can't even begin to imagine, let alone recall, the things that happened this week. they all seem like a blur this time. thank goddess for the weekend, huh? yeah, methinks.
since monday is the new wednesday in UP, i always find myself on campus at the start of the week for meetings, meetings and more meetings. nahihilo na ako sa kaka-meeting. pero kailangan, e.
maraming magaganap na pagbabago kasi sa larangan ng trabaho sa opisina sa masscomm, at sa film institute. end of term na ng dean, at ng director, respectively. kaya ang meetings na ito ay patungkol doon, at sa mga susunod pang eklavu na konektado sa chenelyn na yan.
hay, bahala na kung ano ang magaganap. pero klaro na narito lang ako, staying put, at least for a year, or until mag-transition ng husto ang bagong curriculum ng film program for three years, whichever comes first. i just hope that the higher ups know what they are doing. hay, office politics... masalimuot.
mahirap na lahat ng tao e matatalino. no wonder nakakapagod magtrabaho sa peyups kadalasan. o baka ako lang yun. fatigue of the mind, fatigue of the spirits, i guess. more like the latter siguro. napansin nga ni goldstar yun, na kahit wala naman akong physical exertion sa trabaho, i come home feeling so exhausted, kasi mind ko ang na-exhaust, and she said that is more exhausting than the physical kind. i agree with her. and i so love her for explaining that to me. ngayon ko lang din kasi na-realize. and i love her even more for understanding the situation. jackpot talaga ito...
sa susunod na lunes, ganun na naman. meetings. kaya i decided to take it easy friday whole day, dahil na rin narito ang monthly curse. kaya sa weekend, happy lang. relax relax. sayang at sarap sanang tumalon sa pool. kakainggit ang isa riyan. oh well...
earlier in the week, i also unleashed a word war with a relative, something someone should have done a looooong time ago. i did it in defense of my mum. simply put, wala akong respeto sa taong walang respeto sa nanay ko. that sums it all up. ako na lang ang masaring, huwag lang nanay ko. pero the moment masaring siya, ako ang makakalaban niyo. that's the battlecry. it was exhausting at the beginning, as with all kinds of wars, but i'm glad i did it. my mom is, too. and surprisingly, so do my other relatives, who were rooting for me pala in the process. that gave the extra jolt i needed. the dust has settled, and i'm standing my ground. isang malaking KEBS! ang pinadala ko sa kanya. c'est tout.
okay na ko. at ang mommy ko.
sa pag-aaral, okay na rin. nakausap ko ang thesis adviser at agree kami sa summer defense. ayoko kasi ng nate-tense din at the end of the sem with my own defense, kasabay ng goings-on sa institute. remember second sem thesis defense ng mga bata ito, which means we watch two days' worth of short films, straight. it's that time of the sem again, yes. let's see what happens.
kaya i am feeding myself with supplemental studies on the side, to while away time. still waiting for word from my revised manuscript, na thank goddess natapos last month at nakakahinga na ko ng maluwag ngayon. masaya ako sa kinalabasan ng trabahong iyon, kaya yun na.
this week, i also learned a lesson on laglagan, the hard way. this reitarates the strange but true fact that super-talented overachievers could be so threatened by other-talented achievers younger than them. ageism is alive and well in the academe, thanks to them. saklap talaga yun. i don't know why trust is a shaky thing in the academe. mas malala pa siya sa showbiz pala. now i understand the paths i went through to prepare me for this one. i understand how it works now.
there is no spoon.
on a lighter note, i was happy to fulfill an invite in connection with my media work. instituto cervantes launched the "berso sa metro" campaign/project and i was invited to the launch. kaya overdose na naman tayo ng espanol, si? si, para si, para buto ng sili, as my lola used to joke. this immersion with the spanish language lately has been inspiring me to renew my interest in spanish. goldstar is also interested. maybe we'll take those classes being offered by the european languages sometime in the summer, or on weekends like what i did with my french when i needed to review that for the MA language exam. but yes, i do miss espanyol. i think now, it's more practical for me to go back to that language than french. french served its purpose already, unless that french project pushes through. hm. that's another light note pa pala. i'm not pinning my hopes there, pero sige lang. i just miss my french friend pascale, the big sister i never had. oh well, i'm digressing...
and yes, summer's here. which means pollen season. kaya my sinusitis is in full swing sometimes. needs adjusting pa ang weather. pero masaya din na merong pool just somewhere down there that we could use during hot days like these. i heart condo living.
konti na lang, bakasyon na. abril na. ang bilis ng panahon. beware the ides of march ang drama ko when the month rolled in. pero mukha namang lumuluwag na at na-dissipate na ang nega clouds hovering over us all. sana mas lumiwanag pa ang mga bagay-bagay sa pagtatapos ng buwan at pagpasok ng summer. i am so looking forward to this vacation, man, kahit in essence, may trabaho pa rin ako. we'll see. housekeeping din kasi sa institute come summer time. we're transferring to that new building, when they finally spruce the place up and equip it properly. i'll be overseeing that. that's really something to look forward to. better faculty rooms! with a view pa! winner!
been having meaningful chats din nga pala with people the whole week. from friends to co-workers to relatives to da jowa. it has been an interesting week full of chika galore. for the first time in weeks, feeling info overload na naman akey. but in a good way. i like that. pang-balanse baga.
nakaka-disappoint na nakakatuwa na nakakainis na nakakabagot na nakaka-flatter na nakakasulasok na nakakataba ng puso na nakakasuklam na nakaka-touch. that has been my week. what a ride, eh. let's see what the next week brings me. sana muy buena semana naman, right?
si para si para buto ng sili!