30 July 2008
my cellphone's okay na
by the way.
balik-texting life.
make contact. if not, it's an awful waste of space.
go.
will i be __? will i be __ ?
que sera sera ang drama nitoh.
Your horoscopes for Wednesday July 30, 2008
 | General Daily Horoscope for everyone There is a noticeable difference between what we feel and how we actually behave today. With the Sun, Mercury and Venus all in expressive Leo, we are likely to act dramatically because we want to be seen and loved for what we do best. But the Moon in cautious Cancer reminds us to keep our deepest emotions private, creating a gulf between the inner and the outer. We are further unsettled as loving Venus forms an uneasy quincunx to rebellious Uranus. |
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
Wednesday, Jul 30th, 2008 -- You may be busier than you wish, but there's not much you can do about it now other than keeping up with your commitments the best you can. Keep in mind that your attitude can impact your happiness as much as anything else can. If you complain, your entire day can turn sour. But if you allow yourself to feel the positive energy within and share it with others, you can easily turn your day around.
why do i keep forgetting that it's all about the reaction after all? that if you react negatively to the situation, then it's you that's negative, not the situation. kumbaga, depende sa reaction mo yun, hindi sa sitwasyon.
attitude. kung nega ka, nega na lahat.
ayoko nang dumikit sa nega.
sa totoo lang.
28 July 2008
are we in the mood?
no, not really. to blog, that is. or review.
just came from the first night of the cinemalaya runs at UP. saw BABY ANGELO and CONCERTO. hm. will try to watch all na lang muna bago ako mag-cine chichirya. saka gabi na. yoko na magkasala muna. chozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
hihi.
saw some old friends. nice to see them. happy naman. at ang walang kamatayang hirit na "gumawa ka na kasi!" bakit niyo ba ko pine-pressure gumawa ng pelikula? ha? hehehe. chozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
when i'm good and ready, i will, pramis.
but first, nobela muna.
*
hay nakuh. usapang gadget dyke naman. need insights on some things.
ang weird lang ng experience pero lumobo pala yung baterya ng cellphone ko. overcharging daw, sabi nung guy sa nokia megamall. hm. meron palang ganun. nangyari na ba sa inyo yun? strangeness siya!
but heniwey, okay na ulit ang phone. baterya lang pala. pero ang strange pa rin! ewan. ang taba niya kasi! parang na-overfeed. this is so sci-fi to me, sobra. basta.
browsing at the nokia store, i saw a new model na parang synthetic leather ang finish. kewl siyaaaaa! arte ang name. as in literal, "arte." at tumataginting na 50k siya. pesoses. shiyet. ganun kasi ang gusto kong models e, yung iba ang design, not all metallic and not rubbery ek. basta. kaya bet na bet ko yung textile finish phone ko e. sana gumawa sila ng cheaper version nung arte. panalo siya.
tangina 50k? labo. bili na lang ako kotse, second hand, pang-down na yun noh. shet.
*
nasa ospital na naman ang laptop ko at this time, i hope it'll be cured for good. although i'm still reearching about the UMPCs. may term na palang ganun, short for ultra mobile PCs, smaller than laptops but not exactly the tablet pc models. although happy rin yung pero uber-mahal. i need one na pang-labas-labas at travel kasi mahirap yung standard laptop na ilabas e.
any suggestions?
or shall i go the blackberry(sp?) way? di ko alam kung bakit sa ka-gadget dyke-an ko e di ko matipuhan ang palm pilot chever. parang yung ipod, di ko bet. well, design-wise siguro kasi. pero what's the chever kung mag-palm ako? sige nga, convince me.
*
a friend texted and said today is the last day/night of 70s bistro. grabe marns, gulat ako dito. i will miss their lengua ang carabao tapa. :(
somehow, miss ko rin living in that area. the house i rented last, i was a few feet away from bistro. kung gusto kong pakinggan kung ano'ng type ng music ang tumutugtog, bubuksan ko lang ang bintana sa second floor and listen. saya.
well, the end of another era... saan kaya sila lilipat? hm...
that place really played a significant part at certain stages of my life. strange...
love-hate relationship siya in a way, but well... yeah. whatever. adios na lang.
just came from the first night of the cinemalaya runs at UP. saw BABY ANGELO and CONCERTO. hm. will try to watch all na lang muna bago ako mag-cine chichirya. saka gabi na. yoko na magkasala muna. chozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
hihi.
saw some old friends. nice to see them. happy naman. at ang walang kamatayang hirit na "gumawa ka na kasi!" bakit niyo ba ko pine-pressure gumawa ng pelikula? ha? hehehe. chozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
when i'm good and ready, i will, pramis.
but first, nobela muna.
*
hay nakuh. usapang gadget dyke naman. need insights on some things.
ang weird lang ng experience pero lumobo pala yung baterya ng cellphone ko. overcharging daw, sabi nung guy sa nokia megamall. hm. meron palang ganun. nangyari na ba sa inyo yun? strangeness siya!
but heniwey, okay na ulit ang phone. baterya lang pala. pero ang strange pa rin! ewan. ang taba niya kasi! parang na-overfeed. this is so sci-fi to me, sobra. basta.
browsing at the nokia store, i saw a new model na parang synthetic leather ang finish. kewl siyaaaaa! arte ang name. as in literal, "arte." at tumataginting na 50k siya. pesoses. shiyet. ganun kasi ang gusto kong models e, yung iba ang design, not all metallic and not rubbery ek. basta. kaya bet na bet ko yung textile finish phone ko e. sana gumawa sila ng cheaper version nung arte. panalo siya.
tangina 50k? labo. bili na lang ako kotse, second hand, pang-down na yun noh. shet.
*
nasa ospital na naman ang laptop ko at this time, i hope it'll be cured for good. although i'm still reearching about the UMPCs. may term na palang ganun, short for ultra mobile PCs, smaller than laptops but not exactly the tablet pc models. although happy rin yung pero uber-mahal. i need one na pang-labas-labas at travel kasi mahirap yung standard laptop na ilabas e.
any suggestions?
or shall i go the blackberry(sp?) way? di ko alam kung bakit sa ka-gadget dyke-an ko e di ko matipuhan ang palm pilot chever. parang yung ipod, di ko bet. well, design-wise siguro kasi. pero what's the chever kung mag-palm ako? sige nga, convince me.
*
a friend texted and said today is the last day/night of 70s bistro. grabe marns, gulat ako dito. i will miss their lengua ang carabao tapa. :(
somehow, miss ko rin living in that area. the house i rented last, i was a few feet away from bistro. kung gusto kong pakinggan kung ano'ng type ng music ang tumutugtog, bubuksan ko lang ang bintana sa second floor and listen. saya.
well, the end of another era... saan kaya sila lilipat? hm...
that place really played a significant part at certain stages of my life. strange...
love-hate relationship siya in a way, but well... yeah. whatever. adios na lang.
27 July 2008
farewell to my concubine...
...of ten years. or so.
the desktop.
yeah, i'm junking it. i need the space and a friend offered to buy, so i sold. of course reduced to more than half the price. but life has to go on.
as a writer, it is important for me to have a companion for moments when i need to record thoughts on tangible things. the trusty paper notebooks are still there, but there's nothing like the immediacy of this technology run by zeros and ones. different. digital.
ever since i lived on my own more than ten years ago, the project was to have this digital companion. my first fully-owned desktop computer. we had one at home but there was no way i was taking that with me, so i asked my cousin to create one for me. and he did.
that first model served its purpose. it became my music player and my connection to the world wide web. it produced drafts of manuscripts i published and other stuff that mattered. it was 1998. i was happy. life was simpler then. i was single, and had decadent friends, and trusty partners in crime. life was sweet.
and then came this old guy, my father's high school classmate or something, who also assembled better units. since my father was starting to get engrossed in the technology himself, he asked his friend to assemble a newer one, with a faster cpu and all stuff technically more modern. he then gave that model to me, and got my old one so the guy could chop it up (down?) or something. i was happier. there was a new OS happening that time, a higher pentium number, and more shebangs to play music and video. cool. that was 2001. i was happier. life was starting to get a bit complicated, due to a new presence in my life. again, i had a partner, and it was another chapter of my life being written. life was kind.
along came 2003. i suffered my very first computer crash. i was on my way to a new (revisited) gig when it happened. when i got home, it totally died on me. i wasn't able to save most of what i had from that first model in '98. i felt like i was robbed of property -- intellectual property.
eight month's worth of digital journals were gone, unrecovered. it was like i never existed for eight months, with my words just gone to digital limbo just like that. that was 2003, the time i was reassessing a lot of things in my life. i wanted out of a relationship, and was trying to find my self that got lost in limbo for the past years. things were not that happy. life was tricky.
but we manage, as always. the old unit gets rehashed, given a newer OS, and a newer lease of life. it served its purpose. it was great. still is. that was 2004, and now, 2008, i bid it farewell.
i know it'll be in good hands. stripped it off of things not going to be needed. retained things that will be needed, and enjoyed. a bonus for a friend.
this day and age of the ultra mobile lifestyle, i've decided to rework how i work things around here, to have better efficiency, to get best results, to have a happier time. this shift will serve that purpose. i know it will. still zeros and ones, but not alone, and definitely not lonely. excited is more like it.
we all have to move on, sooner or later.
and this is me, moving on, sooner than later. now.
farewell to a piece of me that never was.
the desktop.
yeah, i'm junking it. i need the space and a friend offered to buy, so i sold. of course reduced to more than half the price. but life has to go on.
as a writer, it is important for me to have a companion for moments when i need to record thoughts on tangible things. the trusty paper notebooks are still there, but there's nothing like the immediacy of this technology run by zeros and ones. different. digital.
ever since i lived on my own more than ten years ago, the project was to have this digital companion. my first fully-owned desktop computer. we had one at home but there was no way i was taking that with me, so i asked my cousin to create one for me. and he did.
that first model served its purpose. it became my music player and my connection to the world wide web. it produced drafts of manuscripts i published and other stuff that mattered. it was 1998. i was happy. life was simpler then. i was single, and had decadent friends, and trusty partners in crime. life was sweet.
and then came this old guy, my father's high school classmate or something, who also assembled better units. since my father was starting to get engrossed in the technology himself, he asked his friend to assemble a newer one, with a faster cpu and all stuff technically more modern. he then gave that model to me, and got my old one so the guy could chop it up (down?) or something. i was happier. there was a new OS happening that time, a higher pentium number, and more shebangs to play music and video. cool. that was 2001. i was happier. life was starting to get a bit complicated, due to a new presence in my life. again, i had a partner, and it was another chapter of my life being written. life was kind.
along came 2003. i suffered my very first computer crash. i was on my way to a new (revisited) gig when it happened. when i got home, it totally died on me. i wasn't able to save most of what i had from that first model in '98. i felt like i was robbed of property -- intellectual property.
eight month's worth of digital journals were gone, unrecovered. it was like i never existed for eight months, with my words just gone to digital limbo just like that. that was 2003, the time i was reassessing a lot of things in my life. i wanted out of a relationship, and was trying to find my self that got lost in limbo for the past years. things were not that happy. life was tricky.
but we manage, as always. the old unit gets rehashed, given a newer OS, and a newer lease of life. it served its purpose. it was great. still is. that was 2004, and now, 2008, i bid it farewell.
i know it'll be in good hands. stripped it off of things not going to be needed. retained things that will be needed, and enjoyed. a bonus for a friend.
this day and age of the ultra mobile lifestyle, i've decided to rework how i work things around here, to have better efficiency, to get best results, to have a happier time. this shift will serve that purpose. i know it will. still zeros and ones, but not alone, and definitely not lonely. excited is more like it.
we all have to move on, sooner or later.
and this is me, moving on, sooner than later. now.
farewell to a piece of me that never was.
my cellphone's currently indisposed...
...but you could contact me via landline anytime. or here online.
will soon have this up and working again. thanks.
26 July 2008
meet my new girlfriend...
i wish! hehe.
si sugar. from the uk tv series SUGAR RUSH.
currently into season two, and it's really kewl. hehehe. review to follow, soon.
all i can say is, damn uk dykes are hot, ha! super! although jailbait nga lang hehehee. oh well... i particularly like this girl, who plays sugar. hay...
fine! archetype notwithstanding. bakit ba. hehe. chos.
la lang. had an interesting day/night. thanks to friends for the perspectives. appreciate it.
nyt.
si sugar. from the uk tv series SUGAR RUSH.currently into season two, and it's really kewl. hehehe. review to follow, soon.all i can say is, damn uk dykes are hot, ha! super! although jailbait nga lang hehehee. oh well... i particularly like this girl, who plays sugar. hay...
fine! archetype notwithstanding. bakit ba. hehe. chos.
la lang. had an interesting day/night. thanks to friends for the perspectives. appreciate it.
nyt.
25 July 2008
Scribe Vibe: Avoiding prejudice via language
i'd like to share with you today's column at Manila Times.
for the benefit of those who were supposed to sit in sa class ko when i taught the "non-discriminatory gender-fair language" lesson in scriptwriting weeks ago.
and for the benefit of those who want to understand where i'm coming from. because if you don't, then maybe it is time to rethink some things... the sentiment here is somewhat similar to my blog post entitled "of ghosts and upgrades" posted right before this one. wala lang...
original column is here. but i'm posting the longer unedited version here.
The Scribe Vibe
for the benefit of those who were supposed to sit in sa class ko when i taught the "non-discriminatory gender-fair language" lesson in scriptwriting weeks ago.
and for the benefit of those who want to understand where i'm coming from. because if you don't, then maybe it is time to rethink some things... the sentiment here is somewhat similar to my blog post entitled "of ghosts and upgrades" posted right before this one. wala lang...
original column is here. but i'm posting the longer unedited version here.
The Scribe Vibe
By Libay Linsangan Cantor
Avoiding prejudice via language
Part of my writing classes always entails teaching how to distinguish prejudice coming from writers and from the characters of the story. It should be clear to authors where the bias is coming from—which should be from the characters, not from themselves.
But to quote Shakespeare, aye, there’s the rub.
It’s hard to remove prejudice in the Filipino language. We have different types of prejudice masked as age-old terms handed down in our society from generation to generation. However, that shouldn’t prevent us from correcting the negativity encoded in our words and phrases.
For instance, our racism is enveloped in terms we use to call other races. I bet you know the colloquial terms most Filipinos use to refer to people from India, African Americans, and the Chinese. No matter how colloquial terms like bumbay and egoy are, they are racist, and we should refrain from using them. Yes, even if our parents and grandparents still use them, it doesn’t excuse us from correcting such stereotypical notions.
Similarly, terms that sound sexist may not sound as such at first, but a closer look reveals a derogatory connotation. Even seemingly harmless situations and self-identifications, such as being feminist (man-hater) or seeing a female motorist (her gender automatically tags her as a bad driver) could appear as sexist, and rude. Even our local cussword spat out by practically everybody here and there has a sexist connotation. Why do we swear by taking our enemy’s mother in vain, not their father? Just a thought.
People tend not to take these criticisms seriously. They might even dismiss it as something that’s a part of society already, that the terms are here to stay, so why change them? I highly disagree.
The reason why we go to school is to educate ourselves about things we don’t know and to get re-educated about the things we already thought we know. If there was no move centuries ago to change age-old ways of thinking and seeing things, we may still believe that the sun revolves around the earth, and that our planet is flat.
I’m not saying that teachers have a higher moral ascendancy when it comes to teaching children. Parents should also be more flexible when it comes to education. They should also be aware if, again, they are handing over prejudice and negativity down to their children via the language we use. It shouldn’t be a battle of parents/home vs. teachers/school. Parents and teachers are always on the same side when it comes to educating children, especially about language and tradition, but parents sometimes need to re-evaluate how they teach certain things to their children, and learn to get on with the changing times.
It’s not about being politically correct in word usage; it’s about being respectful and understanding—not just merely being tolerant—of other people’s differences, especially people different from the norm or who deviate from the status quo. //
Comments? Suggestions? Email libay.scribevibe@gmail.com.
so tell me what you think. oo e, apec ako ng todo kasi... hirap, no?
21 July 2008
gabi ng mga walang kupas
cine chichirya muna tayo.
MAMMA MIA!
c. meryl streep
s. from the stage musical based on ABBA's songs
who doesn't love abba? buang kayo if you don't. they're just one of the greatest pop acts to appear on this planet, so there better be some abba-worship of sorts in your life.
was in the middle of my working out mode at the gym when my mum texted if i wanna go with her and pop to watch mamma mia at the nearby mall. of course i said yes, and now you know where my priorities lie. pag sinabing sine, sine! dedma sa pagpapapayat at healthy lifestyle! bakit bah.
dapat lang sigurong family affair ang panonood ng pelikulang ito. my family loves music and each of my parents have their own set of favorites which i all got to hear--sometimes against my wishes--at home when i was growing up. abba was of course part of that collection, mostly my mum's, pero my pop, because he is a musikero (meron siyang "combo" dati dude! combo! hanep sa term!) appreciates the geniuses behind abba's timeless and iconic music. of course, namana ko ito, although a bit later. kasi i still have that teenager napahiya-sa-kamag-anak memory of me with my post-college age titas jumping and screaming at heartbeat mega disco in the late 80s when they heard "dancing queen" play, at iniwan kaming mga teens na china-chaperone nila para magsayaw ng kantang blast from their past sa dance floor. hm. but when i hit college, abba hit me, too, so okay na ko by then.
but abba is more than a blast from the past, kasi nga timeless siya, so kahit sa future, may importance siya. at nakakatuwang nakita ito ng tatlong babaeng lumikha ng original MAMMA MIA! THE MUSICAL sa uk in the late 90s. i have the original cast recording na at naghihintay lang na dalhin ito sa pinas, pero no such luck. i was actually planning to buy tickets for this and treat my parents to it, because i know they'll love it, especially my mum.
so of course, we all love the film. grabeh! dapat ang subtitle nito ay MAMMA MIA: MERYL STREEP WALANG KUPAS. grabeh lang ang lola mo dito! naakatuwa siya. dancing and prancing and hitting the notes right, plus plus plus giving a dose of that meryl academy award-winning acting, emoting and such! panalo lang yung eksena ng "the winner takes it all" while she was using the song to emotionally confront and withdraw from the ghost of her past romance with pierce brosnan's character. ang hirap nun a! i remember an exercise in acting class where we were made to emote or something pero using words that didn't make any sense, basta dapat ang emotion ang mas importanteng lumabas. parang ganun yung eksenang ito. emote galore sila sa side ng isang greek isle habang hine-helicopter shot ang song number. AWARD!!!! walang kupas si meryl. syempre nakatulong dito ang music ng abba. unang linya pa lang niya ng "i don't wanna talk..." potah parang pinana ang puso ko at KAPOW! sapok sa tama ang song sa emotion ng scene at sa meaning and all that. potah. only women who have love and lost and know the importance of both could think of trawling through tons of abba's songs and use that to tell a narrative that is also as timeless and as universal as the songs themselves. winner!!!
panalo rin ang pacing ng pelikula. minsan kasi, depende sa materyal, kung may sarili na itong buhay o wala, sometimes it takes a stupid ingot to mess it up on film. such was the case of RENT when handled by chris columbus. hay, but that's another review. oo magtutuos tayo chris columbus, humanda ka!
ito kasing mamma mia, klaro na musical siya. musical na klarong may montage of shots, may artistic lighting effect (another subtitle could be MAMMA MIA: THE VERY BACKLIT MOVIE kasi halos lahat ng eksena may backlight lalo na sa hair), may cool choreography at may emotions na dine-deliver ang mga eksena sa tulong ng kanta. YAN ANG MUSICAL, CHRIS COLUMBUS! hmp.
i liked it that the "dancing queen" portion became a sort of feminist woman-power song number, when donna and the dynamos walked along the villa and every woman trapped in their daily domestic roles suddenly got empowered to join the trail until they all made a parade of sorts and ended up near the shores, tapos talon sa tubig ang tatlong bida at some of the women, too. para bang at the end, the women had some self-cleansing done and all. i liked that symbolism. panalo sha.
iba talaga pag mga babaeng nakakaintindi ng mga babae ang kumakana ng ganitong kuwento, no? hindi exploitative, unapologetic (we see the characters as really human) and real. it also helps na they understand the potential of the visual language that cinema could offer, freeing them of the restrictions of the four walls of the stage. in fact, i couldn't even imagine this being staged! curious.
gusto ko rin yung character twist nung character ni colin firth hehe. happy. wala lang, nakahanap lang ako ng kakampi hehe.
my only beef with this movie is pierce brosnan. as dapper as he is, man, he should leave the singing and, uh, movement, to others. or gumawa siya ng support group ng "hollywood hunks who shouldn't touch the musical genre," with richard gere as their president. hindi keri, mga kuya, pramis.
nakakatawa lang when julie walters began singing "take a chance" hehehe. not only once did i use this song to woo some women. may hit, may miss, at may nag-regret na di niya pinatos hahaha. chozzzzzzzzzzzz.
see, abba not only is timeless but really useful din sa daily life. try it! di ba nga, sabi nila...
now you know what will be on heavy rotation in my mp3 player this week.
MAMMA MIA! c. meryl streep
s. from the stage musical based on ABBA's songs
who doesn't love abba? buang kayo if you don't. they're just one of the greatest pop acts to appear on this planet, so there better be some abba-worship of sorts in your life.
was in the middle of my working out mode at the gym when my mum texted if i wanna go with her and pop to watch mamma mia at the nearby mall. of course i said yes, and now you know where my priorities lie. pag sinabing sine, sine! dedma sa pagpapapayat at healthy lifestyle! bakit bah.
dapat lang sigurong family affair ang panonood ng pelikulang ito. my family loves music and each of my parents have their own set of favorites which i all got to hear--sometimes against my wishes--at home when i was growing up. abba was of course part of that collection, mostly my mum's, pero my pop, because he is a musikero (meron siyang "combo" dati dude! combo! hanep sa term!) appreciates the geniuses behind abba's timeless and iconic music. of course, namana ko ito, although a bit later. kasi i still have that teenager napahiya-sa-kamag-anak memory of me with my post-college age titas jumping and screaming at heartbeat mega disco in the late 80s when they heard "dancing queen" play, at iniwan kaming mga teens na china-chaperone nila para magsayaw ng kantang blast from their past sa dance floor. hm. but when i hit college, abba hit me, too, so okay na ko by then.
but abba is more than a blast from the past, kasi nga timeless siya, so kahit sa future, may importance siya. at nakakatuwang nakita ito ng tatlong babaeng lumikha ng original MAMMA MIA! THE MUSICAL sa uk in the late 90s. i have the original cast recording na at naghihintay lang na dalhin ito sa pinas, pero no such luck. i was actually planning to buy tickets for this and treat my parents to it, because i know they'll love it, especially my mum.
so of course, we all love the film. grabeh! dapat ang subtitle nito ay MAMMA MIA: MERYL STREEP WALANG KUPAS. grabeh lang ang lola mo dito! naakatuwa siya. dancing and prancing and hitting the notes right, plus plus plus giving a dose of that meryl academy award-winning acting, emoting and such! panalo lang yung eksena ng "the winner takes it all" while she was using the song to emotionally confront and withdraw from the ghost of her past romance with pierce brosnan's character. ang hirap nun a! i remember an exercise in acting class where we were made to emote or something pero using words that didn't make any sense, basta dapat ang emotion ang mas importanteng lumabas. parang ganun yung eksenang ito. emote galore sila sa side ng isang greek isle habang hine-helicopter shot ang song number. AWARD!!!! walang kupas si meryl. syempre nakatulong dito ang music ng abba. unang linya pa lang niya ng "i don't wanna talk..." potah parang pinana ang puso ko at KAPOW! sapok sa tama ang song sa emotion ng scene at sa meaning and all that. potah. only women who have love and lost and know the importance of both could think of trawling through tons of abba's songs and use that to tell a narrative that is also as timeless and as universal as the songs themselves. winner!!!
panalo rin ang pacing ng pelikula. minsan kasi, depende sa materyal, kung may sarili na itong buhay o wala, sometimes it takes a stupid ingot to mess it up on film. such was the case of RENT when handled by chris columbus. hay, but that's another review. oo magtutuos tayo chris columbus, humanda ka!
ito kasing mamma mia, klaro na musical siya. musical na klarong may montage of shots, may artistic lighting effect (another subtitle could be MAMMA MIA: THE VERY BACKLIT MOVIE kasi halos lahat ng eksena may backlight lalo na sa hair), may cool choreography at may emotions na dine-deliver ang mga eksena sa tulong ng kanta. YAN ANG MUSICAL, CHRIS COLUMBUS! hmp.
i liked it that the "dancing queen" portion became a sort of feminist woman-power song number, when donna and the dynamos walked along the villa and every woman trapped in their daily domestic roles suddenly got empowered to join the trail until they all made a parade of sorts and ended up near the shores, tapos talon sa tubig ang tatlong bida at some of the women, too. para bang at the end, the women had some self-cleansing done and all. i liked that symbolism. panalo sha.
iba talaga pag mga babaeng nakakaintindi ng mga babae ang kumakana ng ganitong kuwento, no? hindi exploitative, unapologetic (we see the characters as really human) and real. it also helps na they understand the potential of the visual language that cinema could offer, freeing them of the restrictions of the four walls of the stage. in fact, i couldn't even imagine this being staged! curious.
gusto ko rin yung character twist nung character ni colin firth hehe. happy. wala lang, nakahanap lang ako ng kakampi hehe.
my only beef with this movie is pierce brosnan. as dapper as he is, man, he should leave the singing and, uh, movement, to others. or gumawa siya ng support group ng "hollywood hunks who shouldn't touch the musical genre," with richard gere as their president. hindi keri, mga kuya, pramis.
nakakatawa lang when julie walters began singing "take a chance" hehehe. not only once did i use this song to woo some women. may hit, may miss, at may nag-regret na di niya pinatos hahaha. chozzzzzzzzzzzz.
see, abba not only is timeless but really useful din sa daily life. try it! di ba nga, sabi nila...
...without the song and dance,
what are we?
so i say thank you for the music
for giving it to me...
now you know what will be on heavy rotation in my mp3 player this week.
20 July 2008
of ghosts and self-upgrades
actually, it's the other way around...
strange reading for the day.
it's not so much about acknowledging that i am a caring person. it's more of acknowledging that i am being cared for. that's a big difference.
which brings me to the issue of ghosts. i know we all should learn from our own histories but it's a different thing if we struggle with the ghosts of our pasts in the present. we should all have a "lessons learned" checklist where we could compare past deeds to present ones. but of course we shouldn't make the comparison directly obvious and tactless. for instance, if you tell your present mate that you hate her for being late in an appointment, that's okay. but if you tell her that you hate her because she was late and that reminded you of the many times your ex has been late in appointments that you ended up covering up for her, that's another thing, isn't it?
you don't say that. no.
or perhaps one cared so much for an ex that in their next relationship, they pull back the caring in order not to get that hurt again. however, it's just sad to note that sometimes, the pulling back is done in an OA-level that most of the time, there seems to be not much left of the care for the present relationship. even just the basics. you know, basic communication, basic understanding, basic patience, basic adjustment, basic compromise, basic caring, basic attraction -- all part of the Introduction to Romantic Relationships Server Pack 1 module. later on, as you progress, you upgrade. that's how it is, and how it should be.
but what happens if your basic software doesn't get upgraded? rather, it gets infected by viruses, especially trojans such as ghosts? what happens to your operating system, then?
this gets me thinking lately. just how long should a person wrestle with the ghost of past relationships? is there a definitive guideline for this? if i apply this to myself, i could safely say that each relationship's ghost gets in the way of my life for about a year or so, or less, but not more than that. in short, my ex of 10 years ago and my ex of 5 years ago and my ex of 2 years ago are now just memories in my memory bank, but i don't let those memories interfere with my current life. but i guess for some people, it works differently, especially with those who have had really long-term relationships in the past.
which gets me thinking: just how long should the "mourning and getting on with my life" phase be in one's life? how long should you mourn, get up and move on before hooking up with another person? how ready is ready?
i'm not sure. maybe you might have answers, theories, or whatnots. i'm not too familiar with the Rebound Relationship version 1.0 software module.
as for me, i don't think i want to wrestle with ghosts, whether mine or other's. ano'ng laban mo sa isang untouchable thought, sa isang presence that, even though it's unseen, is obviously felt? labo, right?
ewan. magta-tumblebugs 2 na lang ako.
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
Sunday, Jul 20th, 2008 -- Others will look to you for guidance today and you want to be there to help as much as you can. The Moon in your 10th House of Status indicates your current need to be acknowledged as a caring person. Wanting to nurture those close to you is admirable yet your motives can cloud the good work you do now. Don't seek anything in return. Your good deeds will have more value if they stand on their own.
strange reading for the day.
it's not so much about acknowledging that i am a caring person. it's more of acknowledging that i am being cared for. that's a big difference.
which brings me to the issue of ghosts. i know we all should learn from our own histories but it's a different thing if we struggle with the ghosts of our pasts in the present. we should all have a "lessons learned" checklist where we could compare past deeds to present ones. but of course we shouldn't make the comparison directly obvious and tactless. for instance, if you tell your present mate that you hate her for being late in an appointment, that's okay. but if you tell her that you hate her because she was late and that reminded you of the many times your ex has been late in appointments that you ended up covering up for her, that's another thing, isn't it?
you don't say that. no.
or perhaps one cared so much for an ex that in their next relationship, they pull back the caring in order not to get that hurt again. however, it's just sad to note that sometimes, the pulling back is done in an OA-level that most of the time, there seems to be not much left of the care for the present relationship. even just the basics. you know, basic communication, basic understanding, basic patience, basic adjustment, basic compromise, basic caring, basic attraction -- all part of the Introduction to Romantic Relationships Server Pack 1 module. later on, as you progress, you upgrade. that's how it is, and how it should be.
but what happens if your basic software doesn't get upgraded? rather, it gets infected by viruses, especially trojans such as ghosts? what happens to your operating system, then?
this gets me thinking lately. just how long should a person wrestle with the ghost of past relationships? is there a definitive guideline for this? if i apply this to myself, i could safely say that each relationship's ghost gets in the way of my life for about a year or so, or less, but not more than that. in short, my ex of 10 years ago and my ex of 5 years ago and my ex of 2 years ago are now just memories in my memory bank, but i don't let those memories interfere with my current life. but i guess for some people, it works differently, especially with those who have had really long-term relationships in the past.
which gets me thinking: just how long should the "mourning and getting on with my life" phase be in one's life? how long should you mourn, get up and move on before hooking up with another person? how ready is ready?
i'm not sure. maybe you might have answers, theories, or whatnots. i'm not too familiar with the Rebound Relationship version 1.0 software module.
as for me, i don't think i want to wrestle with ghosts, whether mine or other's. ano'ng laban mo sa isang untouchable thought, sa isang presence that, even though it's unseen, is obviously felt? labo, right?
ewan. magta-tumblebugs 2 na lang ako.
18 July 2008
full moon kasi e
kaya pala...
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
Friday, Jul 18th, 2008 -- The Full Moon in your 9th House of Big Ideas encourages you to reexamine your opinions before letting someone know how you feel. You're a bit more cautious than usual because you want to make sure that you say the right thing when you finally reveal what's on your mind. Don't hesitate too long, though, or you'll miss your chance.
16 July 2008
kelangan ko lang 'to ilabas
puwede na ba ko matulog ng mahimbing at mahaba-haba? hay, puwede na ulit...
kakatapos lang kaninang tanghali ng cinemalaya film congress kung saan kami nauto este nautusan este naimbitahang maging rapporteur this year. since yesterday kami andun. i orchestrated it na upfi junior faculty na ang bahala dito, meaning me, avie, cenon and patrick who has already done this last year. after all, upfi is one of the key institutions that make cinemalaya happen every year. why not magbibo kami this year. hm. experiencing cinemalaya naman this year from this side, the other side. the first one kasi, wala, biktima kami ng...hahaha inuman na lang tayo, kuwento ko senyo.
akala mo kung ano'ng sosyal na term, "rapporteur" na napaka-united nations lang ng dating, hane? sosyal na term lang siya for "aliping tagasulat ng minutes ng 2-hour panel" hehehe. i would like to thank isis international manila for forcing us to learn how to take down minutes of not so minute meetings at nadagdagan ako ng extra clerical expertise na puede palang maging tiket sa ibang larangan ng kasikatan mwehehehehe. chos. sorry sensya na puyat e...
natawa lang ako dahil ang dakilang ko-propesor roland tolentino e pinagmasdan pala ang aking typing skills. ang bilis ko daw mag-type pala! sabi ko, "e magic fingerz ito eh..." sabay tawa kami in a secretly queer way hihihihihi. chika! naloka ako sa komentong ito.
saw lots of faces i want to see and some i didn't want to see. remind me again why i need to attend these things? oh yeah, circulate. at least there were friends here i really wanted to see. ayoko lang ng mga blast from the past, lalo na ng heterosexual past. bastah.
also heard lots of things new and not so new in the congress panel discussions. remind me again why i never attended these sessions in the past? ah, it's because i've heard it all before, and some i've heard yung behind the scene stories which are more accurate. some were obviously trying to correct misinfo and some were refuting others din. FRENEMIES! hahahahaha kakaiba. hay. nakakatuwa. nasa showbiz pa rin nga pala ako. i keep forgetting. 15 years, pare, 15 years na ko dito. new clothes, same people. old mafia? hay, ask the filmmakers...
point: indie is the new mainstream. discuss.
anyway, we stuck around until sir nic tiongson's book launch of the nice resource book THE CINEMA OF MANUEL CONDE this afternoon. panalo ang guest list! saw old bosses at premiere productions, miss dee who was mr shooli's classmate nga pala in grade school, and also ms boots na mukha pa ring virgin mary like what we used to call her. ang dami ring old artistas na nalipasan na ng panahon na nahirapan kami ni kuya patrick na i-identify hehehe. shet patay ako kay dakilang sir hammy sotto, wherever he is... mga beterano ng pelikulang pilipino, mga dakila. sayang at di na sila kilala ngayon...
hay. tapos salamat kay ate berinice ng cmc admin, ride kami sa van pabalik peyups like yesterday. despite the espanya maynila baha nung papunta kaninang umaga! ay grabe lang ati.
pictures at the pitik section (at multiply).
tulog na ko. sa wakas! balik na lang kami sa weekend for the marathon movie watching. slumming at ccp to catch the films. quality filipino films. indie man daw at magaling (ang gumawa), filipino pa rin! hehehe. ewan.
kahit anu pa man ang nasabi na sa kanya, namamatay man siya o naghihingalo o pangit o mababa sa kalibre ng banyagang hollywood, mahal ko pa rin ang industriya ng at pelikulang pilipino. sa totoo lang. ngayon, nasaan ang libreng festival pass when you need it? hm.
plug ko lang: nood kayo ng film ng friendsheeps: MY FAKE AMERICAN ACCENT by fafa ned 3fish (trespeces) and onnah valera tungkol sa buhay call center. yey! see you two sa friday! :)
nood din kayo ng first full-length film ng ex-student kong si maikel cardoz, RANCHERO. maganda ang premise, about cooks in prison. watch! will do on the weekend.
relax go see a movie. now nah!
kakatapos lang kaninang tanghali ng cinemalaya film congress kung saan kami nauto este nautusan este naimbitahang maging rapporteur this year. since yesterday kami andun. i orchestrated it na upfi junior faculty na ang bahala dito, meaning me, avie, cenon and patrick who has already done this last year. after all, upfi is one of the key institutions that make cinemalaya happen every year. why not magbibo kami this year. hm. experiencing cinemalaya naman this year from this side, the other side. the first one kasi, wala, biktima kami ng...hahaha inuman na lang tayo, kuwento ko senyo.
akala mo kung ano'ng sosyal na term, "rapporteur" na napaka-united nations lang ng dating, hane? sosyal na term lang siya for "aliping tagasulat ng minutes ng 2-hour panel" hehehe. i would like to thank isis international manila for forcing us to learn how to take down minutes of not so minute meetings at nadagdagan ako ng extra clerical expertise na puede palang maging tiket sa ibang larangan ng kasikatan mwehehehehe. chos. sorry sensya na puyat e...
natawa lang ako dahil ang dakilang ko-propesor roland tolentino e pinagmasdan pala ang aking typing skills. ang bilis ko daw mag-type pala! sabi ko, "e magic fingerz ito eh..." sabay tawa kami in a secretly queer way hihihihihi. chika! naloka ako sa komentong ito.
saw lots of faces i want to see and some i didn't want to see. remind me again why i need to attend these things? oh yeah, circulate. at least there were friends here i really wanted to see. ayoko lang ng mga blast from the past, lalo na ng heterosexual past. bastah.
also heard lots of things new and not so new in the congress panel discussions. remind me again why i never attended these sessions in the past? ah, it's because i've heard it all before, and some i've heard yung behind the scene stories which are more accurate. some were obviously trying to correct misinfo and some were refuting others din. FRENEMIES! hahahahaha kakaiba. hay. nakakatuwa. nasa showbiz pa rin nga pala ako. i keep forgetting. 15 years, pare, 15 years na ko dito. new clothes, same people. old mafia? hay, ask the filmmakers...
point: indie is the new mainstream. discuss.
anyway, we stuck around until sir nic tiongson's book launch of the nice resource book THE CINEMA OF MANUEL CONDE this afternoon. panalo ang guest list! saw old bosses at premiere productions, miss dee who was mr shooli's classmate nga pala in grade school, and also ms boots na mukha pa ring virgin mary like what we used to call her. ang dami ring old artistas na nalipasan na ng panahon na nahirapan kami ni kuya patrick na i-identify hehehe. shet patay ako kay dakilang sir hammy sotto, wherever he is... mga beterano ng pelikulang pilipino, mga dakila. sayang at di na sila kilala ngayon...
hay. tapos salamat kay ate berinice ng cmc admin, ride kami sa van pabalik peyups like yesterday. despite the espanya maynila baha nung papunta kaninang umaga! ay grabe lang ati.
pictures at the pitik section (at multiply).
tulog na ko. sa wakas! balik na lang kami sa weekend for the marathon movie watching. slumming at ccp to catch the films. quality filipino films. indie man daw at magaling (ang gumawa), filipino pa rin! hehehe. ewan.
kahit anu pa man ang nasabi na sa kanya, namamatay man siya o naghihingalo o pangit o mababa sa kalibre ng banyagang hollywood, mahal ko pa rin ang industriya ng at pelikulang pilipino. sa totoo lang. ngayon, nasaan ang libreng festival pass when you need it? hm.
plug ko lang: nood kayo ng film ng friendsheeps: MY FAKE AMERICAN ACCENT by fafa ned 3fish (trespeces) and onnah valera tungkol sa buhay call center. yey! see you two sa friday! :)
nood din kayo ng first full-length film ng ex-student kong si maikel cardoz, RANCHERO. maganda ang premise, about cooks in prison. watch! will do on the weekend.
relax go see a movie. now nah!
15 July 2008
charlie gavin cantor
ang kyut naman. akin na lang. chet, gawa ka na lang ng bago hehehe :) uwi ko na to.i wanna go to canada na and kiss this baby!
13 July 2008
the strangest thing happened last night...
it was past 10pm and i was slicing some carrots in the kitchen area when i heard a faint meow of a lost cat. the meow turned into a desperate one as it was clear that the cat felt it was in a warpzone. see, i live in a building now, a condominium, so sounds like this truly are strange indeed, especially since i live higher than the third floor where one would still assume that street sounds actually came form the streets due to the floor-street proximity. but not this one.
the sound became louder and louder, so i decided to check it out. when i opened the door, a grayish-black adult cat was at my doorstep, and immediately made lambing on my foot. strange. i assumed it was a she. she had a bruise on its batok and it looked thin, like diet-thin. i don't know where it came from, but it can't stay, definitely.
so i grabbed my jacket and tried to befriend it so it will walk with me towards the elevator. several unsuccessful elevator tries later, i gave up and decided to go to the lobby and alert security to take care of it. i think they did. no more meows this morning. just the sound of raindrops landing on everything i could see in my room with a view.
strange.
*
anyway, here is today's reading. the general one is interesting so i decided to post that, too.
Sunday, Jul 13th, 2008 -- Paradoxically, your interactions with others become more complex as you try to be more sensitive to their feelings. Naturally, you could find yourself in a battle of wills when you have your own specific agenda, but at least everyone knows each other's position. It sounds good at first when you state your willingness to be flexible, but now you must jointly decide where to take it next.
the sound became louder and louder, so i decided to check it out. when i opened the door, a grayish-black adult cat was at my doorstep, and immediately made lambing on my foot. strange. i assumed it was a she. she had a bruise on its batok and it looked thin, like diet-thin. i don't know where it came from, but it can't stay, definitely.
so i grabbed my jacket and tried to befriend it so it will walk with me towards the elevator. several unsuccessful elevator tries later, i gave up and decided to go to the lobby and alert security to take care of it. i think they did. no more meows this morning. just the sound of raindrops landing on everything i could see in my room with a view.
strange.
*
anyway, here is today's reading. the general one is interesting so i decided to post that, too.
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
General Daily Horoscope for everyone
Our irrational emotions rule the first part of the day when the Moon is still in reactive Scorpio, but we may not express all that we feel. Even if we do share our inner process, the energy shifts dramatically when the Moon enters fiery Sagittarius at 11:49 am EDT. Withholding our intentions or desires no longer makes sense, for we are more assured now of a positive outcome if only we have the courage to let others know about our hopes and dreams.
Sunday, Jul 13th, 2008 -- Paradoxically, your interactions with others become more complex as you try to be more sensitive to their feelings. Naturally, you could find yourself in a battle of wills when you have your own specific agenda, but at least everyone knows each other's position. It sounds good at first when you state your willingness to be flexible, but now you must jointly decide where to take it next.
12 July 2008
weekend warbler: being sick is hell
decided to hole in sa home ko this weekend, since friday. was meaning to go to a lot of thingies and to run errands but if your sinuses ain't working well, mas maganda ngang ihiga at ipahinga ito, ika nga ng kaibigang bubbles. na-injan ko din ang aming walking for fitness thursdays kaya ayun... asar.
change of weather ito, the suddenness always brings this about, although worried ang jowa because baka sign of more complicated things daw. we'll see. saan ba may reliable na eent? uso pa ba ang eent? parang afraid akong magpatingin sa infirmatay este infirmary...
sorry sa mga napangakuan ko sa weekend na ito regarding cinemalaya. maikel, i'll catch your film sometime next week or in cine adarna na lang. di kaya ng powers ko today na mag-troop sa gala sa ccp. same with papa ned. 3fish, see you and onnah sa peyups na lang ha.
hay. bad trip ito. buti na lang may isang trike away na grocery where i bought food supplies dito. ayan, stocked up on fruits and liquids bilin ni jowa. i hate this being sick thing talaga. hay. at least may internet at panulat na ganito. buhay pa naman ang lola niyo.
sa mga may utang sa akin na chismax dyan, kitakits next week ha hehehe. papakalunod muna ko dito sa cranberry raspberry strawberry tea ng lipton. sarap sha. para kang umiinom ng liquid potpourri. choz.
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this just in! welcome to the latest tot on the block: CHARLIE GAVIN CANTOR ARCIGA! my cousin chester's son who's based in ontario. yebah! sana makadalaw na ako diyan isang araw, hane?
o sya, pag may naisip akong i-post dito, post lang ako ng post. i'm not going anywhere anyway, so...
at panghuli:
ganun? you talking to me? you talking to me? choz.
change of weather ito, the suddenness always brings this about, although worried ang jowa because baka sign of more complicated things daw. we'll see. saan ba may reliable na eent? uso pa ba ang eent? parang afraid akong magpatingin sa infirmatay este infirmary...
sorry sa mga napangakuan ko sa weekend na ito regarding cinemalaya. maikel, i'll catch your film sometime next week or in cine adarna na lang. di kaya ng powers ko today na mag-troop sa gala sa ccp. same with papa ned. 3fish, see you and onnah sa peyups na lang ha.
hay. bad trip ito. buti na lang may isang trike away na grocery where i bought food supplies dito. ayan, stocked up on fruits and liquids bilin ni jowa. i hate this being sick thing talaga. hay. at least may internet at panulat na ganito. buhay pa naman ang lola niyo.
sa mga may utang sa akin na chismax dyan, kitakits next week ha hehehe. papakalunod muna ko dito sa cranberry raspberry strawberry tea ng lipton. sarap sha. para kang umiinom ng liquid potpourri. choz.
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this just in! welcome to the latest tot on the block: CHARLIE GAVIN CANTOR ARCIGA! my cousin chester's son who's based in ontario. yebah! sana makadalaw na ako diyan isang araw, hane?
o sya, pag may naisip akong i-post dito, post lang ako ng post. i'm not going anywhere anyway, so...
at panghuli:
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
Saturday, Jul 12th, 2008 -- Your ruling planet Venus enters your 4th House of Foundations, turning the days ahead into a time when you seek security through love. Nevertheless, you can be quite insistent about what you want now and problems can arise if you are overly inflexible. Be open to meeting others halfway or you might miss the love that's already in your life.
ganun? you talking to me? you talking to me? choz.
10 July 2008
hmp kaya naman pala...
well, aside from the fact that this week ay chumorva to the highest level ang sinusitis ko...
mabuhay si saturn! :) so hindi lang ako tamad-tamaran! hehehe. choz.
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
Thursday, Jul 10th, 2008 -- If you feel like your creative expression is blocked today, don't try so hard to push against it because restrictive Saturn is slowing you down for a reason. Take a deep breath and see if you can find a place within where you aren't judging yourself based upon your production. Your work will become easier when you realize that there's no need to try to impress anyone.
mabuhay si saturn! :) so hindi lang ako tamad-tamaran! hehehe. choz.
09 July 2008
you're telling me!!!!!
Taurus Horoscopes
(Apr 20 - May 20)
Wednesday, Jul 9th, 2008 -- If you disagree with someone with whom you must work on an ongoing basis, seeking common ground has more advantages for you than you might realize. Forget about trying to get what you want. There may be no room for selfishness with the Moon in cooperative Libra today. Currently what's most important is getting over your resistance to the inevitable.
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