Officially real

And this is how I determine that I am in love, for real: I write poetry, about how I feel. For her.

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Thank you, you're here
(for j.)

If I were to choose
In which time should I exist
I would choose right now
This time, here
Because you exist, now,
With me.

If I were to choose
In which space should I exist
I would choose right here
This place, here
Because you occupy it
With me.

Right here right now
Seems like an ideal concept
A tangible reality
For being, just to be
Because it's real
Because you're real
Because we're real

We are real
We are...

But things could also be
Just for now
And things could also be
Just for here
So I capture it
Lovingly, affectionately,
Delicately, desperately,
Before our time runs out
Before another space recalls you
Away from me
Away from us

Away, from us
From us...

But I don't mind
Your leaving
I don't mind
No, I shouldn't
Because I already accepted
From the beginning
That part of being with you
Is not being with you
At the same time.

Yes, at the same time.

So right now, here, is good
Yes, we're good. We are.
If this is as good as it gets, for now,
Then I accept it
Without reservation
But with a little fear.

No, don't worry. Don't.
My happiness is defined
By these snatches of moments
Precious and rare, like you are.

As long as you consider me yours
As long as I am relevant in your life
And as long as you give me honest love
Then I'm in it for the long haul
Mighty long haul wherever
Time and space be damned.


25march2012sun 3.55p

coolspotting

Because I am Linus.



I found my tropa.



In Hong Kong. :)

No dogs allooooooowed :)

i am woman, hear me roar

As I type this, Manila is still asleep, but the start of a new date is already here.

It's International Women's Day. IWD.

At last year's IWD in front of Congress where musicians performed
in support of the RH Bill. That's *the* Cynthia Alexander
performing sa likod ko. (March 2011)

I remember a speech given by my ka-birthday Barbra Streisand eons ago about how she wishes that, one day, we will not celebrate this day anymore. I agree. This only means that the moment we don't celebrate one special day of something is the moment when we are already celebrating that something on a daily basis (parang balentaymz lang 'yan teh devah chos). Yes, not designated as one special friggin' day of a year. One year has 365 and 1/4 days and yet we only celebrate WOMEN once a year??? ONCE???

Hell no.

I celebrate women every second! Nano-second! Every second I'm alive, I take pride and celebrate that I am a woman! Bakit ba. Well okay, since I redefined my self as queer/genderqueer, maybe this is one day of the year when the female in me rises more, the yin more powerful than the yang. Pwedeh? Tanggapin.

[And what did I do last year during IWD? Numo-nosebleed academic hehe. Itich.]

Anyway, dahil di ako makakasama sa anumang kawomenan event today because of my foot injury, blog na lang. Or vicariously remember my past IWD events hehe.

At the art exhibit opening of women artist friends,

UPFI's contribution for IWD 2008.
This artwork made by my lezzie friendsheep.
(Bernal Gallery UP 2008)

Sankapa! Mega-flashback IWD 2005 as me and my co-Isiswomen
hung out at rotonda para maki-miron sa Gabriela-led celeb.
Man I miss these days. Miss working for NGO sector sometimes.
Balikan natin? Chozzzz. (March 2005)

Happy IWD nonetheless. Patuloy nating ipaglaban ang karapatan ng mga kababaihan, hane? Maging sino ka man, beks. Maging sino ka man.

At rakenrol na lang!