office, not bothering to close it, because i will just hold a 10-minute orientation session with students who will shoot their thesis this sem. i asked our secretary to eat an early lunch so by that time, she is already there na, which she was. when i went outside and inside the orientation room, just a few steps from my office, our secretary was still in her area.

when i got back, it was already 1pm and i prepared for my 1-4pm class. i just waited for my friend who arrived by 1.20pm or so, and told her about the cds and she could use my computer to do her music research while i hold class. i go out from time to time so i could see if my friend was okay or if she needed anything from me. i was showing her the cds but the SATC OST was not there. i asked her to search for it sa room ko pero wala siyang nakita.

flash forward to 7pm. i was about to pull out when i noticed my sling bag's zipper was open and the side zipper was also open. nakakadaya yung side zipper kasi nasa top din siya kaya napagkamalan sigurong main zipper. i looked inside and saw my wallet was gone. i searched for it in my backpack but it was not there. i searched everywhere, but it was not there. from 4.30-6.30p, i was busy hauling unwanted papers and files from my office and did some house cleaning so i know the wallet was not outside my bag.

it was then that i realized that i was robbed.

i guess it was fast, swift, and desperate. i would understand why someone would want to partake of other people's property. sabi nga sa police report ng diliman police station "unknown intruder entered vicinity with the intent of material gain." hanep sa wording, couldn't have said it better myself.

with the intent of material gain

we all have the intent of material gain. who doesn't? well, technically, dapat ang mga pari hindi dahil meron silang vow of poverty, at ang mga buddhist monks kasi nga material things will not lead them to nirvana. but the rest of us folks always have that intent of material gain.

i was just texting nga my pinsan the other day who was so keen (read: kulit) on recruiting me for some variation of a multi-level marketing or direct selling business whatnot. we had a text exchange, sabi ko i was busy and if only i had more time, i will sit with them and attend their orientation. he then said na that's life daw, dapat daw i make more time to make way for a job that will make me happy or something and if i want to make more money, then i should devote time daw to know how. slight na-offend ako, thinking if he really knew what i was doing. so i told him. i said i already have a job, at sa UP na lang nga, swamped na ako but i like it, because it makes me happy even if faculty sweldo is not so happy in terms of material gain (un-gain nga e). then i said, i am also happy with my other media engagements, because that makes me happy. meron din siyang sinabi about making money and getting rich. so in the end, ang sabi ko is this, complete with the miss universe crown and scepter:

with all the things i do, my aim is not really to get rich but to leave works that will enrich other people.

*bow*

in short, gusto ko kasi, yung ginagawa ko, may kabuluhan, may impact sa ibang tao, may importance. kahit ma-touch ka saglit ng isang article, mapatawa ka saglit ng isang skit, mapukaw ang isip mo ng isang insight na galing sa akin, happy na ko dun, material ungain notwithstanding. so ang ending, he said "okay, i understand." i guess that's the last i'll hear from him about that topic.

so to be violated and offended like that by the thief who stole my wallet, in no less than my office sa kapita-pitagang unibersidad ng pilipinas, na ngayo'y isa nang national state university dahil sa new charter, aba, ang galing. U.P. ANG GALING MO sabi nga ng mga banners, tarps, posters, shirt at flyers na nagkalat sa campus ngayon. ang galing mo, galing mong magnakaw sa baluarte natin na dapat ay protektado ng matinong pag-iisip at makataong pakikitungo. hindi pala.

it's just sad to think that this could happen in that place. i don't mind that i lost the cd, the wallet or the money. all of that i could replace. hassle lang of course yung nawalan ng pertinent documents like my health cards (philhealth and UP health service), the atms which i all had blocked and replaced, and my driver's license. also the other stuff i put there because i deem them important. i just with the thief would return those. i dont care if s/he keeps the money, the wallet and other things s/he may find useful, but i hope s/he returns the other things that are useful to me.

what i loathe here is the thought that someone in UP could do sometihng like this. of course not everyone is perfect, and the biggest thief of all was after all from UP (hello dictatorship). i think someone who does this is also sick in the head, so dapat magpatingin siya dahil mental health ito e. sana lang ma-realize niya before it's too late. kung student siya, sad naman. siguro hindi nga nila naiintinihan ang value ng pera, kung paano ito pinaghihirapan, dahil madali lang para sa kanila na kunin ang pera o gamit ng iba nang walang pakundangan. mas nalulungkot ako dito ng sobra. alam ko namang hindi ito gagawin ng colleague, dahil mas may material gain naman silang lahat kesa sa akin, at siyempre intact (kahit papaano) ang mental health nila. alam ko ring hindi ito gagawin ng mga kuya at ate na utility na laging pumupunta sa opisina para mangolekta ng basura, tumulong sa pagbubuhat at tumulong sa sekretasrya na magtimpla ng kape. alam ng mga taong ito (o at least ng grupong ito na kasalamuha na namin ng matagal na) ang halaga ng perang pinaghihirapan at pinagtatrabahuhan ng marangal, kaya hindi nila dudungisan ang sarili nila sa ganoong paraan. kung taga-labas naman ito, wala rin naman kaming magagawa dahil baka nga sinukuban iyon ng evil na ang sole intent ay material gain.

ayun lang. sana lang hindi siya estudyante, kasi nakakalungkot na hindi niya naiintindihan kung ano ang konsepto ng dangal, ng marangal na trabaho, at ng sakripisyo. kung estudyante nga iyon, naaawa ako sa mga magulang niya at sa mga nagpapaaral sa kanya. 'ika nga, sayang lang ang puhunan...

nonvirgins! tara nood tayo teatro ng virgin labfest! :P

support philippine theater! tara let's watch! who wants to go with me?

i'm interested in catching debbie tan's MGA BABAENG TOO BRIGHT (pahaging niya sa fulbright heheh) at saka yung LAS MENTIRAS DE GLORIA ni layeta bucoy. saka yung ELLAS INOCENTES kasi may slight sapphic angling to the tune of SISTER MY SISTER baga (remember that film? creepy sha, pero sad).

haha biased ako kasi i did an article about them, along with liza magtoto. hihihi. women playwrights baga. di ko pa sure kelan lalabas yun so plug ko na lang dito if ever.

ninakaw ko lang to sa site ni liza. for more!

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Stellar roster of artists in VIRGIN LABFEST 4 at the CCP (June 25- July 6)

The Virgin Labfest 4, the most awaited theater festival in the country today, will be held once again at the Cultural Center of the Philippines from June 25 until July 6, 2008, with a stellar roster of writers, directors and actors headlining the performances of 18 one-act plays and staged readings of six other works. Now on its fourth year, the Virgin Labfest, has earned a solid reputation for its exciting and provocative line-up of "untried, untested, unpublished and unstaged" plays from playwrights both young and old. Complementing these are a workshop for high school students who wish to learn more about the craft of playwriting, a contest for owners of blogs (web logs or online journals), the launching of Ma-Yi Theater Company’s anthology Savage Stage, and a public interview with National Artist for Literature F. Sionil Jose by journalist Howie Severino.

FEATURED WRITERS
The line-up for Virgin Labfest 4 includes plays by National Artist F. Sionil Jose, award-winning playwrights Layeta Bucoy, Tim Dacanay, George de Jesus III, George Vail Kabristante, Allan Lopez, Job Pagsibigan, Floy Quintos, Debbie Tan, J. Dennis Teodosio and Argel Tuazon, as well as newcomers to the Festival such as Carlo Garcia, Anna Maria Gonzales, Jovi Miroy, Khavn de la Cruz and Malaysian writer Koh Jun Eiow.

DIRECTORS
Returning to direct the plays are Virgin Labfest “veterans” Jose Estrella, Njel de Mesa, George de Jesus III, Ana Valdez Lim, Nick Olanka Cats Racsag, Tuxqs Rutaquio, Roobak Valle, J. Victor Villareal and Toshiisa Yoshida, and festival first-timers Krystal Banzon, Jeff Camanag, Mayen Estañero, Hazel Gutierrez, Chris Millado, Floy Quintos, Paolo O’Hara and Leo Rialp. Rody Vera is the Festival’s Artistic Director.

ACTORS
Among the over one hundred actors participating in the performances and readings are Tommy Abuel, Irma Adlawan Marasigan, Kalila Aguilos, JK Anicoche, Lovely Balili, Ian Bautista, Riki Benedicto, MacDonnel Bolaños, Nonie Buencamino, Shamaine Buencamino, Tara Cabaero, Paolo Cabañero, Nar Cabico, Bong Cabrera, Kathlyn Castillo, Ricci Chan, Chrome Cosio, Dido de la Paz, Abner Delina, Anna Deroca, Bituin Escalante, Gigi Escalante, Mica Froilan, Bart Guingona, Jef-Henson Dy, Tess Jamias, Nanding Josef, Mailes Kanapi, Skyzx Labastilla, Monica Llamas, Russell Legaspi, Lorna Lopez, Clottie Lucero, Nicco Manalo, Missy Maramara, Juliene Mendoza, Wenah Nagales, Jerald Napoles, Madeleine Nicolas, Phil Noble, Peewee O’Hara, Gem Padilla, Joey Paras, Leo Ponseca, Cheryl Ramos, Arnold Reyes. Bembol Roco, Ness Roque, Amihan Ruiz, Tuxqs Rutaquio, Katherine Sabate, Carme Sanchez, Gilleth Sandico, Jonathan Tadioan, Noel Taylo, Joel Torre, Onyl Torres, Lou
Veloso and Randy Villarama.

LINE-UP OF PLAYS
“This year, there will be five sets of one-act trilogies, each dealing with a central topic or unifying theme ranging from comedies to political commentaries to gender issues to ghost stories, and a program consisting of three productions from Virgin Labfest 3.” says Vera. One of these is a program especially geared for children, consisting of plays commissioned by the Philippine Board on Books for Young People, based on published children’s stories. (full schedule below)

OTHER EVENTS
National Artist for Literature F. Sionil Jose will share his thoughts with Howie Severino in a forum titled “From Page to Stage: The Novelist in Front of the Footlights” on July 5.
Staged readings of six other “virgin” plays will also be presented every night from June 25 to 29. On July 3, there will be a reading of selected excerpts from Ma-Yi Theater Company’s anthology Savage Stage, most of which have been performed by the company.
The Labfest Blogfest offers active bloggers to win prizes. All they have to do is attend the first weekend performances and write a web blog or online journal within 48 hours after watching the program they saw. Winners will be chosen for each set of Labfest plays and receive gift certificates and other merchandise.

In the Virgin Labfest Lab, high-school students who are interested in theater and playwriting will be mentored throughout the festival by writer-director Njel de Mesa, after which the students are expected to write short plays to be presented in a staged reading on the last day of the Festival.

The Virgin Labfest 4 runs from June 25 to July 6 and is presented by the Writers Bloc and Tanghalang Pilipino with the Cultural Center of the Philippines and the National Commission for Culture and the Arts, in cooperation with Boysen Paints, Japan Foundation Manila Office, and Miss Mae Paner. For schedule and ticket inquiries, please call the CCP Box Office at 832-3704 or Ticketworld at National Bookstore branches at 891-9999.
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Virgin Labfest 4


PLAYS
(Tanghalang Huseng Batute/ CCP Studio Theater)

VIRGIN LABFEST 3 REVISITED
June 25 (W) – 3PM/8PM / July 4 (F) – 8PM / July 5 (Sat) – 3PM

Njel de Mesa‘s Mga Obra ni Maestra
Directed by Njel de Mesa
Featuring Abby Gonzales, Nympha Gonzales and Cashlyn Cuarez
A hilarious and biting play about three young children with superpowers and are heavily conflicted between saving the world or fulfilling the grueling, tedious domestic duties that their parents have ordered them to do.

Layeta Bucoy‘s Ellas Inocentes
Directed by Tuxqs Rutaquio
Featuring Janessa Roque and Lovely Balili
Two sisters, whose innocent conversation and unmalicious observations of a household not quite their own, reveals the violence and inhumanity of the adults around them.

Yoji Sakate‘s Three Sisters
Directed by Jose Estrella
Featuring Mailes Kanapi, Marj Lorico, Cheryl Ramos, Bong Cabrera, Joel Garcia and Lowell Conales
A moving ghost story and a touching memorial to the ravages of war and the significant resonance of war in theater.



KAPAMILYA, KAPUSO, KABISYO
June 26 (TH) – 3PM/8PM / July 5 (SAT) – 8PM / July 6 (SUN) – 3PM


Hase Hiroichi’s Amoy ng Langit
Directed by Toshiisa Yoshida
Featuring Mailes Kanapi, Martha Comia, Ana Deroca,Mica Froilan and Tara Cabaero
Ghosts are known to roam the world of the living because of unfinished business. This small and simple play about suicide, leaving and death happens on the rooftop of a school where no one is allowed to loiter. Yet a spirit manages to reconnect before finally heading “home.”

Layeta Bucoy’s Las Mentiras de Gloria
Directed by Tuxqs Rutaquio
Featuring Bart Guingona and May Bayot
Gloria, whose cancer kills her, appeals to her fraternal twin Utoy, to whom she appears as a bleeding ghost, to maintain the lies that she has been spreading to her faculty colleagues in the university. Utoy is compelled to obey by forced guilt and a macabre 'umbilical' connection. But beneath these secrets and lies are more secrets and lies and it seems the death of Gloria, no matter how sanitized, would only leak their foul stench even more.

Carlo Garcia’s Ang Mga Halimaw
Directed by Paolo O'Hara
Featuring JK Anicoche, Amihan Ruiz, Kristine Balmes, Alvin Obillo, Nar Cabico, Isab Martinez, Mara Marasigan,Philip Evangelista and Oscar Garcia and the Dulaang Sipat Lawin
Small time criminals think big like their bosses. In this car scene, drama effectively unfolds with strange bedfellows for characters and a wonderful poetic wit that speaks the language of the damned. These murderers, who include an Operadang Bakla, a Taxi Drayber and a Lalaking May Pakpak make for one short glimpse of surreo-realism.



KATOTOHANAN, KATARUNGAN, KAPATIRAN
June 27(F) – 3PM/8PM / July 2 (W) – 3PM / July 6 (SUN) – 8PM

F. Sionil Jose’s Dong-Ao
Translated by Rody Vera
Directed by Chris Millado
Featuring Carme Sanchez, Nanding Josef, Tommy Abuel, Bembol Roco, Dido de la Paz, Gigi Escalante and Monica Llamas
Dong-ao is a traditional Ilokano funeral ceremony where relatives and friends pay tribute to the deceased. In this short play, Pepe Samson, the lead character in F. Sionil Jose’s novel Mass is dead. Several characters speak in front of his coffin, before he is laid to rest: Senator Reyes, Pepe’s Aunt Bettina, his college professor-mentor Badong Hortenso, his parish priest friend Father Jess, Colonel White Sidewall, and an old woman Tia Nena who served in the parish where Pepe once stayed. The divergent views uttered by the characters depict a fragmented nation, teetering between complete collapse and newfound hope and direction.

Allan Lopez’s Masaganang Ekonomiya
Directed by J. Victor Villareal
Featuring Katherine Sabate and Abner Delina
Framed by an unfinished game of chess between Vera, a highly decorated military
officer, and Guzman, an esteemed activist, the play unfolds as an interrogation of Gomez, a younger militant. In layered scenes that shift from intense examinations to harrowing scenes of humor, budding fascism, and brutish attacks on human sensibility, ‘Masaganang Ekonomiya’ offers an emasculated contemporary look on the age-old conflict between the establishment and the insurgents, in the context of a globalization- obsessed nation.

Tim Dacanay‘s Pamantasang Hirang
Directed by Hazel Gutierez
Featuring Jonathan Tadioan, Ian Bautista, Nicco Manalo, Ryan Guzman, Nicole Andrew Guila, Russell Legaspi, Alexis Dorola, Jay del Rosario, Jonathan Cabrera and Jacqueline Amper.
At a fraternity initiation in the state university, ambitious Congressman Chok Villanueva, an alumnus interfering with the proceedings, uses everything at his disposal to win back his friend, Dan, an advertising man who went back to the university to revive his literary talents. No institution is sacred, and everything is subverted, as persuasion fails and spirals downward to an orgy of brutality and excess.


PAGBABAGO, PAGHAHANAP, PAGKAKATAON
June 28 (SAT) – 3PM/8PM / July 2 (W) – 8PM / July 3 (TH) – 3PM

George Vail Kabristante’s Ang Kuwento ng Menginga ng New York City na Kamukha ng Bee-Stung Lips ni Julia Roberts
Directed by George de Jesus III
Featuring Ricci Chan, Jojo Riguera, Xeno Alejandro, Jef-Henson Dee and Gem Padilla
Denise fulfills the almost impossible condition given him by Victor, his sole object of obsession. He undergoes a sex change operation hoping that Victor’s promise of love will finally be requited. To Denise’s utter dismay, the condition turns out to be a half-forgotten joke. This melodramatic (and literal) reversal of fortune becomes black hilarity in the hands of George Kabristante. More like his reprise and variation on a theme that he started in last year’s Labfest, My Padir is an OCW.

J. Dennis C. Teodosio’sGumamela
Directed by Roobak Valle
Featuring Phil Noble, Chrome Cosio,, Riki Benedicto and Russell Legaspi
"Gumamela" is more than just about hibiscus rosa sinensis or its botanical characteristics and pharmacological effects. It tells the bitter-sweet- campy story of man who contemplates
what's there in 40 missed calls, in 40 minutes of waiting, and in 40 years of loneliness, love, and
life, between serious bouts of suicide attempts and the desire to eat a sumptuous slice of chocolate cake.

Rogelio Braga’s Ang Bayot, Ang Meranao,at ang Habal Habal sa isang Nakababagot na Paghihintay sa Kanto ng
Lanao del Norte
Directed by Nick Olanka
Featuring Joey Paras and Arnold Reyes
An unusual rendezvous of two beautiful and sharp-tongue outspoken creatures living at the margins of our society. Take a peak on their engagement as they courageously travel— devoid of any inhibitions, political correctness, and social graces—that rough and ‘older than history’ roads of discrimination, hypocrisy, bigotry, social divides, corruption and unspoken violence to arrive in a decent friendship. The play is a bitter yet funky peppered with a Radio Active Sago Project kick-ass take on the cruelties of our society that condones discrimination which is definitely not so cool.



PAGKAGAHAMAN, PANLILINLANG, PANANAMPALATAYA
June 29 (SUN) – 3PM/9PM / July 3 (TH) – 8PM / July 4 (F) – 3PM

Floy Quintos’ Ang Kalungkutan ng mga Reyna
Directed by Floy Quintos
Featuring Shamaine Buencamino, Tuxqs Rutaquio, Nar Cabico, Jonathan Tadioan, Riki Benedicto and Jerald Napoles
Megalomania is witnessed by Marcel, a hairdresser who accedes to the leader of the land’s Yolanda Cadiz. The empty, vacuous preoccupation with hair and beauty is after all, the most important ingredient to governance. The elegance of decadence and its inevitable slide into self-destruction introduces one of this year’s Labfest’s most endearing/terrifyin g characters.

Debbie Ann Tan’s Mga Babaeng Too Bright
Directed by Ana Valdez-Lim
Featuring Peewee O'Hara, Mailes Kanapi, Kathlyn Castillo, Charissa Litton and Wenah Nagales
To settle who among the two is stronger in a woman, Harmony and Discord was given a scenario where their counterparts Ms. Ferra and Georgia Oh influence the lives of Porcelaine and Virni. Porcelaine is an egoistic woman who got a Toobright Scholarship. Virni is a manipulator, but when she met Porcelaine, they somehow agreed on what constitutes art. The interplay of the women and the "Goddesses" results in a battle where no one is the winner and the loser. The
politics of women are hard to define, they can betray each other and they can come together. In this world of faux art, what is real and what is unreal?

Koh Jun Eiow’s Ang Dalawa Niyang Libing
Translated by Terrence Co
Directed by Leo Rialp
Featuring Noel Taylo, Billy Parjan, Tina de Guzman,Sherwin Sozon, Mc Do Bolanos, Alexis Dorola, Jeffrey Ramos, Jorge Walter Ladera, Paul Domine, Cara Mercado and Ailen Mojica
This play is based on a true story that happened inMalaysia. An old Malaysian Chinese businessman diesleaving his wife and son the beginning of theirtroubles. In the middle of funeral, following thetraditional Chinese ceremony, two Muslims come toclaim the body of their brother Muslim insisting thatthe dead man should be buried in proper Muslimcemetery. They have proof that the deceased Lin Shunfuhas converted to Islam. His official I.D. bears thename of a Muslim. Thus begins the travails of a familycaught in between two faiths and a government unableto address the problem that has turned into a nationalissue.



MGA PREMYADONG KUWENTONG PAMBATA
July 5 (S) – 10AM/3PM / July 6 (SUN) – 10AM/3PM
(Bulwagang Amado Hernandez)

Njel de Mesa’s adaptation of Terangati by Victoria Anonuevo
Directed by Njel de Mesa
Featuring Bong Cabrera, Nar Cabico and the Koine Theater Foundation
This is a retelling of the Manobo version of the sky maiden who marries a mortal lad. Terengati, the protagonist whose name means bird hunter, does exactly that – he hunts birds for a living. Like other folktales, this story is rich in fantasy and has a touch of romance. Terengati’s search for his wife is as an adventure that may be hard to believe but its resolution is realistic and is drawn from actual family experience.

Argel Tuazon’s adaptation of Bru-ha-ha-ha- ha-ha, Bru-hi-hi-hi- hi-hi by Ma. Corazon Remigio
Directed by Mayen Estañero
Featuring Eric Sindol, Kat Castillo, Nicco Manalo and Bea Sara Angoba,
Maggie is terrified whenever she sees Mrs. Magalit, an old woman who lives by herself. She laughs like a witch and surely acts like a witch. Her face is wrinkled and looks oh so frightening. And the way she laughs, sends chills down Maggie's spine. But is Maggie just imagining things, or is Mrs. Magalit a real terrible witch?

Job Pagsibigan’s adaptation of Uuwi na ang Nanay Kong si Darna by Edgar Samar
Directed by Catherine Racsag
Featuring Tess Jamias, Paolo Cabañero, Ian Lomongo, Vanessa Liwanag and MarkGil Bacea.




STAGED READINGS
(Bulwagang Amado Hernandez)

June 26 (Th) – 6: 30 P.M.
Jovi Miroy’s Billboard
Directed by Chris Millado
Lovers and loveseekers come together in La Luz Beach resort, unwittingly giving dramatic rendition to Plato's Symposium and his discourses on love.



June 27 (F) - 6:30 P.M.
George de Jesus III Kung Paano Maghiwalay
Directed by George de Jesus III
The myriad variations of breaking up is presented here like a symphony divided into rippling movements; a tribute to the loss of love and the painful confrontations to truth.


June 28 (S) – 6: 30 P.M.
Khavn de la Cruz’s Newtopia
Directed by Khavn de la Cruz
It is 2084. A couple, Bernard and Julia, struggle to fight for freedom, privacy, love and even Unhappiness against this pseudo-perfect society controlled by Mr. Big Boy in Khavn' de la Cruz's anti-rock opera.



June 29 (Sun) – 6:30 P.M.
Anna Gonzales’ Ama Namin
Directed by Krystal Banzon
Daniel and Joseph reverses the classic Odysseus tale into a battle of wits and guts, revealing the horrible face of corruption in the course of this compressed drama between father and son.


J. Dennis Teodosio’s Asunto
Directed by Dennis Marasigan
Brando and George, a rather odd couple, confront a two-faced swindler and learn a thing or two about truth and justice in the Philippines.


Ogie Braga’s Ang Mga Mananahi
The soft-spoken, otherwise silent weavers of uniforms for the Moro rebels produce not only clothes for their warriors but subtle ideologies for freedom and dignity.


July 3 (Th) – 6:30 P.M.
Excerpts from Savage Stage
Directed by Ralph Peña
Featuring Nonie Buencamino, Shamaine Buencamino, Red Concepcion, JD De Guzman, JJ Ignacio, Irma Adlawan Marasigan, Joel Torre
Selected excerpts from four plays, three of which are included in Ma-Yi Theater Company’s anthology, Savage Stage, edited by Joi Barrios Leblanc: Project Balanggiga by Sung Rno and Ralph Peña, peregriNasyon by Chris Millado and Middle Finger by Han Ong. The fourth play takes scenes from Ma-Yi’s upcoming production of Ralph Peña’s new play Nebraska which will premiere in New York in 2009.

Tickets to the Virgin Labfest are at P200 for main exhibition sets, P100 for the symposium and "Pay What You Can" for play readings.

For more details, please contact Tanghalang Pilipino at 832-3661, or the CCP Box Office at 832-3704.

For details on how to apply for a slot in The Labfest Lab, call Nikki Torres at 8321125 loc. 1607 or 832-2314 or email drama_ccp@yahoo.com.

LGBT Pride Month at UP Diliman

from our friends at Progay, UP Babaylan and the University Student Council:

Pagbati!

Mga kasama sa komunidad ng LGBT sa Pilipinas, inaanyayahan kayo
kasama ng inyong organisasyon na sanay makasama kayo sa isang Pride
March bilang pag-alala sa Stonewall Riots na naganap noong June 26-
28, 1969 na nagsilbing mitya ng pagbabago at pandaigdigang kilusan
nga mga LGBTs sa iba't ibang panig ng mundo.

Ang tema ng gaganapin na pride march ay "Pride and UP: isang daan
taong kasaysayan ng pagtatanghal ng dangal" ito po ay gaganapin sa
June 27, 2008, at ang kitaan para sa martsa ay Vinzons Hall ng
10:00, masusunduan po ito ng isang forum mula 1-5pm at cultural
night ng 6pm. Ito pong pride march na ito ay isinusulong ng Gender
Committee ng University Student Council na sinusuportahan ng lahat
ng gender advocates sa loob ng pamantasan.

Naway makasama tayong lahat.

Marlon T. Lacsamana
ProGAY UP Diliman

Visit our website
http://progayphilippines.blogspot.com

Progay Philippines is a service and advocacy organization that provides counseling, training and education assistance to marginalized gay, lesbian, transgender and bisexual Filipinos.

Mailing address:
35 Scout Delgado Street,
Barangay Laging Handa,
Quezon City
1103 Philippines

Telephone: (632) 3743451
Mobile: 0928 7571119

Email: progay@yahoo.com, progay@gmail.com

Hello to everyone!:) Here is the calendar for the UP Diliman Pride Week:

June 25

LGBT Film Showing 1-4pm CAL AVR

June 27

UP Pride March 10am ACADEMIC OVAL (Start at Vinzons Hall)

UP LGBT Forum:Issues surrounding the LGBT Community of today
1-6pm Claro M. Recto Hall, FC

LGBT Cultural Night 6PM onwards, tentatively in Front of Faculty Area beside Pi Omicron tambayan

UP LGBT FORUM: Issues Surrounding the LGBT Community of Today

One of the events in the PRIDE WEEK is the LGBT FORUM. This forum aims to be a venue for information sharing and dissemination. It also aims to educate the attendees most importantly those who do not belong to the LGBT community about the lives of the LGBT individuals. The forum will tackle subjects about the different issues concerning the LGBT Community of today. The forum aims to answer some of these timely questions - Are the issues challenging the LGBT people of yesterday still challenges the LGBT people of today? Or the issues the community faces now are new? What changes do the LGBT community of the country went through thru time?

With the help of our respected speakers, we will all try to discover and understand the world of LGBT communities.

Venue: PH 400 (Claro M. Recto Hall in the Faculty Center)
Time: 1-5PM

Speakers and Topics:

Percival Cendana on LGBT in Leadership and Mass movement

Eva Callueng on Lesbianism

Paolo Fontanes on Transgender rights and other related transgender issues

Jonas Bagas on Anti Discrimination Bill

prsshhtt

gustong suminga ng utak ko. barado siya e.

pano ba to? hm.

dami kasing pollutants sa paligid ko e.

alis kayo dyan!

wat u tink, bast? hm?

forgot to plug

this month's issue (june) of mega magazine features some articles of mine.


i did ruffa gutierrez' cover story, one of the three covers this month. gimik nila to release different covers of the same issue. what the hey. i guess they have unlimited paper supply.

masaya siya kausap. malaman ang ten minutes. unlike other people we know... blah.

also inside, the 10 most beautiful women chenes, one of them being bea alonzo, the new betty la fea of local tv. yeah i did her interview, too.

i also have some book reviews there as usual.

i never bothered to plug the may ish. book reviews lang naman e.

excited ako sa august cover, though. it's apples aberin. i did her, too. at malaman din.

ang sarap makakilala ng magagandang babaeng matalino. unlike some people out there...

it's prohibition most nights in my home...

wherever i live, there's always old school blues on at night (preferably billie holliday) with some smokes and a stainless drink. in place of the poison of choice (vodka), sometimes gin takes the cue. so yes, it is always prohibition era at my home, most nights, especially when it's raining (like tonight) and when i'm alone.

how about you? what era is your home stuck at?

i like being timewarped like that. gets me in a writing mode. and thinking, too.

thank goodness for no-class mondays.

swak

Your horoscopes for Tuesday June 17, 2008

General Daily Horoscope for everyone The inspirational Sagittarius Moon lights a fire in the distant skies of our idealism. We set our goals based upon these visions of faraway places. Accordingly, our mundane thoughts fly into philosophical realms of inquiry. Our dreams pull us out of our current world as we make plans to expand our minds through education or travel. Meanwhile, sensual Venus moves to oppose shadowy Pluto, bringing darker and more mysterious desires into our awareness.

Taurus Horoscopes

(Apr 20 - May 20)

Tuesday, Jun 17th, 2008 -- You may be coming up to a rather significant turning point, yet you still want to believe that you can keep things going just as they are. The fact is that something has to change now; you have been able to manage the tension up to this point, but your emotions are becoming too intense to contain. Embracing the unknown instead of resisting it will make life easier for all involved.

please don't let me think. now. i'm still sleepy... X-[

let me leave you now with a quote...

from one of my favorite musicals (because it's about making movies!), SUNSET BOULEVARD...

"i am big... it's the pictures that got small."

yun nah. amen. :) i heart glenn close.

[kung sinumang punyeta ang humiram ng cd ko nito, isoli na ngayon din! hudas!]

at para iyan sa mga makikitid ang utak na patuloy na tinatapon ng sanlibutan sa ating daan para matutunan natin na mas byuti tayong nilalang kesa sa kanila. hehe.

(up yours, fuckers!) pardon moi francais. (pangit niyo, puta!)

nyt! tune out for the weekend. this scribe needs vibe to write. at may shoot. :P

coast is clear na ba?

hardly. haaaaay...

bgo o bkk? bgo o bkk?

lumipas lang ang hunyo. HUNYOOOOOOO! at okay na akong muli. MULI.

hay... :(

teleport me outta here! *tere-poto!*

pagud...


sana may suporta man lang. kahit konti. no?

yah...

but... beijing is da word.

is da word, is da word, is da word...

hay.

i hate the centennial.

Ang Pinaka: fabulous lesbian roles in Phil. cinema

ngayong weekend pa lang pala ito ipapalabas. ayuz. man, sana hindi ako mukhang bangag, adik or worse, pangit hehehe. vain eh!

self-plug. got this from their multiply:

DATE OF AIRING: JUNE 15, 2008

In showbiz, actresses always reach a crossroad where they must choose to accept more challenging and career-changing roles and one of which is tackling a lesbian role. But who among our female stars have pulled off the most effective, most memorable, and most ‘astig’ performance of a lesbian role in Philippine cinema?

Last year, we listed down the most memorable gay performances of male actors in “Ang Pinaka: Fabulous Papa-turned-Mama.” This Sunday, we bring you the much-anticipated companion episode with “Ang Pinaka: Astig na Mama-turned-Papa!”

Joining Host Rovilson Fernandez are guest panelistas: Film director Gil Portes, UP Professor Roselle Pineda, Production designer Bong Gacho,UP Professor/Young Critics’ Circle member Nonoy Lauzon, and UP Professor/Writer Libay Linsangan Cantor.

Who among our female stars are the most believable butch and femme? Which gender-bending performance will emerge as the ‘Ang Pinaka: Astig na Mama-turned-Papa?’ Find out this Sunday on ‘Ang Pinaka,’ June 15, 2008, at 6PM on QTV 11 (channel 24 on Sky and Home cable, channel 15 on Destiny cable, and channel 19 on Sun cable).

photo posts

uploaded pix at the pitik section of my multiply account. go check them out.

here are samplers:

ito sa LD shoot. directing the fight sequence.

nakatulong ang arnis lessons ko last year courtesy of fire. fire, kelan tayo ulit? miss ko na arnis every saturday! your disciples are waiting, sensei hehehe chos. classmates, where are you?

ito sa eastwood chenelyns, kasama ko some friends.

rona, sofia and me

ito sa baptismal reception ng bagong pamangkin, half-french half-linsangan sofia amandine. anak ng sanpits kong si rona, kapitbahay ko dati sa kamuning duplex.

ito naman nung dumating si carla.

sa heaven and eggs eastwood. my high school friends cho-cho and her hubby, jing then that's carla sa likod and me.

at ito naman sa IWFF08 opening

the annual international women's film festival ng UP Film Institute. 18 years na siya this year. sculptures are by our favorite full faculty, ms gigi alfonso.


sa mga nag-a-add sa akin, sorry pero hindi ko kayo ma-accommodate unless i know you or know a little bit about you. sorry pero you know how these social networking sites are. i'm just taking precautions. hope you understand.

cultivating a culture of caring in a careless and often cruel kingdom

galing talaga ng universe. it knows when to speak to me, clearly.

Taurus Horoscopes

(Apr 20 - May 20)

Yesterday | Today | Tomorrow

Wednesday, Jun 4th, 2008 -- Slowing down to do something right is often your greatest strength. While others rush ahead, you are building the foundation that can sustain your growth. Now, however, you are tempted to surge forward in a burst of enthusiasm. Containing your excitement may be challenging, yet it is currently the wisest course of action.

haaaaay... fine.

supposed to be sleeping now but i can't seem to shake un-sleep off. even my jowa's trick of a bath before bedtime doesn't seem to work now. overload of info and emotion is what i dealt with today, so perhaps the mind is still reacting very much. actually, it has been reacting that way since last week, hence the eye bags.

as a child of three-four told me:

her: ay, bakit ang itim ng ganito niyo? (pointing at her eyebags)
me: eh...ewan ko. (thought balloon: sino ba itong batang ito?)
her: grabe, ang itim!
me: oo nga e! (thought balloon: sino ba 'tong mahaderang batang ito't parang matanda kung mag-bibo?)

later, i found out that kid was my granddaughter. lola na ko! anak siya ng pamangkin ko na anak ng pinsan ko. at dalawa na pala sila. wow, time flies when you're growing...old? ngyar.

*

been thinking about care and the lack of it lately. lately, i've also come to realize that in this country, there seems to be a lack of caring culture, especially of late. ewan ko kung bakit. yun bang igu-groom mo or you take care of them because you generally want to help and all, pero in the end, the hand that fed them will be the hand that they bite and spit out -- and blame you for their actions! kaloka.

sometimes i don't know if i care too much to a fault that i am blinded by the bad things i'm supposed to see clearly. maybe it's because i am a bull born in the year of the ox. double stubbornness? perhaps. in this earth, i've met only two beings like me with those same signs, and we three each suffered from our respective stubbornness of our signs. (trivia lang na lahat kami lesbiyana at magkakakilala ngayon. weird.) suffered in terms of love, hating, jobs, work conditions, everything. kanya-kanya lang degree of denial/acceptance/resistance ek, pero may degree pa rin somewhat.

like in work. i know i care about the thing i do when i care about what happens to the company or institution where i work. no matter if the people are mostly devil incarnates, i try to stick it out because i believe in the institution and believe that it could do something important. that's what happened to my first full-time job. i devoted my life already to that company yet, corporate as it was, it didn't care back the way i/we thought it would. but we learn something everyday, and that time, i learned that one should put corporate living suspect, because by its very nature, it doesn't nurture.

that happened to me several times more, but in different circumstances. so i just took it as challenges that i have to hurdle, obstacles i had to overcome in order for me to reach my career climax. i guess i could say i'm getting there, but it's still a long way up. uphill battle is what it is.

same is true with this current engagement. no matter how much you care for an institution, there will be people who don't care who will look at how you run things and wait for you to fall or make mistakes. lucky for me i have two great goddesses on my side/at my back who look out for me and give me guidance when i thought i was already lost and on my own. i see that they care, because they genuinely care about the people they work with and the service we are giving/doing.

it's just sad that i can't say the same for all of us there. kung hindi inggit, yuyurakan ka, o iiwanan kang nakabitin. it's fine for me if someone i helped just said a simple thank you. simple lang. mababaw lang ako kaya simpleng pasasalamat lang sa nagawa ko sa kanya e okay na ako. hindi ako naniniwala sa konsepto ng utang na loob o sa konsepto ng "one day, you have to return the favor to me." that's so showbiz. napagdaanan ko na rin yan pero sa totoong showbiz world kaya keri ko lang, kasi kalakaran talaga. pero kung outside showbiz, naiinis ako kasi hindi ito nature nun. hinding-hindi. or, hindi dapat. kaya lang, parang hindi yun ang nangyayari.

nariyan na sasabihin ng iba na nagpapasok ako ng tao sa trabaho dahil kaibigan ko (wow thank you, ang dami ko palang kaibigan!). nariyan na sasabihing ako ang dahilan ng kanilang pagkaalis sa trabaho (there is such a thing as being "self-reflexive" you know. yun yung self-check baga) kaya they will damn me to hell, them and their minions, too. it's just a good thing that their minions are outnumbered by people who care more about the institution we are in who are not blinded by the supposed glitz and glamor they are being shown by the uncaring people. someone even said it was being divisive and elitist, sa circles nila. and i always appreciate that kind of honest feedback.

siguro may isa silang di naiisip, itong mga kritiko ko sa trabaho. sana makita nila na ma paglilinis ng bahay na ginagawa hindi lang ako kundi ng mga taong tinuturing na mahalaga at makabuluhan ang ginagawa namin sa pang-araw-araw naming gawain. na hindi ito glitz at glamour, or it's not about having a beautiful office, or it's not about paghaharang ng contacts and all, or it's not about gaining points to gain a better position. no, it's not about that. it's about the work, it's about the institution, and it's about the love of the art. yun yung caring. yun ang care. ngayon, kung sino mang hudas ang magwawalanghiya sa institusyon at sa mga tao doon, siyempre inaayos yan agad. dagliang gagawan ito ng paraan, remedyo at lunas, kung maaari. minsan, sasabihin ng karamihan na di kami nakikinig sa kanila. kung di namin ginagawa iyon, bakit kaya wala na riyan ang mga taong una nilang nakagisnan? yan ang tinatawag na paglilinis ng bahay. minsan, kahit ang nakakalat sa bahay mo ay tipak ng kristal o sa tingin nila'y piraso ng ginto, kahit ano pa man yan, kalat pa rin siya. kalat. na nakakadumi, na nakakasugat ng paa pag natapakan, na nakakaabala ng karamihan. abala. kaya kelangang alisin, walisin, tanggalin. iyan ang hindi nila naiintindihang madalas.

tama. ako ang dakilang taga-walis. akala lang nila minsan, ako lang ang nagdedesisyong magwalis. pero kadalasan diyan, dalawa ang kasama ko sa pag-aanalisa kung ano ang dapat walisin o hindi. kaya tatlo ay para may majority rule. minsan, wagi ako. minsan, laos ako. pero yun ang ganda ng demokrasya -- majority wins.

kaya siguro ako napapagod lately ng madalas. pati utak ko, pagod, hindi lang pisikal. kaya siguro nahihirapan akong matulog. sobra. kahit iniba ko na ang blocking ng pd sa set ko, wala pa ring tulog na dumarating. mahirap...

para sa mga nanonood lang sa tabi, akala nila ganoon kadali ang magwalis. mahirap siya. sobra. ako ang napagbubuntunan ng sama ng loob, ng chismis, ng pagyuyurak, ng kritisimo. pero salamat na lang sa training at pinanggalingan ko, nahulma ako sa paggawa ng armor na kayang harangan ang mga ito. paminsan-minsan lang may lumulusot na pana sa achilles heel kaya natatabig ng konti, pero di pa rin natitibag o matitibag. isang salita lang yan: KEBER!

kadalasan, maraming hinihingi ang kapaligiran na sobra sa kakayanan mong ibigay. pero kinakaya mo, dahil gusto mo, dahil may paninindigan ka sa espasyong ginagalawan mo, dahil may paniniwala ka sa mga magdadala ng hinaharap ng bayang ito, ng industriyang ginagawalan namin/natin. pero kung yuyurakan mo ang mga magdadalang ito, ako ang makakaaway mo. kung ginagamit mo lang ang mga ito para palawigin ang sarili mong proyekto o kapakanan, mag-isip-isip ka na. kaya ka natatanggal. kaya ka napapalitan. kaya na hindi nare-renew. kaya ka hindi na tinatawag muli. kahit pa anak ka ng diyos. kahit pa anak ka ng kumpare ng diyos. kahit pa anak ka ng kumpare ng kapitbahay ng diyos. kahit pa ikaw ang diyos (sa tingin mo). kahit sikat ka. kahit anak ka ng sikat. kahit anak ka ng kapitbahay ng sikat. kahit anak ka ngapitbahay ng kumpare ng kakilala ng sikat. kahit sabihin mong kahit kelan, puwede ka namang bumalik. kahit gumawa ka ng sarili mong espasyo para akitin ang ibang nabubulag sa liwanag ng peke. kahit magbuo ka ng sarili mong grupo at daotin ang mga grupong galing sa amin. kahit sabihin mong nag-resign ka kahit ang totoo e you were fired because you fucked up big time. kahit na ano pang press release ang gawin mo para yurakan ako/kami/ito. kahit iparamdam mong gusto mog tumulong pero ang totoo pala e may resentment ka sa pinapagawa sa yo. kahit may tatlong letra pagkatapos ng pangalan mo na wala kaming lahat. kahit ikaw na ang pinakamatagal na nilalang sa espasyong ito na tinubuan na ng ugat kaya ang utak mo ay nagka-ugat na rin at huminto na sa pag-function. kahit na ang self-esteem mo ay sobrang inversely proportional sa grabe lang na achievements mo. kahit na nanunuhog ka ng menor de edad at nangbubuntis nang walang pananagutan. kahit na mas matanda ka sa akin at di ka naniniwalang "old age does not bring instant wisdom." kahit na. kahit na. yes, kahit na. may ganung factor. may ganun.

meron.

mahirap magtantiya. mahirap tumantiya. kaya tama pa rin ang mantra. one day at a time. one hour at a time. one fault at a time. one moment at a time.

ganyan na lang.

*



a basta. ako masaya. ako mainam. kung di ka agree, wala akong magagawa. puwede rin namang di ako agree sa iyo. kanya-kanya na lang chever if ever.

if ever...

last minute nothingness

nairita ako. may nagsabi sa aking wala siya most of the coming week for a last-minute vacation daw, gayong napakaraming pending work to be done. gusto ko sanang sigawan ng "e ako nga ni walang first-minute vacation or middle-minute vacation, last minute pa kaya!" pero huwag na lang. zen dapat ako ngayon. om....

are the things i do for 700 pesos an hour close enough to the things you do for 30,000 pesos per month? perhaps not, because the things you do for 30,000 pesos per month are actually near the things i do for a whopping 13,000 pesos per month, or more. at may gana pa kayong magreklamo at mag-diva! poonyetah.

a business executive asked me last week if i don't have any plans of working outside the academe. i told her i don't want to leave teaching but if the price is right, sometimes the heart follows the mind. sometimes. thought balloon ko: why, you wanna pirate me? hehehe.

there are indeed those that want to, but they don't have enough gold bullions to make me happy happy joy joy. laos. pero sayang rin.

at least what i will do for 700 pesos an hour will earn me some good karma points as well. masaya na ako sa karma coins. i've been collecting them all this whole summer. grabe lang. ganansya galore, kaya nabiyayaan rin ang mga nakapaligid sa akin na mahal ko.

been talking to a good old resurfaced friend last week and she observed that everything that's been happening to me lately is like me collecting karma points due to me, and that those are the results of karmic retributions of people who slighted me majorly in the past. oh man, i say collect away! grabe lang. i happen to believe that, too. kaya talagang lintik lang ang walang karmic retribution. mwahahahaha.

GOOD RIDDANCE!

and more karma coins for me!