textsomniac

at dahil di na naman ako makatulog ngayong madaling araw, no thanks to the absence of something, e pinatulan ko na lang yung 100qs post ni eva sa friendster hehe. handameh nito hah. kung di pa ko makatulog neto...

1. How old will you be in five years?

let's see...38 pala! shucks. after i hit 30, i always forget my real age na. denial! 

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?

myself? er, my pussies. hehe. mga pets ko, si emem at si magic. 

3. How tall are you?

5feet3and a half inches 

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?

a trip to rajasthan, india! sana!!!!!!!!! syet, i really wanna goooooooooooooooooooo 

5. What's the last movie you saw?

on tv: that richard grieco teen espionage 'mistaken identity' film na nalimutan ko title. do you guys even know him??? siya yung pumalit kay johnny depp sa 21 JUMPSTREET.

on the big screen: KASAL KASALI KASALO na super-weird ang credit na "written by jose javier reyes based on the script by mary ann bautista." hm, parang naaalala ko itong title na ito. parang kasabay ko ata itong nanalo sa fdfpi scriptcon dati. i can't forget it because it's somewhat a play on the k letter din much like my script "kalas kalas, kabit kabit." i know mary ann to be a very good writer so i doubt her original story's as nipis (think pantyliner think) as direk joey's "version".

6. Who was the last person you called? 

hm, tumawag sa akin nanay ko. does that count? 

7. Who was the last person to call you?

see above 

8. What was the last text message you received?

from a friend saying dadaan na siya dito sa haus to pick up something 

9. Who was the last person to leave you?

ano'ng klaseng context ng leave? pakilinaw. 

10. Do you prefer to call or text?

call. i don't have the patience to text sometimes

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?

reading this new literotika title and i swear, walang editor na gumalaw nitoh!

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?

yeah they're still together, trying to live up to the "for better or for worse" part of the bargain

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?

nitong pasko lang. i went home and had lunch with the folks then we watched that movie nga 

14. What color are your eyes?

i think they're dark brown, like my hair 

15. What time did you wake up today?

erratic. nung una, 4am tapos 6am tapos 8 am. yes tatlong beses akong nagising ngayon. 

16. What are you wearing right now?

sando and undie 

17. What is your favorite Christmas song?

noelle est merde pour moi, excusez moi. 

18. Where is your favorite place to be?

away from people i know, with fresh air and a cool drink and not polluted. kung saan man my ganito, bet ko yun, ever 

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?

basta may maingay at siksikan at polluted 

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere right now?

paris to hang out in a cafe and chika with my friend pascale whom i've never seen for years then lipad din to new york to hang out in a cafe and chika with my friend kia whom i've never seen for years na rin then lipad to san francisco bay area to make yakag my sister na ipasyal ako sa SF at diskubrehin yung castro area, then stopover to bangkok to but notebooks, incense and colgate herbal at chatuchak market. hm, australia lang yata ang di ko type na continent puntahan.

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?

somewhere on earth pa rin, if they haven't made travelling to the moon or mars available to the masa public yet 

22. Do you tan or burn?

e gusto ko both, pero elusive sa akin ito e. 

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?

my subconscious! somnambulist kasi ako when i was young (sleepwalker) kaya takot ko lang saan ako dalhin ng sarili ko pag tulog 

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?

geez, i can't recall 

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?

one. trying to be minimalist na now e 

26. How big is your bed?

good for 2 

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?

pareho.salamat sa mabait kong ninang cecil sa pagbigay sa akin ng laptop wahooooooooooo! 

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

the birthday suit always suits me 

29. What color are your sheets?

wala pa e 

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

kung ilan ang kasya. the more the manyer, sabi nga hehe 

31. What is your favorite season?

i'd like to see a real autumn in a four-season country, just for the chill and the multiple color of leaves falling 

32. What do you like about fall?

see above 

33. What do you like about winter?

the fact that we don't have it here 

34. What do you like about the summer?

that it gives you an excuse to hit the beach 

35. What do you like about spring?

i hate it. pollen season. allergic to pollen 

36. How many states have you lived in?

ngek. state of mind? 

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?

quezon city and marikina city 

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?

depende sa sitwasyon. 

39. Are you a social person?

when i was in my twenties 

40. What was the last thing you ate?

onion garlic peanuts. man i miss pistachio 

41. What is your favorite restaurant?

ngayon, ala e. i go for the food, not the place 

42. What is your favorite ice cream?

mocha flavored 

43. What is your favorite dessert?

turtle pie

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?

pumpkin soup 

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?

napaka-kano naman nito. alam mo yuck kaya yung peanut butter at jelly combi. try cream cheese and cheezewiz, da best 

46. Do you like Chinese food?

not since i got a migraine from the freaking msg so no mo' chinese for me! 

47. Do you like coffee?

super. brewed 

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?

marami 

49. What do you drink in the morning?

kape 

50. Are you single?

yes. i think so. hm lemme check.

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?

the side where i can sleep well  

52. Do you know how to play poker?

no. kahit tong-its nga sinukuan ko e. not for me. 

53. Do you like to cuddle? 

only if the co-cuddler likes it but generally yeah i am a cuddle girl

54. Have you ever been to Canada?

malapit na

55. Do you have an addictive personality?

ano ibig sabihin, naadik sa mga bagaybagay? a oo. e mga tao naadik sa akin? hm depende sa tao siguro. minsan kasi nagugulat lang ako na may nakaka-miss sa akin e di naman kami close or what. pero touched pa rin ako.

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?

both 

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?

yea yung officemate ko sa premiere productions before na si olay, older. tapos yung writing workshop buddy ko na si marnie, younger. saka yung taga-probe na kasama ko dati sa mekong workshop, si abbie (hm, younger ba sya o older? cant remember). saka si barbra streisand 

59. Do you want kids?

no. i dont want my vagina to expand that big thank you 

60. Do you speak any other languages?

french. un peu. j'espere hehe. i forgot my spanish na e, moreso my italian. haydon't evern mention german.

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?

no 

62. Have you ever ridden in an  ambulance?

no 

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? 

depende. parheo okay lang basta tubig

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?

depende sa katabi ko. pero mostly window. 

65. Do you know how to drive stick?

yes

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?

nice things and good food 

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?

wala. shunned earrings na and rings. bracelets chuva na lang 

68. What is your favorite TV show?

csi, the l word 

69. Can you roll your tongue?

in what direction? hehe try me.

70. Who is the funniest person you know?

ngayon, wla e

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? 

no, just real live ones 

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?

voltes v opening theme song

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?

i wish! uso na ulit sila e hehe. and i wanna be reunited with my original red-green-yellow robin costume, with a cape!

74. What red object is closest to you right now?

my eyes? 

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?

oo naman

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

closed. e di naalikabukan gabit ko, tanga mo 

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?

tangna bear na lang at least puwede pa ko tumakbo no 

78. Do you flirt a lot ?

no. they flirt wit me first eh hehe then i reciprocate if i like it lang hehehe 

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

ketchup? kung walang sauce niya 

80. What is your favorite food?

naku ati, gourmand ako kaya too many to mention, from different world/local cuisines  

81. Can you change the oil on a car? 

no 

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?

no 

83. Have you ever run out of gas? 

no. hindi ako ganun kaengot 

84. When is your usual bedtime?

depende. mas maaga akong nakakatulog pag may katabi ko 

85. What was the last book you read?

the autobiography of red by anne carson 

86. Do you read the newspaper?

only the online version 

87. Do you have any magazine  subscriptions?

imrpactical, wla 

89. Do you watch soap operas?

yeah, bits and snippets, depende sa motivation. like kanina i stuck to CAPTAIN BARBELL kasi super montage flashback mode sila ng mga beginnings ni teng sa earth (read: trabahong tamad) and just discovered that that richard dude can't act to save his life, man. marunong siyang mag-emote, but not act. iba yun e. grabe lang. same with goma. yuck.

90. Do you dance in the car? 

minsan

91. What radio station did you last listen to? 

i hate the radio man

92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you? 

not in the habit of putting up things like that, except in an exhibit 

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?

some journal entry 

94. What is your favorite candle scent?

cranberry 

95. What is your favorite board game?

yung clue, or the local version dati called cluedo and monopoly 

97. When was the last time you attended church? 

i gave up on organized religion years ago. i follow my own eclectic faith 

98. Who is your favorite teacher in high school?

yung english teacher na mabait, forgot her name 

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?

one night lang yata or two, during cordi day years ago. late na kasi kami dumating e 

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you

my best friend. i forgot what it was though hahahaha weird 

holeydaze r hir agen and all that jazz

you just have to love the cool intellectual media advocate misfits at adbusters.org for coming up with a new campaign that FITS my holeydaze mood.

 

Adbusters Newsletter #35: Reclaim the Season

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Dear Jammers and Cultural Creatives, 

If you celebrate Christmas, you likely don't need any reminders that it's just around the corner. You are also probably well aware of how stressed-out, hyped-up, dumbed-down, and just downright expensive the "holidays" have become. Nevertheless, we thought we'd take a moment to remind you that it doesn't really need to be this way.

All it takes is a few simple changes -- less presents, less decorations, shorter "to-do" lists, and a wee bit more good old-fashioned craftiness -- to bring a new rhythm, purpose and spirit to one of the world's chief cultural rituals, now warped beyond recognition. Consider it a long-term cultural project for the those seeking a little consumer sanity, a way to rescue our shared traditions from corporate interests and those who confuse big sales with real cultural meaning.

Of course, re-inventing tradition is not the type of thing that happens overnight. But that doesn't mean we can't start right away. If you need a bit of inspiration, check out our new BNXmas headquarters at www.adbusters.org. We have ideas for holiday actions like "The Jesus Walk," links to extensive web resources, plus downloadable posters, cards, and gift exemption vouchers to give to your friends and family.

Like-minded people worldwide have already posted their plans for a less materialist, more meaningful holiday. Once you've had a chance to see what everyone else is up to, go ahead and share your own thoughts and plans via the web form. And if you have spare second during this busy time of year, be sure to forward this year's press release (below) to your local media and absolutely anyone else that might be interested in what we're trying to accomplish.

Good luck and all the best in the new year.

Cheers,

The BNXmas Team

P.S. Email us at with your BNXmas posters and photos, and we'll try our best to feature them on the site.

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FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

HAVE LESS, LIVE MORE: BUY NOTHING CHRISTMAS

RECLAIMING THE SEASON: Those of us who shiver at the thought of hour-long line-ups and $5 gift tags finally have something to rejoice about over the holidays: fed-up citizens and social activists from across the world are inviting everyone to take part in Buy Nothing Christmas.

Inspired by the international successes of Buy Nothing Day, and disgusted with the personal debt, spiritual emptiness, and ecological damage that the holiday season now entails, writers and activists began to heavily promote the idea of a downshifted Christmas in the late nineties. Since then, the idea has been taken up by individuals, community groups, churches, and schools in at least a dozen countries, with strongest support in Canada, the USA, the UK, Australia and New Zealand.

Despite the name, the Buy Nothing Christmas campaign is not really about refusing to spend a dime over the holiday season. It’s about taking a deep breath and deciding to opt out of the hype, the overcrowded malls, and the stressful to-do lists. It’s about reminding ourselves to really think about what we are buying, why we are buying it, and whether we really need it at all.

“First and foremost, it’s about restoring authenticity to one of the world’s great religious and secular traditions,” said Kalle Lasn, editor-in-chief of Adbusters magazine and long-time advocate of holiday restraint. “Christmas has been warped beyond recognition by commercial forces. It’s about time we took it back.”

Most participants will still exchange gifts, but will opt for recycled, homemade, locally produced, or fair-trade items. Some will excuse themselves from gift-giving altogether, and focus instead on valuable time with family and friends, on charitable works, and on rediscovering older, non-commercial holiday traditions as they also invent a few new ones.

Throughout the month of December, activism-minded participants will be taking two of these new traditions to their local malls and commercial districts. Groups of meditating Santas – dubbed “Zenta Clauses” – are offering stressed-out shoppers free soup, coffee, and a place to rest their aching feet as they take a break from buying. This year, they will be joined for the first time by slow-moving activists in robes and Jesus masks, who will be asking their fellow shoppers one all-important question: “What would Jesus buy?”

For more information and media interviews contact

MEDIA LIAISON: Clara Kuoch

TELEPHONE NUMBER: 604-736-9401 EMAIL: clara@adbusters.org

Editor’s Notes

[1] For more information on Adbusters, Buy Nothing Day, and Buy Nothing Christmas, and to read comments submitted by hundreds of people on how they are going to reduce their holiday consumption, visit www.adbusters.org.

[2] For a Christian perspective on the idea, and for tips on how to celebrate a Buy Nothing Christmas, visit www.buynothingchristmas.org

[3] Shopping and consumption facts: * Consumer polls from the last several years peg the per capita holiday spending average in the U.S. at around $800 - $1000, with consumer debt growing twice as fast as wages. * Annual per capita consumption in the U.S. has risen 45 per cent in the last 20 years. * Although people today are, on average, four-and-a-half times richer than our great-grandparents were at the turn of the century, Americans report feeling “significantly less well off” than in 1958. * A 2003 article in New Scientist featured research suggesting that the more consumer goods you have the more you think you need to make you happy. Happiness through consumption is always out of reach (New Scientist, 4th October 2003, Vol.180, Issue 2415, p44. Available online after registering at: www.newscientist.co.uk).

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emphasis mine.

for the longest time, i've been searching for ways on how to put my dislike for this season. the points raised above hit it on the spot, so to speak.  saka gusto ko yung graphics work nila, as always hehe.

well, eto na naman ang inyong friendly neighborhood scrooge speaking. well, i can forgive revelers of this holiday kasi there are a few payoffs i like, like they give gifts even if it's not your birthday and you're not expecting to get any from these certain people, and then there are parties with nice food and drinks where you can chat a bit with people you like to chat with and ignore the ones you dislike -- and win something in a raffle or two along the way.

the last week of classes saw two nice parties in school. the annual "bakit may bayad ang attendance" CMC xmas party had the always absent monbau as the xmas committee chair who thought up a "CMC idol" magic sing contest. well, syempre hands down dapat na nanalo doon ay si mam gigi of upfi dahil hello siya ang ms. savarin lounge singer of the century ano. pero syempre the crowd was all mass-oriented chenelyn and gave it to some dude from admin. and hm, kumakanta pala si atty marichu ng, er, mandy moore songs! at least young ang heart ang lolah. ay, as an aside, habang kumakanta pala ng "paper roses" si mam g ay nag-cage dancing ek kami sa gilid, pero syempre dahil mas ako ang nakatayo, nakita ako and now, i am officially known in the cmc world as "the cage dancer." bow.

sarap lang ng party dahil may nag-order ng pritchon, yung pritong lechon (hm, come to think of it, hindi ba double deads na ang style na ito? but i digress). actually, yun lang ang sinigaw ng crowd "raffle at kainan nah!" in unison ever. e well, they can't go wrong with that. two of my favorite things as a taurus gel: eating good food and having nice thingies.

well, sulit naman ang payment ko kasi nanalo ako sa raffle hehe. ewan ko ba pero madalas e swerte ako sa mga raffle-raffle na yan. i won an electric fan. later, mam gigi also won an electric fan. and then i overheard doc nic saying "eh kasi mahahangin daw tayong mga taga-film! hahahah!" hahahah true ka jan lola. funny yun ever. okei, kalimutan muna ang semi-vegetarian fare para sa pritchon. masarap sha in fairnez.

tapos the day after that, upfi xmas party naman. actually it's more of a xmas lunch which was started last year by anne our insti director. tama nga naman para meron ka pang hapon at gabi to digest the food. hay to die for ang handa, ang isa sa paborito kong lengua!!!! er, semi-vegemode aside na naman, nilafesh ko lang itich sobrah. dedma sa ibang handa. hay nakuh i can focus that way about food ya know. sobra lang... pero after da eating binge, tangna lumobo na naman ang di dapat lumobo sa akin kaya waaah back to kambing mode na naman ako at vegetarian forever, which means tambay na naman ako ng likha diwa. sayang, ang layo na kasi ng greens sa aking lugar eh. mas bet ko pa naman yun kesa sa likha.. not so much because of the food but because of some past history my former org had with da place. sabi nga ni frozone sa episode kahapon, da nerrrrrrv.

speaking of, ANYBODY KNOW OF ANY VEGETARIAN/SEMI-VEGETARIAN EATING PLACES IN THE METRO, QC AREA PREFERABLY?  E ME LEAFLENS AT GMAIL PO.

as for the gifts, the usual suspects brought their goodie bags and handed the people there some give-aways. mukhang poor lang yata this year dahil unlike last year, walang raffle gifts chuva. but i don't really mind.

hm, ano pa ba ginawa namin? wala, as usual, like most pinoys, nag-magic singing na naman sila dun while i just stuck to cage dancing. kaya relate ako kay HAPPY FEET, e, kasi i can't sing in a country full of songers but i can dance the heck out of them hehe. sayawan na lang! ano!

tapos nun ngang sabado of that week, LOVELY DAY xmas party naman dun sa wonder island resort sa laguna kung saan nag-shoot ng very first ep for next year kami. it was supposed to be an overnight thing pero marami ring umuwi at sumama na ko (see previous post about this na lang), but not after partaking of the very inviting hotsprings pools there and the "yehey friendly sa semi-vegemode" fudams nung gabi like inihaw na talong, fish and chicken. saraf! nagkaroon tuloy ako ng one-week craving sa bangus belly. buti na lang the neighborhood carinderia carries that in their inihaw fare -- at mas mura pa sa crispy bangus belly ng jollibee na harang naman ang portion kung mega-tomjones ka.

i guess that's the last xmas party i'll be attending this year. pasko na bukas e so wa na no. new year party? nah, pagod na kong pag-party ng talagang party you know what i mean? mukhang na-reorient at na-reprogram ko na talaga ang lifestyle mode ko. buti naman. well, nakatulong ang walang alak sa sistema hehe. hay...

so quiet mode lang ngayon. saka i've been enjoying talking really long walks lately while plugged in to some upbeat music. sabi nga ng friend ko, may sarili akong mundo in doing that. i guess that's what i'm really trying to achieve/create/enhance. nakakasawa na kasi itong mundong ito minsan e. we need an alternative planet. hm, i just wish i wasn't nearly flat footed. argh. oh well. the new shoes will do the trick. yea yea did some shopping na rin pero long overdue naman ito, at saka necessity, not luxury. iba yun e. saka maraming sale this time of year kaya take advantage na diba? kaya ang saya!

so, as the zen santa would say...

HOPPY HOLEYDAZE, PLANET! 

konting chopsuey sa tanghali

i like my horoscope for today:

The week ahead bodes well for you as horizons expand and new ideas can positively impact your life. You feel energized, yet not scattered, for the Sun's illumination of Capricorn is compatible with your earthy nature. Use this time to think about your goals, without losing your head in the clouds or spending the month lost in dreams. Visualizing a path toward your own success can bring you closer to the happiness you want.

fun! compatible nga ako sa capricorn, ano? kahit minsan e may mga capricorn peeps akong nakaka-clash. pero nareresolba rin.

tapos may fun thing din sa mail. got a mail from yahoo saying i won 300,000 dollars. when i opened it, eto sabi (syntax errors theirs):

We are sorry that your Payment Approval File was sent to Africa due to we have 3 lucky winners in Africa so that you can be cleared and paid simultaneously there. You are to contact our African Location Claim Agent on or before your date of Claim.

kawawa naman ang continent of africa ano, laging subject ng spam and scams. lalo na nigeria. nubayan. dapt magreklamo sila sa UN.

dahil parang nakakatamad ang umagang ito at nakakasawa nang kumain ng gonuts donuts lite donuts (yuck walang lasa. kelan kaya mabubuhay ang thought na kapag lowfat sugarfree lite ay dapat MASARAP pa din ito? grrr), sagutan natin ang chuva from jhen hehe.

1. Popularly known as:

- libay to most, libs to some close friends, bayli for some other close friends 

2. Other race aside from being a Filipino?

- er, rat race? hehe. feeling ko russian ako at chinese in a past life, at saka egyptian kasi the pyramids are calling me... hm, baka ako si cleopatra

3. Last compliment you received?

- pumapayat ka na! nakikita ko na ulit ang balakang mo!

4. Last insult you heard?

- "bayot, bumaba ka dyan!" wot an ass. i didn't know nature-lovers could be such assholes.

5. Mabait ba yung crush mo?

- wala akong crush. loser ako ngayon hehe.

6. Sa school mo din ba napasok bf/gf mo?

- crush nga wala, gf pa hehe.

7. Usual first impression/s sayo?

- mataray, until i speak in my libaylingo. or, mababaw dahil i speak in my libaylingo, until theyreally get to hear my thoughts and then people say"wow ang profound/lalim mo pala" chos

8. Matropa ka bang tao?

- dati. hindi na masyado ngayon.

9. Color/s of most of your things?

- sana orange sila lahat, pero wala akong makitang orange na ref e. so anything but white will do

10. Close ba kayo ng parents mo?

- i guess. nanay ko lang tho.

11. Say something about love.

- it's a four-letter word, much like shit!, fuck!, sure! and burp!

12. Sino talagang gusto mong makausap ngayon?

- wala naman. nagsasawa na kong makinig sa boses ng maraming tao minsan. i am enjoying this silence now.

13. Listening to:

- the whirrr of my electric fan? and birds chirping outside. and me typing sa keyboard.

14. Last gig na napuntahan mo?

- yung sierra madre benefit concert sa70s bistro the other night featuring this covers band kampai and our favorite world music fusion band pinikpikan. pero hindi pala fun manood ng gig kapag puro mountaineers ang nasa audience...unless they share their marijuana ano? hehe.

15. Recent ridiculous thing that happened to you.

- napagkamalan akong het sa mrt hahahahaha. chaka. men can be such dorks.

16. Last time you cried

- matagal na. mabuti naman. :P

17. Describe your day in one word.

- today? hansaraf. relaxed eh. yey no more classes no more opis no more books, no more students no more co-workers dirty looks hahahahaha. what's up, doc?

18. Latest na kinainisan mo.

- mga homophobic mountaineers na nang-tsansing sa friend ko!

19. Latest na ikinatuwa mo.

- na may cash gift pa pala kaming matatanggap yey!

20. Latest record you bought.

- gosh, sa tagal na, di ko maalala.

21. Last coffee shop you visited & with whom.

- hm, as in tambay mode? wala e. i just buy sa figaro sa 4th floor ng gma kapag mag-e-edit na kasi lalamigin na naman ilong ko.

22. Are you a chain smoker?

- nope

23. Are you an alcoholic?

- no but i miss drinking man shyet this liver thing

24. Are you mad at someone right now?

- as in seething? hindi na, bakasyon na eh so wala na siya sa radar ko wehehe

25. Name one person you miss the most.

- actually, wala.

men, umuulan! waaah lalong nakakatamad lumabas ng haybols! ano, martial arts training or bust? nakakatamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad...

shucks sa kenya pala ang world social forum this year. africa? di ko feel. hmp, sayang talaga yung dati at di ako nakasama sa brazil! waaaaah. or kahit sa mumbai man lang. argh. mas asian at latinam ang dugo ko eh hehe.

tangina tong mga kapitbahay ko, makers sila ng mga variations ng bamboo bazooka booming things. i hate them. ang ingay.

sarap matulog! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

 

do you hear what i hear? i thought not + pride photos galore!

i like my horoscope for yesterday. so apt:
  

Everyone may be more emotional than you today, but don't let their dramas destabilize your world. Your feelings are well-grounded now, so listen attentively to what others say without fear of being swept up into their tumultuous storms. No matter what you encounter, hold on tightly to anything that increases your overall security.

 
yesterday was saturday and the very last day of shooting LOVELY DAY narrative spiels for the year. we went to this island about 10 minutes away from the calamba pier for the shoot and after that, the show's own version of their christmas party. i didn't stick around for the party and went ahead with the group who also had to leave that night. not that i want to be branded as an aloof director -- on the contrary, gustong-gusto kong uminom kasi smooth yung flavored lambanog na dala ni ace cameraman billyboy namin. delish. kaya lang nga, after discovering this liver problem of mine, i shunned liquor muna in my life. kaya bad trip. so if i stay there, mate-tempt akong uminom talaga. hotsprings resort pa naman yun.

the thing with me is medyo hindi ko na trip mag-hang out sa mga groups of people na hindi ko naman talaga katsokaran ng malaliman. lam mo yun? hindi na kasi ako ganun e. siguro after hitting 30 and after having been around lots of diverse groups of people (and i do mean LOTS, man, from showbiz old-timers and newbie artistas to literary feelingeros and writing luminaries, from career academicians and advocate students to cosmopolitanized and proudly heritaged indigenous peoples, from down to earth military and hambog political personalities to fun-loving underground people, from sosyalista hacienderos/deras to urban poor residents, from clean and dirty media practitioners to international/multinational advocates and cultural personalities, and more) talagang minsan e hahanapin mo yung mga ka-close mo lang o yung mga talagang ka-wavelength mo na usually e you share lots of things in common talaga, na kahit papaano e talagang kilala ka. and the biggest common denominator na hinahanap ko ay yung advocacy, yung genuine respect for it and general recognition for it, lalo na sa kababaihan at ka-LGBT-han. sadly, sa karamihan ng mainstream media outfits and groups na napupuntahan ko, wala nito. bibihira, few and far between. isa na rin ito sa mga reasons kung bakit di ko feel mag-venture out with people i don't share my personal life with and have relationships with them on a professional level only. parang sa school sa UPFI. ganun din. kaya i want to kick back and relax with like-minded individuals who know what i'm about and who respect that by being nice and kind and not insensitive.

kung sinabi ni gandhi na "be the change you wish to see in the world" e i'm doing that naman in my own capacity in my line of work. pero kung talagang sobra na ang sexism at homophobia sa paligid ko, as an advocate, i know when to recognize that a situation is a "lost cause" category na or not. in this case, i'd rather deal with it the best way i can -- hence the distance, and the professional level dealings. c'est tout. tricky talaga to handle stuff like this. naturingan kang lesbiyana at peminista, naku, may certain alerts na silang nire-raise sa kani-kanilang mga isip at kampo. nalulungkot lang ako kasi kadalasan, di nakikita ng karamihan sa mga mainstream people na ito na napaka-potent ng kinabibilangan nilang industriya at ang change na sinasabi ni gandhi ay puwede nilang maisubo sa mga tao nang walang kahirap-hirap. kaya nasasayangan ako madalas. if youth is wasted on the young, as that saying goes, i guess opportunity is wasted on the oportunistas...or something.

hay nakuh. yun lang siguro masasabi ko. mahirap maging peministang lesbian rights advocate sa media. ngayon. tulad ng mahirap maging vegetarian na pilipino, kelanman. subukan niyong sampolan ang mga karinderya sa tabi-tabi at kadalasan, iisang gulay lang (kung meron man) na ulam ang nakahain sa kainan nila.  buti na lang mahilig tayong pinoy sa mga side things na nilalagay sa main ulam, like mga talong-talong diyan o kamatis man lang. at least may nakakaing galing sa halaman. parang kahapon, ang lunch lang ay parang kalderetang ewan na may carrots at patatas. so puro carrots at ilang piraso ng karne ang kinain kong sapilitan. kasi walang ibang makain, at marami ako energy na nailalabas at nawawala kada shoot, kaya kelangan ng replacement in food. kaya permissible ang karne. buti na lang at nagkaroon ng isda, gulay at manok nung dinner kundi... waaah.

so, sabi nga, don't let their dramas destabilize your world. whatever happens, alam kong may idinudulot akong kabutihan at kagandahan kahit papaano kahit hindi ito nire-recognize o takot i-recognize due to some insecurity or other. secure ako sa knowledge at talento ko without being hambog about it. i know my capacity as well as my limitation. kaya keri lang ako whatever happens. que sera sera nga, di ba? whatever will be, will be. even if people want to control others' futures, the future is not really ours to see, sabi nga ng song. kaya dedma na. kasi ako, puwede akong pumunta sa ibang lugar. yung iba kasi diyan, stuck.

sad lang pag nakaka-encounter ako ng ganitong mga tao. highly talented pero stuck. sayang. nasasayang ang talento nila. wala kasi genuine thirst for knowledge. or hindi sila yung tinatawag na "multiple intelligence" na nakita kong feature sa tv dati. more than gifted kids daw ang mga nasa MI school na ito (na kung tama ang pagkakaalala ko ay nakita ko somewhere near katipunan area). nakakatuwa lang yung categories nila: people smart, math smart, word smart... art smart din yata, hm. forgot. tapos nung ineksplika nila, sabi nila e yung each smart chuva ay mga capacity to deal with things. like kung ma-PR ka or good with people, people smart. kung keri mo ang math, math smart. ganun din sa ibang larangan like sports or arts. e hello, paano kung matagal na kaming ganito? a handful of my closest friends and i are kinda "all-smarts" kung tutuusin kasi hindi kami involved lang sa isang bagay o larangan. hm, multiple intelligence na pala kami without knowing it. dibala? hehe. kasi di ba, kung isa lang yan ang smart ka, luz pa rin. dapat minimum of two smarts per person this day and age. para di ka laos. deva?

o eto pa horoscope ko for today:

You may be working in collaboration more than you prefer these days. If you are struggling within a close relationship, marriage, or professional partnership, setting mutual goals can help you align your energies and head out in the same direction. Tensions may still arise, but this can be part of a healthy process if you don't bury them. Keeping feelings out in the open minimizes any negative impact.

well, not always siguro, especially kung mga lost cause ang kausap/ka-deal mo. it's best to keep some feelings not out in the open in this case. kasi you know better. people smart nga e. devah? define a different strategy na lang with them.

zaturnahhhhh! poof!

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sya, bago pa man tayo malunod sa chorva of life, eto muna sampol ng pride photos. those who want the original higher resolution pix, just contact me po. i deliberately blur the people na di ko kilala at di ko sure kung out o hindi. respeto lang sa mga kloseta syempre. di ibig sabihin nagmartsa ka e out ka na. it doesn't work that way, if you don't know yet.

 

back in malate! happiness! la vie boheme ever!

yezzz, after how many years of bringing it to good ol' kyusi, wala pa ring tatalo sa malateh. kaya narito kami ulit, sa comvergence point sa usual remedios circle na ngayon ay pinaganda na. buti naman.

 

this year's theme. yah, now nah!

this year, it was all about the pending ANTI-DISCRIMINATION BILL which does not reiterate same sex marriage. what it does, though, is criminalize discriminatory acts against members of the lesbian, gay, bisexual and trans community like being denied entry to an establishment (like what happened to inday garutay at aruba bar), being fired from work because you're gay (like what happened with marlon the librarian when miriam college fired him for having a union ceremony with his boyfriend) and being harassed/maligned/bugbog by people because you are an LGBT person. many thanks to akbayan partylist for carrying it forever in congress (albeit the homophobic wahoos haranguing them), and now the senate.

 

friend-spotting

fellow advocates and kachokaran sa mga kalesbiyanahan briggs and irma lacorte the visual artist.

 

friend-spotting photo op-ping

happy to bump into purs again. my shirt read "define girlfriend" at sabi niya "friend... na girl? e puwedeng ako yun di ba? hahaha" hahaha honga naman.

 

bless you father for having cool threads

the metropolitan community church/order of st. aelred people assured me that "the god" was on our side marching that day. the gods are always with us, you know, kasi nice kami. at fabulous.

 

 they call me a space cowboy...

 hmmm, di ko alam ku ng contingent si manong o manong marshall siya or what. mukha siyang wannabee space shuttle commander eh.

 

flags up!

time for the rainbow to hit the streets and walk our talk! and that we did! tangeena ang layo ng nilakad noh.

 

my partylist in the years to come. 

and this is the group i joined for the march this year. there's (from L) ging, danton and germaine. pink power it is.

 

sez moi

more banners carried by angladlad vice-chair doni and another colleague

blast from western past

echoing the very first slogans of the very first pride marches in san francisco yoo es op ey

 

more banner chuvaness!

 

pink writers

hamming it up with professor danton remoto, angladlad's chairperson and my former classmate sa MA creative writing fiction class ni mam jing hidalgo. riot yung class na yun grabeh. hehe. miss those writing workshop days!

 

atee-atee-hun

ang cool lang nila tignan, sobra. kakaiba. pink eh hehe.

 

  drummer bois

 

the official banner, kasama na ang LAGABLAB (lesbian and gay legislative advocacy group) banner

 

tfp4evr pa rin!

the organizers of the annual pride march. 

 

jownaz

kung ang animation world may "the incredibles" ang lgbt advocacy comunity ay merong "the indefatigueables" na siguro. pinangungunahan yan ni jonas bagas, secgen ng lagablab na super-sipag sa pagbabantay sa ADB. yehey kay jonas! 

 

jesse jeep

isa pang indefatigueable, si jesse ng akbayan. laging may megaphone na kakabit ang kamay at bibig niya. ever.

 

and yet another indefatigueable, chrisjo. hindi si batman yan pramis. mukha lang.

 

lola literal

syempre hindi mawawala ang mga matatandang bading na magaling!

 

batang-bata ka pa...

and the young ones were also there. here's UP babaylan's tivoli contingent. opo, mas marami nang gels doon ngayon. hmm. wonder why... shucks na-miss ko tuloy ang UP sappho society days namin... kia dre cathy asan na kayooooooooooo...

 

paminta? sabi nila. ching! joke.

the library foundation's share (forgot the meaning). basta for men having sex with men (msm) ang chu nila.

 

tama! go nah!

in response to that commitee on human rights chair

yebah, okei sa sign yan hane! go lang! anything goes, 'ika nga ng kanta ni b-boy cole porter 

true ka jan, at! and look good saying it. yebah!

leaping lesbians, batman!

 the LEAP girls tell it like it's hot. hehe. spotted a fewlword egroup gelays here. guess that drag kingidea didn't quite fly, huh? at least nag-marcha kayo.

 

AI always there!

  parang bago to. teka, dax di ba AI ka?

okei, kahit 5 films lang meron this year...

keri sana to pero my beef with them organizers is that dapat tawagin na lang nilang GAYandminsanmaylesbian filmfest ito. lagi kasing ganun eh. efort naman diyan for lesbians and everythang!

 

the lovely ladies of STRAP

sana ma marami pang non-manila continent like lakambulacan.

 

fr. mickley's message

tuloy lan ang rampa sa kalye, naka-sneakers ka man o high heels!

 

hmm parang now lang ako nakakita ng ganito sa pride march, since 1997...

...at pag may mukhang kabaro, photo op! hehe.

pero peace pa rin ang kinahinatnan. fun kami, hindi violent.

ang lagay e di ako sasali sa photo op!

it's a GO for PRIDE! nakaratin ding roxas blvd sa wakas!

 

grabe nah sa photo chuvaness itich! more next time.

isang patalastas lang muna

hihingi lang po ng suporta para sa huling hirit ng taong 2006. sana manood kayo nitong edutainment tv show na dinidirek ko. it's a fun mix of narrative and docu elements. 

 

LOVELY DAY every saturday 10-10:30am sa GMA channel 7, featuring the adventures of the Lovely Day Force (Love Anover and the kids Bea, Gabby and Jacob).

this week:

all about sugar! the lovely day force encounters a mischievous dwarf and travels to the sugar cane farms of negros to help the dwarf

next week:

the christmas episode! an evil guy named frozone replaces santa claus! the LD force travels to the north pole and discovers the real plot behind this mystery. along the way, they help with santa's chores by giving gifts to children. they also visit a deer farm. 

the week after next:

the new year episode! a catwoman named mimiyaw, hungry for 8 extra lives, tries to get the lives of people and the LD force kids! love seeks the help of intelligent dolphins and the kids visit the animation office of toei to prevent a bigger dilemma.

 

cute. ninakaw ko sa friendster ni love hehe. pek, panakaw ha. 

 

watch na kayo ha. opo, ako po nagdirek ng tatlong yan. next year kasi, babawasan ko na ang directing load ko (anticipating upcoming acad load - waaah dibdibang french review na itoh! plus possible travels abroad - wishing!!! sana ma-grant. hint hint.) kaya ia-announce ko na lang kung anong episode ang hawak ko.

syempre di ko na in-advertise yung USS Essex episode kung saan binisita ng ating LD force ang barkong pinagtatrabahuhan ni lance corporal daniel smith anesh? kasi di pa ko sure nung panahong yun kung ano verdict niya sa nicole case. but in any case, YEHEY BUTI NA LANG GUILTY VERDICT! this one's for the women's movement, and the validity of the anti-rape law. hehe suggestment nga ng friendship ko, what if si nicole ang nag-intro ng segment daw sa essex hehe, with lines like "at dito po ang quarters ng hudas na sundalong gumahasa sa akin..." wala lang, wishful thinking...

again, thanks sa support niyo guys. keep watching! sabado ng umaga, don't forget. sige na, pilitin nang gumising hehe. suffer tayong lahat. :P

 

some thoughts and frequently asked questions about pride march

 

pride march season na naman! thought i'll share these FAQs for you guys out there.

pero baka itanong niyo kung bakit december ang march at hindi june. isinabay kasi ng community sa celebration my HUMAN RIGHTS WEEK from december 1 (world AIDS day) tapos tatalon ng dec. 4 officially start ng week tapos december 8 ay NATIONAL LESBIAN DAY at december 10 ang human rights day mizmoh. nasa konteskto rin ito ng 16 days of activism against violence against women which is an international chuvaness from november 25 to december 10 din.

again, pride march sa sabado sa malate, remedios circle ang simula mga 3pm tapos larga na. di ako sure sa ruta, sumasama lang ako sa daloy e. ang ending program ay sa may park across baywalk.

hope you take the time to read this stuff below. it's for our own good, really.

1. Are homosexuals abnormal and immoral? 

Being homosexual is not abnormal. While it is true that the origin or cause of homosexuality is still subject to contending debates, a huge majority of psychologists and psychiatrists around the world have already declared that homosexuality is not an abnormality. In fact, homosexuality had already been removed from international lists of known diseases and mental sickness. 

Despite these active pronouncements of experts in the medical field, however, most sectors or groups within organized religion continue to believe that homosexuality is an aberration because it is intrinsically evil and immoral. For these groups, homosexuals are abnormal because God did not create homosexuals. This view is being contested already within and outside religious denominations by homosexuals and heterosexuals alike. What’s clear, however, is that whatever one’s sectarian beliefs are, it is immoral and intrinsically evil to violate the fundamental human rights homosexuals. 

2. Is there such as thing as the “Third Sex?” 

There is no third sex. In fact, homosexual activists are conscious in informing the media, public officials, and the society in general that using the term “Third Sex” is an affront not just to lesbians and gays but to women as well, as it implies that the first (thus superior) sex are men. Calling homosexuals as the “third sex” is also saying that women and homosexuals are mere subordinates of men. 

3. If homosexuals want to be respected, then how come they cross-dress? 

Cross-dressing refers to the use of clothes and accessories (such as make-up) that are traditionally identified with the opposite sex. While some gays prefer to don clothes traditionally identified with men, some wear women’s clothes as an expression and celebration of their sexuality, and they view this as an intrinsic and important component of their sexual orientation. 

Respect for cross-dressing lesbians and gays is non-negotiable, and must not be based on one’s preferred mode of clothing. That male cross-dressing homosexuals oftentimes encounter disrespect and discrimination is also indicative of how our society treats women. It is believed by many that it is degrading for men to wear the clothes of an inferior sex. 

4. Why do lesbians and gays come-out? 

Coming out is popularly defined as one’s acceptance and declaration (to friends or family, for instance) of one’s homosexuality. Coming out is an important process in a homosexual’s coming to terms with his or her sexuality. It’s hard not to come-out. It’s hard to feel fully good about yourself if you have an important secret you can’t tell anyone. That kind of hiding reinforces the belief that there is something shameful or faulty about being gay or lesbian. In reality, there is nothing wrong being lesbian or gay. There is something wrong with the world that makes one feel ashamed or afraid because of what she/he is. Acknowledging a part of yourself that goes against what most people fell comfortable with is truly a brave thing to do. It doesn’t mean you‘re not scared. Being brave is about continuing to do what you need to do – in spite of the fear. 

5. What does LGBT mean? 

LGBT means to “lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender.” Being lesbian/gay means that your primary romantic, emotional, physical and sexual attraction and connection are with someone of the same sex. Bisexuals refer to persons who are physically, sexually, and emotionally attracted to both sexes. Transgender is commonly used to include both transsexual and transvestites. Transsexuals are people who, though they were born with the body of one sex, feel they are really a person of the other sex (for instance, a “male” transsexual thinks and believes that he is a woman). Transsexuals are those who have plan to or have already undergone physical operations to alter their sex. Transvestites who may either be Heterosexual, Transsexual, or Homosexual are people who like to wear clothes associated with the other sex. 

6. Are homosexuals discriminated in the Philippines? 

Contrary to popular belief that Filipino homosexuals are better off than their other Asian counterparts, discrimination based on sexual orientation remains rampant in the Philippines. Minors who are suspected to have “tendencies” are assaulted by their parents and teachers and ridiculed by his or her peers. There are even reports of teenage lesbians who are raped (in some cases, with the consent of the father) because of the belief that they only needed to taste having sex with men to be transformed. Police continue to arrest homosexuals to extort money from them. Other forms of discriminatory practices include vilification (verbal assault), loss of employment, unequal access to health care, education and other public services, rejection from family, and hate crimes such as physical abuse and murder. 

7. Are homosexual families illegal? 

Philippine laws DO NOT prohibit ceremonial unions of same-sex couples. Unfortunately, these unions are not legally recognized, and thus are not accorded with equal benefits given to heterosexual families, such as automatic inheritance, next-of-kin status, joint adoption, etc. Same-sex families, which are considered no different from heterosexual families by child development experts, are thus exposed to a host of discriminatory practices without equal protection under the law. 

8. Are LGBTs asking for special rights? 

Advocacy for LGBT rights is premised on the principles of equal rights, and not special rights. LGBT communities around the world are not asking for special treatment, but only want their fundamental human rights protected and promoted. These rights, which include equal protection under the law, equal opportunities and access to employment, health care, and education, and freedom of expression, are human rights that homosexuals have, but are being systematically denied due to discrimination. 

9. Is it true that homosexuals only want to push their anti-life, anti-family agenda? 

The only agenda that lesbians and gays have is to be given the freedom to love, and to have their rights recognized, protected and promoted. This agenda does not in any way cause the deterioration of our society or the corruption of our family, but rather contributes to the strengthening of the inherent diversity of our society and our people. It is an agenda that pushes for greater understanding, tolerance and acceptance. 

10. Why is June being celebrated as the Pride Month? 

In June 1969, the New York police raided the Stonewall Inn, a private bar that was frequented by homosexuals. The raid, which the police claimed was conducted because the bar was serving liquors without permit, was one of the regular police raids meant to harass the gay patrons of the bar. For the first time, however, the raid was met with resistance. Homosexual patrons of the bar, as well as enraged lesbians and gays within the area, started a demonstration that lasted for several days. A year after, the Stonewall riot was commemorated, with more lesbians and gays marching in the streets to protest discrimination and police harassment. A few years later the commemoration was celebrated in other cities as well, and became a global symbol of LGBT pride. 

from Task Force Pride (TFP) – Philippines 2006