award ka ati. achieve!

sabi ng horoscope ko nung lunes:

Mercury and Mars form an irritating semisextile, indicating possible communication struggles with our friends or coworkers.

sapok ito a. culmination kanina. faculty mtg for the neverending revaluation foofoo. hay... and i thought i escaped "meeting hell" when i left NGOs. di pala. hay...

and this reading yesterday, bet ko ang words: 

The Moon is in emotional Cancer, where Crab's hard outer shell can protect our feelings from being washed away by the tides of change. Our mood swings can be quite powerful, even if we choose to keep the intensity hidden just beneath the threshold of perception. Meanwhile, the irresolvable tension between our idealistic dreams and reality builds to a crescendo as the long-term opposition between nebulous Neptune and austere Saturn is exact tomorrow.

You may be questioning the value of your work and your contribution to your family or community. This can be part of a healthy process, but be careful not to judge yourself with too critical an eye. Make changes at work that can help you through the next few weeks, but don't promise more that you can deliver.

okay yung second paragraph no? words of wisdom reality check for me. yebah.

and it continues today:

Family obligations can distract you from your professional aspirations now, forcing you to make choices with long-lasting consequences. If you experience disappointment, process it as quickly as possible, for you don't have time to think about what might have been. Instead, take care of the business at hand so you can return to achieving your ambitions as soon as possible.

yun nah. hey, the chinese weren't wrong in looking at the heavens for guidance for centuries, so why can't i do the same? word. saka i have chinese blood naman e. we all have, anyway. chinese and spanish. yan ang pinoy: the multicultural chopsuey. bow.

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watching the oscars repeat on cable as i write this. never knew that its subtitle this year is "vote al gore for president."

tangina ngayon lang kayo nagba-buzz about global warming, climate change and all that jazz, na chinampion daw niya. wutevah. e USA nga ang nagre-resist pumirma sa kyoto protocol e. tapos ayan, ngayon nagkakandakumahog kayo dun. palibhasa di kayo kikilos until affected kayo, like hurricane katrina. e nung tsunami nga, nag-hesitate pa si bush to send help nung una e. sus. mga 'merkano talaga, huli lagi. sa kahit ano.

but we love the oscars for honoring one of our own, melissa etheridge. yey. best song. wow tibam! and of course, hosted by our favorite tibam of all time, ellen degeneres. yey! long live lesbians!

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wow and tanda na nung ale na nanalo ng achievement in editing (THE DEPARTED). yey lola! long live lolas!

man i miss editing in a flatbed steenbeck. nothing beats celluloid talaga, in shooting, lighting and cutting. as in. walang panama yang mga adobe premiere computer chenes final cut pro blah na yan. mas maganda yung nahahawakan mo sa daliri mo yung pelikula. as in. tamo si jackie chan, sabi niya mas gusto pa rin niyang flatbed ang gamit, at yun nga ang ginagamit niya. award! 

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OMG JODIE FOSTER! my idol of all time! wala ka pa ring kupas, ati! sana gumawa ka pa ulit ng pelikula. yung may kabuluhan, not like FLIGHT PLAN. saka wag ka nang mag-pinch hit sa pelikulang di naman ikaw ang orig na na-cast, like nung nawala si nicole kidman sa PANIC ROOM. hay i miss the days when she used to be in good films, like CONTACT, and practically all of her films prior to that LIVES OF THE ALTAR BOYS chorva chorva.

i miss the '90s.

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wow walang tulak kabigin sa achievement in acting sa best actress chu. at puro lola ulit ang nominado! long live lolas! tru si helen mirren, brilliant silang lahat. achieve!

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and two of my favorite things in the intermissions: shadowplay and dance. winner yung ginagawa nun a! bet!

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wow buhay pa si peter o'toole! award!

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if you win an award, will you thank god in your acceptance speech? just curious.

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and that chaka spiel ng great directors coppola, lucas and spielberg--not to mention the nominees list--still show that DIRECTING FILM IS STILL A BOYS' CLUB AFFAIR. fuck you macho males. kelangang buwagin na ito!!!!!!!!!!!! ASAN NA ANG MGA BABAENG DIREKTORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

protesta.

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meron nga palang student oscars na award. upfi got an invite from the academy (yes, the actual AMPAS that gives out the oscars) to submit an entry and about two weeks ago or so, the faculty met to vote on a nominee from the past 2 batches ng thesis productions. so for your consideration... may napili na kaming ipapadala. abangan!

sana lang huwag lumaki ang ulo ng bata. madali kasing lumaki ang ulo ng mga bata ngayon e. ewan ko ba. akala ko mtv generation lang sila. inflatable generation din pala. inflatable heads. sana naman huwag na ganun. hay... kidz tah-dayyyyyyy. 

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segue na sa totoong buhay. bakit kaya laging "young" at "bata" pa rin an tingin sa akin ng mga tao? at 33, i thought i'm already an adult. why am i surrounded by older people all the time? hm... sabagay, i'm in between old and really young. well, puwede na rin... 

brief angst #1

kainiz mode lang. syempre just came from watching the csi trio every sunday night (my addiction) and i'm quite glad walang miami. i so don't like the cast of that one, from the squeaky-voiced blonde to the sobra-namang-angst-pero pagwapo-pa-rin na tall dude to of course horatio's pa-philosophically-executed pregnant quasi-pauses na hindi. ah basta.

the brief angst has something to do with nooyawk, tho. ang chorva ko lang e, bakit nila pinatay ang karakter niya: 

 

there's that spunky latina bronx groove vibe going on with this grrl, and i so like her story arc of being so determined to solve a series of rape cases. and then they kinda fire her. and now they kill her. asar. ni wala sa kalingkingan niya yung pumalit sa kanyang white girl! not sympathetic at all.

protesta!

 

 

ganda pa naman ng chemistry nila. blah! well, except for that police chuva sa kanan. i don't like him. i remember him from this short-lived hetero series called jack and jill ba yun? na siya yung guy named jill ata and the girl is jack, but they're hetero. well, they all are, anyway. blah. 

why wasting time browsing the net is bad for your mental health reason #69

ateh, hindi kinaya ng powerz ko itoh! just have to share it with some of ya. i know you'll enjoy it somewhat hahahah.

 
and mind you, it looks legit!

R-18!

 

Rock Your Body With The Ultimate iPod Acsexsory!

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Everyone loves music. Everyone loves sex. OhMiBod combines music and pleasure to create the ultimate acsexsory™ to your iPod. A whole new way to plug 'n play!

Simply plug OhMiBod into your iPod® or any music player and it automatically vibrates to the rhythm and intensity of the music. Let your body feel the vibrations as you get down with your favorite tunes. The combination of listening and feeling your music quickly transports you to a place where music, mind and body come together to create an unbeatable sexual experience.

 

check it out here if you want more info, and if you wanna buy one hahahaha. guess kung magkano. 69 dollars ati. kaya mo yon????

another reason not to buy an ipod hahahaha. well, that's just me. 

zen and the art of teaching--or--teaching the art of zen

award na naman ako sa stars. swakers.

this was last thursday:

An unexpected bolt of awareness can awaken you from your sleepy consciousness today, thrusting you into a strange and uncertain orbit of thought. Although the Aquarian Moon doesn't make you feel very comfortable, it can sound a wakeup call to remind you of the possibilities you previously set aside. Don't shut out any ideas now, however crazy they might seem

and friday:

Don't be too surprised if you encounter someone's eccentricities today, for this is nothing to be embarrassed about. It's all too easy for you to get stuck in your preconceived judgments and to resist unfamiliar ideas or people just to keep yourself comfortable. Instead, get yourself out of the rut you are in by taking a chance and voluntarily seeking alternative ways of thinking and living.

 and this was last saturday:

 You could be stressed by the pull of your family obligations as they conflict with your social plans. Unfortunately, you cannot easily choose one over the other, so it's important to schedule time for both. Don't make promises you cannot keep just because you feel guilty about what you want to do outside your home.

and sunday:

Applying the brakes to any out-of-control fantasies can help you be more realistic at work, especially if you feel like you've run into a roadblock. With your key planet Venus now receiving creative support from restrictive Saturn, you can accomplish more by moving slowly. Find a pace that makes you comfortable and settle in for the long haul.

ayuz. eto ngayon:

Your ruling planet Venus can feel the domineering presence of Pluto today, heightening your senses and activating your desires. You don't feel so easygoing and may be willing to fight someone else on your quest for satisfaction. Think again if you are ready to take a big risk. Consider temporarily pulling back until you can regain your perspective, especially if your sense of urgency is great.

 

and there we go. almost a week of mapping out of psyches courtesy of the stars. bow.

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dami kasing nangyayari lately pero minsan hirap i-sort out. exciting yun iba pero yung iba e hindi. tulad ngayon, sa turo ko.

ewan ko ba what's with the students lately. parang wala silang gana, tapos hindi nagre-recite. at least yung directing class ko e may effort naman, but most of them, since they are already late juniors or seniors, have this "taas kilay" mode when they listen to me. para bang "sige nga, show us what you know about this subject" ba. that's what their faces are telling me. matter of fact, may ganyang kaakibat na kayabangan talaga ang henerasyon nila e. kokonti lang ang hindi ganyan.

kaya nung naisalang na yung iba dun sa on-the-spot directing workshop last week, ayan, e di nakita nila ang hinahanap nila. ayan, itinuturo ko ang basics sa filmmaking 101 sa labas ng eskuwelahan at raket arena nila. matuto sila. some of them ate humble pie that afternoon. lots of it. at sila-sila, natuto kung paano magtrabaho ang kapwa nila. ayan, matuto na kayo ngayon pa lang. sabi nga ni queen latifah sa SET IT OFF, "you not all that!" word.

sa script class naman, ewan ko kung ano ang gagawin ko sa karamihan sa kanila. para bang nagkakatamaran mag-submit, o kaya e walang nagsa-submit on time, kung may magsa-submit man. tangina pasaway e. tapos ewan ko kung bakit pero hindi rin sila nagre-recite. e i've been doing the same spiels in class for the past 3 sems now, and the classes before that were just way more talkative than this here batch. i don't know why.

kaya pala nawawala ang pasensiya ng mga guro minsan at kahit ayaw kong gawing dictatorial e doon din nauuwi. kasalanan nila to e. introduce innovative ways of teaching e what do you get? nothing. these kids, palibhasa information and lots of things are already within their easy and lazy (internet) reach, take things for granted. this sums up this generation so far. grabe lang. at take note: hindi lang ako ang may obserbasyong ganyan. marami kami, from different colleges in the campus and from different schools in the metro. yes, marami akong friends na guro baket may reklamo?

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ewan. minsan gusto mo ring magturo ng adept with the times pero sablay din naman sa mga totality of life nila.

par example, we are about to teach some kids a basic acting workshop chenes, pero balak kong dagdagan ng gender sensitivity training. pero i decided hindi ko na kakaririn this way dahil wala rin namang effect kung ang karamihan sa mga katrabaho nila, pamilya at kinagagalawan e hopeless case scenarios. nagpapatulong nga ako sa mga ka-adbokasiya ko e, dahil talagang effort lang sa akin itong chenes na to, believe me. haay. kaya nga naghahanda na rin nga ako sa inevitable, e, just in case maungusan na tayo officially and underhandedly. yes, i am expecting that to happen. i can feel it in the air, chong. ang kapal lang. super.hmp.

kaya nga tama na itinatwa ko na ang bahaging iyon ng buhay ko. mabuhey! no regrets, chong.

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sa larangan naman ng aking pag-aaral, kakaririn kong muli ang pag-aaral ng pranses. simimulan kong muli sa level one ang extramurals sa EL this next two months. bet ko na to. mabagal lang though ang titser namin, pero sabagay, beginner level kasi kaya minsan nabu-bore din ako. pero kelangang karirin ito ng diretso sa simula para mas maging dalubhasa at masanay ako sa istilo nila. so far, so good naman. kaya happy ang sabado afternoons. n'est-ce pas?

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isa pang na-engganyo akong karirin ay ang pagpapatuloy ng aking pagtuklas sa larangan ng palakasan. may manaka-naka na namang training akong nakukuha at sinusubukan ko ulit balikan yung mga dating chenelyn ko, pero gusto kong karirin ang isang pormal na set-up. kaya pinatos ko ang isang announcement sa isang email group about this capoeira thingie chenes sa isang dance and fitness studio malapit sa eskwela. simula kasi nang na-feature ito sa LOVELY DAY last year e na-engganyo akong subukan kasi martial arts siya pero may sayaw at ritmong braziliano na gustong-gusto ko. at saka parang ang saya saya niya.

pero lo and behold, nang nakita ko kung sino ang magtuturo, gusto ko nang layasan agad. si mister chk  "any kind of stretching before any activity is already an outmoded way of thinking" yabang boi pala ang magtuturo. siya rin ang nagturo sa mga kids sa network last year. and i really hated his style. que horror! unang-unang, walang konsiderasyon sa genders. pag-sparring-in ba naman ang isang pre-puberty gel at isang puberty boy! tangina! and we are talking about body to body kiskisan contact ha! mahabagiiiiiiiiin! buti na lang wala ang nanay ni gelay kundi... tangina.

tapos puro ampaw naman nung sabado. a couple of my friends and i checked out their capoeira teaching style and obviously, raket lang ito. sabi kasi nila nung una, "we are teaching the fitness side of capoeira, not the full martial arts" tapos mamaya, yung second style na tinuturo na e combative stance! complete with the hands hurting the eyes mode going upwards. tangina. ano ba talaga????? tapos parang nangloloko pa sila nang sabihin niyang "this is a spiritual chenes chenes chenes..." tangina halatang nagpapa-impress ang mga mokong.

kaya ano ang kinalabasan? eto, baldado pa rin ako, dami pa ring sumasakit sa upper thighs dahil sa maling pagturo ng NO STRETCHING exercises nila. tangina. anong ka-hunghang-an yung "di na uso ang stretching before any activity" ka dyan? helllooooooooo. chk ka ba talaga? e itong two friends ko, mga dating varsity ito, at yung isa ay nag-taekwondo at yung isa ay nag-kung fu???? hello. at kahit ako, sa mga lessons ko sa dance dati (be it sa hiphop /streetjazz class sa powerdance ni douglas nierras at sa tap dance diyan sa PE ko) e may nalalaman silang stretching po! tangina. ano kayang katuturan nun? hanggagoh. hay nakoh.

saka i did a fast search sa internet kung saan ba talaga may legit na capoeira sa pinas, at wala sila doon sa list. why am i not surprised? raketeros.

so to warn you guys: yung dance studio ay located sa commonwealth kung nasaan yung convergys, at ang pangalan ng dude ay rhymes with ethan. or more appropriately, satan.
 

caveat emptor. chenelyn eklavu. chos.

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reminds me of another pair of raketeroth (pronounce like the spanish) na ethpanyoles na pinuntahan namin ng friend ko last month yata. her friend called her up dahil may magtuturo daw ng latin beats sa percussions. so go naman ang lola niyo (dahil frustrated percussionist ako, a hobby i started in college but dropped when acads got heavy). tapos sa escuola de flamenco chenelyn pala ito gaganapin ni madame ramona chenes sa makati, as we found out. so ayos. new experience! we welcome that all the time.

there were two pa-dapper looking na twentysomethings spanish dudes who taught us 3 kinds of latin beats/rhythms na may-i-palo-palo clapping ka sa hands while stomping your feet during several counts chenes. pasodoble-ish pala ang background ng dalawang raketeroth. tapos later on, nagsasasayaw na lang yung isa, mamaya silang dalawa, nag-show bagah. as in, pasodoble galore lang, complete with the heeled shoeses and the taas-taas ng shirt para makita ang chest pagwapo effect. aysus. nahilo baga ako sa kakataktaktaktaktaktaktak ng shoeses nilah. end result: migraine.

tapos may mga kahones doon na yun pala ang percs side. when we followed this one dude's pounding style, ati, mali-mali ang counting niya. iniiba niya ang palo, tapos pag susundan mo, iibahin ulit. anoba talagaaaaaaah. ilang beses kaming nagtitigan dahil kinukuha ko ang ritmo niya, na iniiba-iba naman niyah ever! pa-iling iling pa siy complete with turo-turo my hands kung saan dapat papalo, to no avail. nalokah na byuti ko after a while, not to mention namula na palms ko sa kakapalo ng kahon, so i finally gave up and just did the clapping thingie na turo ng kasama niya (na nung una ay snobbish sa akin at ang mga richina sosyaleras lang ang pinapansin niya, pero when i pronounced the spanish uno-diyes count correctly--meaning like he does--e instant friendship na siya sa akin. hay sus ang babaw niya. eth verdhadh.)

kakatawa lang tong mga experiences na ito hane. hay. bilang guro at estudyante, talagang naloloka akesh e. well, sana naman makahanap na ko ng swak sa aking sa mga pagtuturo... at sana biyayaan din ako ng mga estudyanteng magana mag-aral para ganahan din kaming magturo.

two-way street kasi yun e. 

intiendes?

kasalukuyang kaabalahang ka-chenes-an

na-miss ko bigla ang mag-blog kaya heto ako, nanakaw ngilang saglit sa gitna ng sandamakmak na trabaho. update la-ang baga.

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sayang naman ang ikina-itim ng balat ko (ng kaunti--bat ba ayaw kong masunog!!! arrrr.) kung di ko ipa-plug ang dahilan.

NOOD KAYO NG LOVELY DAY ngayong sabado sa gmachannel7 10am. 

sa clarkfield kami nag-shooting mga some kinda plane thingies na mukhang tutubing malaki (sayang gusto ko syang sakyan, e 3k per hora. next time) at saka yung hot air balloon thingies na gusto ko ring sakyan sana (at ang ganda lang niya sa gabi!) saka some kinda plane and motorcycle race thingie.  pero as usual sa segments lang ito at yung narrative spiels ay iba ang kwento.

hmm, napansin ko lang. eroplano na naman? bat pag may ganitong ep e ako ang natatapat magdirek? hmmm. so bakasyon muna ko next week kasi ang lolo hech ang relyebo duty sa directing. tamang-tama dahil balak kong yariin ang isa pang short film project na di ko alam kung makakahabol...waaaaah. sana naman. di bale, sfx at score na lang to make and marry, interlock and tapos! winner na akesh.

speaking of interlock, naa-ahensiya lingo na naman ako sa kasalukyan kong isang engagement pa. but the thing with working with peeps from the advertising industry is that it's fun kasi kahit ngarag lahat ever sa pag-please ng client, uber-nice ang treatment naman in terms of alaga. as in, three square meals plus water and refreshments in between, and of course the vehicle hatid-sundu chu.

kaya minsan nami-miss kong mag-work sa mainstream e, ahensya man o pelikula. napa-indie-indie na kasi ko ng husto e. hay... pero bet na rin itong paminsanang tv work sa syete. mainstream din ang approach most times even if the attack on the material is quite indie-ish. 

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current hate: mga taong madumi ang aura

puwede kayang ipa-laundry muna nila ang aura nila? wash dry press sana tapos ibalik agad para ipa-dryclean naman. kasi naaalibadbaran ang energies ko e. hmp, bakit ba ang dudumi ng aura ng ilang nakakatrabaho ko? saklap. kaya apec ang crown chakra ko senyo e. arrrr. sarap niyong tirahin sa 5th chakra...

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been hanging out lately with high school chums naman, for work and play. our barkadamate chielo tied the knot with this egyptian dude from cairo whom she met while working in saudi arabia. ayuz! itu-tour daw niya ko sa cairo at alexandria kapag nagpunta ko roon. yey! sosyal! pyramids at giza here i come. bibili na ko ng tunay na ankh chenes, dahil may isa diyaaaaaan na nalimutan akong ibili nito nung nasa cairo siya hehehe (hint hint). 

dami na ring life changes sa high school chums ko. nakakatawa at nakakatuwa lang silang kasama kasi mega-flashback ang mode namin lagi sa pag-reminisce ng mga bagay-bagay. at saka nakakatuwa ring mag-update-an ng current life situations.  katuwa ring makipag-in touch sa ilan sa kanilang nasa ibang bansa through our yahoogroup. sarap ding magbilin ng mga thingies pag may uuwi diyan, lalo na sa decemberrrr (ano j? tuloy ba? siargao surf tayo dude! don't forget my angelina jolie poster!)

shet sayang lang at wala akong photo opsto blog para makita niyo guys. my humble coolpix is busted and is in the nikon hospital as we speak. cost me an arm and half a leg to have it repaired nyetah. kaya kelangang rumaket hehe.  get well soon coolpix. i miss yah. wah. 

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also currently polishing my travel chenes dahil nalalapit na ang pagpunta ko sa india! yehey! samosa here i come! ano pa ba pagkain don? ah basta yung masarap. solb na ko! may visa and everything na.

nyeta ang dali lang palang kumuha ng visa kung tutuusin. kaya tangina yang US embassy na yan e, kung mang-raket sa atin na 100 dollars ang visa application and then 3-6 months pa ang release chenes or denial ek. e sa indian, 2 days lang me visa na ko, wala pang hassle na consul interview chuva na powertripping tulad sa US. grabe lang! at 2k pesoses laaaaaaaaang! can you beat that! okay, new zealand can. sa new zealand, libre ang tourist visa! yep, nakita ko sa embassy when we last visited the amba there. devah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hay nakuh...

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kung hei fat choi nga pala sa mga kababayang chinese. natutuwa ako lately na manood ng MANO PO reruns sa cinema one. natatawa ako kay zsa zsa hehehe.  i hope the year of the fire pig (er, lechon?) will be nice to this ox. hm, anong element nga ba ko? i forgot kung earth o wood ox ako e. definitely not fire and water. hm... sana metal. sos.

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balentayns na rin pala. marami na namang mawawala sa mga kalye at mapupuno na naman ang mga fairs, malls, cinemas, and motels. remember that one valentine years ago when this father robert the running priest dude ran and KNOCKED on motel rooms to remind people daw that sex is sacred at dapat in the context of marriage gawin and all that catholic suffocating jazz. e father, asan ka na ngayon, ha? hehehe.

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politics is the art of the possible...

...sabi nga sa EVITA. anukabanaman. tignan mo na lang kung sino ang mga tatakbo sa upcoming elections. it's the same old thing; nade-dejavu ako ng 2001 days ko when i first covered ate shawie and ate vi for pinoy times because their hubbies were running as senators for the first time. and look who's filing their candidacies again... chenes chenes chenes... same old same old... hay. my poor country... and manny pacquiao! gudlak sa yo teh!

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heniwey, ongoing pa rin ang NEW ZEALAND FILM FESTIVAL dito sa UP Film Institute Cine Adarna (formerly Film center). nood kayo. galeng galeng nung CINEMA OF UNEASE na docu ni sam neill. the psyche of a nation as seen/reflected/analyzed through cinema. wot a concept! sana may gumawa rin ng ganun dito, lalo na sa atin e napaka-tingkad lang ng cinematic history natin wow. ano kaya ang kakalabasan nun? hmmm...

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salamat sa mga constant and new readers and lurkers and commenters. sana comment lang ng comment ha para may response chuva naman itich. 

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i am currently addicted to audiobooks. kaya kung naglalakad akong may mp3 player sa tenga, audiobook ang "binabasa" ko. kasalanan ito ni chato na nagbigay ng regalo sa amin nung birthday niya (oo baligtad ang mundo naming film school chums) na audiobook ng STRANGER IN A STRANGE LAND. yey so naghanap rin ako ng iba pa, at ang dami kong nakita! wahooo! kaya eto na yata ang sagot sa aking recent chenelyn na "i hate it wala akong time magbasa ng literature" mode. audiobooks. bow.

hm, ano naman kayang gadget invention ang susunod na maiimbento para masagot naman nila ang "i hate it wala akong time manood ng pelikula" mode? siguro naka-plug na sa utak ang visual info, like JOHNNY MNEMONIC. ay bet ko yun.

yes kung di obvious, i dig sci fi stuff. but not hardcore, unlike some of my write friends na deboto ng mga sci fi writers. basta, dig ko ang genre e. lalo na yung nagpe-present ng alternate realities natin. bet.

teka, baka may audiobook ka, sana on mp3 (okay puwede na rin wav, may converter naman yung friend ko e). PAHIRAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. pakopya. :) so far, meron na kong mga george orwell novels and some classics. trying to acquire hp hehe. bet. we can exchange! go go go. e me leaflens at gmail or post here.

now na!
 

asan? asan? asaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan???????

sorry but this piqued my interest and i have to react to it:

Artists Have More Sexual Partners, U.K. Survey Hints

A survey of 425 British men and women found that creative people have more sexual partners. [talaga? saan? saan? saan?]

Researchers at the University of Newcastle upon Tyne and the Open University asked participants about their artistic skills and their history of sexual encounters since the age of 18.

Professional artists and poets reported sleeping with twice as many partners as other adults sampled. [ay oo tru yan talagang ang mga po-wettttsssss na yannnn...hehehe. punyeta bat ba kas ko fictionist eh linshak]

Daniel Nettle, a psychology professor at the University of Newcastle's School of Biology, said two factors may explain the findings.

"Creative people are often considered to be very attractive and get lots of attention as a result," he said. "They tend to be charismatic and produce art and poetry that grabs people's interest." [e di ba rockstars ganun din? hm..]

Alternatively "it could also be that very creative types lead a bohemian lifestyle and tend to act on more sexual impulses and opportunities, often purely for experience's sake, than the average person would," he said. [tru ka jan, ati. will try anything once, for experience!]

"Moreover, it's common to find that this sexual behavior is tolerated in creative people. Partners, even long-term ones, are less likely to expect loyalty and fidelity from them." [pakiulit nga yun????? LESS LIKELY TO EXPECT LOYALTY AND FIDELITY... totooh ba tohhhhh??? not in 'pinasssss!]

According to the survey, professional artists and poets had between four to ten sexual partners, on average, compared to three partners for nonartists. [ano yan, per night, per month, per year...or in their lifetime? again ati, depende sa lokasyonnnnnnnn]

 

hehe apec ako ah. hahahahah. must be tigang nah hahahahahahaa. chos.

someone in an artists' egroup posted the link kaya ko nabasa to. 2005 survey pa ito pero i guess keri pa rin siya. read the whole thingie here .

weird lang. i think this all depends pa rin on the location. tama pa rin ang sabi ni ALFIE. kaya gusto ko nang pumunta sa new york, as in now nah! hehe. was chatting with a dear friend last week and how i envied her location. man, she was just two blocks or so away from 2 lesbian bars! what a 'hood! wanna be there! men, kelan magkakaroon ng ganyan dito????? asa pa ko noh. hay.... location. location. relocate? heheh. hmm lemme think...

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i just discovered the wonderful wonderful world of  couscous cooking! sarafff! so flexible siya! at more manageable than rice. okay, may bago na kong carbo-like. goodbye kanin. later pasta. mas bet yung organic type kesa sa regular ones, altho mas matigas yung regular ones. pero mas bet ko ang texture ng organic. yum.

i so love santi's. dami kong nadidiskubre lagi. next up, the non-msg seasoning mix chuvaloos. and of course, camembert!

speaking of explorations, i really wanna explore the mediterranean cuisine more. greco-med to be exact. kaya gusto ko ring pumunta ng greece e. sarap. pero kung may grocery na ganito ang tinda dito, pakitimbrehan mo naman ako o. pliz! 

realize, execute and other verbs that need to be in action, maintenant

NOW IS THE TIME ika nga ng isang album ni...ewan, nalimutan ko na kung sino'ng pop star ang may album na ganito (yea, sometimes my mind is just full of junk trivia na di ko alam bakit napunta doon at di ko alam kung paano itaktak palabas, like alam niyo ba ang ibig sabihin ng tv show acronym na T.O.D.A.S.???). wala lang. now is the time to execute a few things based on certain realizations.

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salamat sa sagot sa mediocrity blah survey. i've gotten over my mediocrity blues after talking to a film director lately who also works sometimes sa tv. sabi nga niya, to wit "television breeds a culture of mediocrity, e. you don't have the time to pour out your mind and soul when the pressure of the deadline is there. minsan, basta lang ma-stage yung eksena, gagawin mo para tapos na, hindi na masyadong pinag-iisipan."

amen to that, brotha! 

parang yung sabi ng isa ko pang friend. kapag nagtatrabaho talaga sa tv, hindi daw ako dapat nagbibigay ng todo-todo, hindi tulad sa pelikula. mas may buhos sa pelikula. dapat daw i leave something for myself and not give it my all when it comes to working in tv.

amen to that, sistah!

kaya okay na ko. :)

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may mga naiwan akong bagay na ngayon ko lang pini-pick up ulit, at nagpapasalamat ako sa mga diyosa sa patuloy na paggabay dahil sa masaya itong pag-pick up lately. i'm glad.

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minsan iniisip ko kung ano ang mga deal breakers sa akin when it comes to professional and personal relationships. naalala ko lang itong term kasi ewan ko kung bakit pero may resurgence of a one-time favorite show lately, yung SEX AND THE CITY. nakakatawa lang kasi when i caught an ep sa channel9, practically walang natira sa dialogue ni samantha when she said "oh shit motherfucker i have a something something..." hehe. puro delete. and then there was this dude in masscomm who made a content analysis of the first two seasons with dangerous conclusions... i really hope he sees the rest of the show para naman mas malawak yung conclusions niya next time. at sana di siya naasar sa comment ko. pikon talo, remember...

 siguro eto ang mga sitwasyon o bagay na deal-breaker sa akin:

1. BEING LIED TO, TO MY FACE, AND TELLING A LIE TO MAKE ME SINK. sukdulan na nga na magsinungaling ang isang tao, pero mas sukdulan kung sinasabi niya ito sa harap mo at obvious na siya. that's just the pits.  

2. BEING LIED TO, AND BEING BACKSTABBED AT THE SAME TIME. self-explanatory.

iisip pa ko ng idadagdag.

pero kung mag-iisip ako ng deal breakers, siyempre kasama na rin doon ang mga klase ng tao na gumawa ng deal na yun. siguro mas maganda at madaling ilista iyon. here's mine:

1.  liars

2.  backstabbers

3.  oportunistas

4.  user-friendly people (they befriend you to use you)

5.  arrogant pa-self-important bastards

6.  matalinong tamad

7.  bobong mayabang

8.  mga taong super-galing humingi ng favor pero super-malilimutin sa pag-return ng favor

9.  mga manunulsol

10. poseurs

11. poseurs who think/act like they're not poseurs

12. mga feeling close kahit di naman kayo close (sabay beso pa, yuck)

13. mga manyak na wala sa lugar (iba to dun sa sinabi ni dj alvaro na "maginoo pero medyo bastos" kind)

14. credit-grabbers

15. mga losers na naninira ng mga taong wala namang ginagawa sa kanila

16. mga know-it-all people

17. mga taong nagsasabing advocates daw sila pero di naman naaarok ng husto ang lahat ng lebel ng adbokasiya nila

18. mga nakiki-adbokasiyang tao pero obvious faker naman

19. mga punyetang intrigera na wala talaga sa lugar (o iintrigahin ka kahit di ka kilala! sukdulan!)

20. mga activists na nag-cross na ng line ng pagiging zealot instead of advocates

21. mga matapobreng tao, lalo na yung walang k (kasi di naman sila rich in the first place!)

22. mga dupang at buwakaw sa opportunities, ideas and knowledge

23. mga pasosyal ng sobra, lalo na't out of context

24. mga pasosyal na di naman sosyal at wala silang k magpasosyal ever

tamo, mas marami nga pag character-based kesa plotpoint-based. [teacher mode]

sabi nga sa sex and the city, deal breaker yung pag may ginawa sa yo, talagang di ka na magdadalawang-isip sa pagkalas ng relasyon. of course they're talking about men, as always. pero here in my case, relasyon can mean professional or personal nga, personal na puwedeng friendship lang at hindi necessary lover.

last december, na-disappoint kasi ako ng husto sa ilang kaibigang matagal ko nang tinuturing na kaibigan. mabuti na lang at nagising ako sa katotohanang hindi ko pala sila talaga kaibigan. kaya nga mas nasasala ko na ang mga taong umaaligid sa akin ngayon.

sorry about this post. talagang kelangan lang ng purging.

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mukhang magiging masaya at aktibo ang aking summer, lalo na ang abril, my birthmonth. ngayon pa lang e marami nang plano. sana nga. sana naman diyamante na imbis na tanso ang maipon para in line with my birthstone.

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natatawa ako sa mga taong di naniniwala sa karma. tulad ng kapag nanira sila at nanadyang mag-powertrip ng husto, di ba nila nare-realize na ang mga maliliit na abala o disgrasya sa kanila na nagaganap matapos nilang gawin ang mga di kanais-nais ay balik ng karma iyon??? it works dude, it works.

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talaga yatang di ako makakatakas sa showbiz o showbiz-minded people and situations. kasi lahat pala ng larangang pasukan ko ay pulos showbizzzzzz ang mga utaw... kaya kelangang sakyan ng kapares na sasakyan para makaandar ako sa kanilang race track (kahit wala namang karera).

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the thing with people is that they don't know one thing about me, or they haven't realized it yet: kung gago ka, mas gago ako. kaya magtago ka na sa pinanggalingan mo. apat sungay ko, ati. taurus in the year of the ox. suwag ever. let the buyer beware. chos.

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i just realized that i also hate pathetic people. pathetic liars, to be exact. yes, talagang iba-iba ang level ng pagsisinungaling. 

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on the lighter side of things, i'm going to india next month wahoooooooooooooooo. for free! yey. to attend this . sosyal! ipapalabas ang maximo at pusang gala din doon. ewan kung sino sa production ang dadalo. ayuz. can't wait! 

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right now, i'm missing the company of my real friends. thanks for the new testi, ki. 

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salamat sa mga nagko-comment sa board at sa page mismo. winterdoll, gusto mo buhay mo unahin nating isapelikula? hihihihi joke. hmmm kay dre na lang kaya para abutin ng episode 6 a la star wars, anesh mare? hehe. ipa-aprub sa producer! hehe. tatlong lapad, go! chos.

salamat sa pagpaparamdam sa iba riyan. ipagpatuloy lang!

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dudes, i just realized that yesterday marked the 2-year birthday of this blog! ayuz. and where was i before that? look at my link sa left na lang. anjan lahat, yakang-yakang i-trace ninuman, kahit ng cia hehe. hapibertdeyblog!

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sabi ng co-faculty kong si edlej , magsulat na daw ako! pressure! oo nah ati! eto na! eto na! lesbian vampire story naman daw kaya para maiba? ati, ayoko! kasi life story ko yon! di niya ata alam na ako ay isang lesbian vampire! hweheheheheheh. chos.

INTERVIEW WITH A VAMPIRE mode na naman akesh. kapapanood na naman for the umpteenth time sa cable the other day.

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sabi rin ng isa pang co-faculty na si roland, tapusin na ang MA! oo nah oo nah! eto na nga ati, dedefend na ko sa mayo! 

teka, bat ba ko pine-pressure ng mga vaklerz? hm...

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trying to write contemporary lesbian stories here but for the life of me, i dunno why my mind conjures up lesbian stories situated in the medieval times, starring angelina jolie and michelle rodriguez to boot. hanlaboh. there must be a scientific explanation for this!

when in rome, think of how you will deal with romans, and don't just do as they do

the thing with us film school teachers is that we are judged by our students based on our "clock hours" in the media industry, meaning they'll see if we have the "k" to teach them something based on our knowledge and experience working in the film and tv industry. for instance, if you teach production design, they'll ask what are the films you designed. if you're a scriptwriter, they'll ask what film you wrote already became a film. mga ganun ba. kami noon, as a film student, hindi yata namin ito preoccupation. mas preoccupied kami sa mga natututunan namin sa teacher, whether kulang yun, sobra or something else. basta we were just focused on the knowledge and extra na lang yun na we look at the teacher's background and experience, kahit sinabi na niya o alam na namin beforehand.

marami naman rin kasi diyang practitioners nga na magaling pero di naman magaling magturo ng alam nila. i recently asked a film director if he's willing to teach at the institute pero sabi nga niya hindi siya pang-ganun, and i respect that, although alam kong marami siyang maise-share sa mga kids.

kami naman ngayon sa faculty at instructors, balanse na. our insti director and of course the old-timers in power there want teachers who are practitioners (whether theorists/critiques or technical or both) who have the pedagogical sense to impart knowledge in an academic set-up. medyo mahirap talagang hanapin ito at laging trial and error ang proseso ng ganito. kaya nga may mga nasasala kaming lecturers at nahihilang bago. mahirap lang to deal with faculty kasi di basta-basta ang case namin. kaya mahirap ring balansehin kung meron sa amin na medyo kakaiba ang turo...

pero marami pa rin sa amin ang balanse. isang paa ay nakasawsaw sa media at ang isa ay nakatungtong sa akademya, tulad ng inyong lingkod. kaya minsan, medyo masakit yung marinig sa mga estudyante na walang kredibilidad ang mga tulad naming film faculty dahil di kami gumagawa ng pelikula o aktibo sa labas ng akademya.  may isa pa ngang nagsabi sa akin noong thesis defense niya na kakaiba daw magkomento ang ilang faculty sa thesis proposal defense niya dahil daw inggit sa kanya ang mga ito.  masyadong mayabang na argumento at pahayag. naisipan ko tuloy dumistansiya sa kanya kasi baka mahawaan ako ng di kanais-nais na ere.

pero bakit ko ba ito nililitanya sa inyo? kasi kinokonteksto ko lang itong susunod kong sasabihin. baka kasi kapag nabasa ng mga estudyante ko ay sabihin nilang "sour graping" (or "sweet lemoning" 'ika nga ng friend ko) lang ako sa ibang tao. ang totoo niyan, hindi.

tulad ng nabanggit ko dati, sana'y huwag gamitin ang pananaw, adbokasiya at pagkatao ng mga api ng mga oportunista lamang. medyo ganito kasi ang nangyari sa pelikulang ROME AND JULIET. kung di kayo pamilyar dito, eto ang chorva niya .

di ko alam kung paano ko ito babaklasin. sa dami ng puna ng mga manonood, di ko alam kung saan sisimulan. iniisip ko nga, wag na lang kaya? oo nga, wag na lang.

so what should i write about instead? change topic? hindi rin...

people tell stories for different reasons. as a literary writer, i've learned this thing since i began hanging out in the literary world. kanya-kanya tayo ng rason para magkuwento. bakit ba gusto mong magkuwento? bakit gusto mong ikuwento ang kuwentong kinukuwento mo? bakit mo kinukuwento sa ganito o ganyang paraan ang kuwento mo?  ganyan ang mga tanong na daglian namang nasasagot ng mga kapwa manunulat. ang ilang sagot: may gusto akong sabihin, gusto kong punahin, gusto kong dagdagan, gusto kong punan ang kulang, gusto kong mag-iwan ng mensahe, gusto kong manghingi ng mensahe.

yan. yan ang mga rason. pero kung ang sagot mo sa "bakit mo kinukuwento ang ganyang kuwento" ay "kasi ang magbabasa niyan ay untapped market" e iba ang makakasalubong mo.

batikos. tulad nito.

part of women's struggles over the past decades also has something to do with who should tell their stories. fellow women? men who do not understand and always underestimate women have always recorded women's stories in their own version. this is also why english-speaking feminists hate the world "HIStory" and prefer to call it "HERstory." they say women have been erased in the history of the world and it's time to change that. i agree. if women have been totally rewritten, think about what happened to lesbian stories. practically nonexistent.

so in order to balance things out, should women write their own stories? and to dig deeper, should lesbians tell their own stories? what do you guys think?

it's just like that answer my painter friend maita said many years ago when asked about being labeled as a "lesbian artist" (she's a painter). she said it's okay for her to be labeled as such because she's not bothered if people ask her "are you a lesbian who's an artist or an artist who's a lesbian?" she says she's both, and both inform her work. she works as an artist and as a lesbian. so naturally, her works reflect her lesbian nature.

as a writer, i also tried to answer that before, because i was easily tagged as a "lesbian writer" mainly because i am a lesbian and i am a writer. naturally, they'd look for lesbian-themed stories from me. but i also write about hetero experiences and gay experiences, not just lesbian experiences.  my hetero and gay stories both appear realistic as my lesbians stories, and people never criticized them as being "fake."  why is that so? maybe it's because i've been exposed to they various gay lifestyles that i became familiar with the milieu. and as for the hetero, of course i was once a heterosexual woman. what could be more authentic than that?

so this leads me to my main point: the abovementioned film's director always gets some flak for being a hetero woman who made a lesbian film. she herself said she gets the flak because her film did not cater to the lesbian audience. but she also said her film is for everybody and she didn't set out to do a lesbian film.

uh, hm.... okay... wotevah.

i didn't rush out to see this one when the festival came out late last year. many friends have been telling me the bad reviews. and when i met the director, i quickly understood why.

i admire her willingness of trying to understand this part of the world which she never really knows, daw. she said she made this film for women, daw. but the way it was shot, it was clearly shot for men. hetero men. it has always been a hetero man's fantasy to make love to two women, and the sight of two women hitting it off gets them off. so sick. kulang na lang kumuha ng dildo sina mylene dizon at andrea del rosario at isaksak nila sa mga shaved pekpeks nila to complete the porno fantasy approach. tangina. sabi nga ng friend kong kasama kong manood, all the freaking cliches in the book about "hetero women crossing over to experience forbidden (lesbian) love" is in this freakingly long film.  another friend said "this is a homophobic lesbian film" and i agree with both of my friends.

i guess the director can do all of the lesbian-themed films, stories, plays, tv shows, music videos she wants to do. i hope she does the next ones better. but i'm not really betting on that, man. she needs to research not on how lesbians live but mainly on how she thinks of lesbians in general. because man, it clearly shows. pramis. hay naku.

tama yung friend ko. kelangan na talagang kumilos. tru ka jan, ati.