29 May 2005

hapee burtdei mum!

my favorite woman in the world celebrates her birthday today.


happy birthday mommy!

how old is she? hmmm... ewan ko. pero the year Archie comics was born was the year she was born, too, teehee. gawin bang archie ang marker ko? ehehehe. anyway, here are some snaps...


photothoughts...



they wanted to check out super bowl in gateway. ewan ko kung bakit. chinese food? hm, sige na nga... kakain lang ako sa mga ganito 'pag kasama ko relatives ko. other than that, kung hilahin ako ng fellow conconistas sa hapchan, puwede na ko dun. saka sa wok inn din pala. fancier chinese places i tend to avoid. ewan ko kung bakit. hm. pero sige tikman itich...


our end of the table

there's my (L, from here to there) pop and mum, tita pining who's back here na from the US, tita nedy, bebe and her kid my inaanak eron. there's (R, frm here to there) tito bert, tita coring, boojing and her mum tita boochie, tita nedy and her dawter tesa. may missing bang linsangan sister? ala naman, ano? hm, this was strictly a linsangan affair pala. keri.


their end of the table

si eron ba naman ang nasa dulo. aba pagdating ng food sa amin, nangalahati na ang plato. haha!


me pop!

gosh, tama yata sila! we look alike!


da pawnteyn

they wanted a shot by the fountain thingie sa likod. ayan.


foodie! foodie! we ordered one of those family pack meal deals eklat. ayan. msg overload here i go!

some kinda salad thingie, sarap sha, served cold tho
some fish in tausi yata and sitaw thang, keri lang
this roast chicken yata eh sarap ng balat, yum
"pansit na namaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan?" hihihi
jellyfish! gelatin thingie na korteng fishda
natuwa ako sa kanya, truli! i have 3 more shots hehe

yan na muna. msg overload nga yata koh hehe. pero sarap sha in fairness. huwag lang araw-arawin.

ciao!

27 May 2005

sundot-diwa/imahe

tagal ko na pala di nakakapag-blog, hane? dami lang kasing ginagawa sa life-life...

hay. what a month. first off, natanggap na kasi ako to teach sa UP Film Institute, formerly the UP Masscomm film department yan, my alma mater. so i guess i'll be going back to school, so to speak... ayan, puwede na i-announce sa madlang pipol. hehe. bakit kaya lahat ng kwentuhan ko nito, ang laging sagot ay "sit-in ako sa class mo!" hehe. hm, kakatuwa naman. i guess that means some kinda words of support or somethang. :)

i resigned from my fulltime job na because of this. trading in big bucks for not-so-big bucks. am i crazy? i think i am. but anyway, one good thing that came out of this month was this announcement from the UK-based World Association for Christian Communication development NGO ek:

Images of Communication Photographic Competition 2005 Winners announced

This year's Images of Communication Photographic Competition received more than 400 submissions from all over the world and was recently judged by a panel at WACC. Communication was illustrated in many moving ways and the quality of the submissions was high. After much deliberation, the prizes were awarded as follows:

1st Prize: $500:
Photographer: Frederick Omondi, Kenya
Image: Mass Media

Caption: "Journalists struggle to interview a former minister, media in Kenya has been perceived as vibrant area of growth with the introduction of community radio stations - enabling an environment of press freedom in Kenya, bringing development and showing the diverse cultural values of the tribes in Kenya

Jury's comment: Overflowing with human drama and energy, this strongly-composed and dynamic image captures journalists holding politicians to account and is testament to the value and meaning of modern media.


Commendation: $200
Photographer: Arvind Jain, India
Image: Communication by Gesture.

Caption: "In this era of extremely sophisticated means of communications, there are many people who mainly use their hands, fingers and facial expressions to express their thoughts and feelings. Most modern means of communications between people are useless for the non-hearing school children in this picture. Their joyful expressions clearly reveal how capable they are in communicating with gestures."

The jury's comment: This animated composition reflects human communication and relationships in the everyday life of disabled children, it is an appealing image that speaks for itself. The image urges the viewer to value disabled people and their right to communicate.

Commendation: $200
Photographer: Dan Seltzer, Israel
Image: Anti-Fence Demonstration

Caption: “The coverege of ‘dramatic’ actions is part of everyday reality for people in the area of the ‘fence’. Soldiers are nearby ready to shoot at the demonstrators and the press. The man with the tyre is a part of a movement of non-violent resistance to the wall, which started in the village of Budrus and has since spread to its neighbours. Burning tyres is generally a sign on mourning. The demonstrations have gained much: many fields have been saved; the awareness to the problem has grown; non-violent actions like this have shown much strength and value”

The jury's comment: This image was selected for documenting dramatic action on a vital and controversial issue of social justice in the Middle East, and for bringing up a series of questions about the role of the media and the relationship between media and social struggles. Dan Seltzer's website, showing how he mixes photography with social activism, can be visited at http://www.subfocus.com/


Commendation: $200
Photographer: Libay Linsangan Cantor, Philippines
Image: Fisherwoman

Caption: "A fisherwoman and farmer, wearing her usual work clothes, participates in a rally to communicate her opposition to government restrictions. Her protest signs reads in Filipino: ‘The right to our ancestral domains’ and ‘the right to fish in municipal waters’. Taken during the Women's March Against Poverty and Globalization in the Philippines April 2005."

The jury's comment: This image shows how poor people recur to communicating their needs on issues decided by politicians. The fisherwoman’s resolute face shows her determination and the importance she attaches to her message.


Commendation: $200
Photographer: Sajana Jayaraj, India
Image: Ring-Side View

Caption: "Activists of Sashakt Mahila Sangh (literally ‘Empowered Women’s group’) perform a street theatre on the issue of child domestic work in a slum community in Thane. The photograph is not just a documentation of a performance. It records the confidence of actor-activist women who belong to the largely voiceless and marginalized urban slum communities of Mumbai. The fact that women came forward, evolved the play and performed it in a similar community is also a testimony to the power of theatre as a medium of communication - accessible, interactive and empowering."

The jury's comment: This vibrant street scene showing popular theatre is full of information about the daily life of the people who are clearly feeling involved in the process. It is an artistic composition and carries a strong message about participatory, active sharing in communication.


Commendation: $200
Photographer: Shahidul Alam, DRIK, Bangladesh
Image: Salma

Caption: "Salma, lives in a small village outside of Norshingdi, and has just received a phone call from her husband, a migrant worker in Singapore."

The jury's comment: this undeniably beautiful composition, artistically reminiscent of a Vermeer painting, immerses the viewer in its depth, rural colour and texture. The picture itself shows the importance of the phonecall taking place as well as addressing social and economic issues of telecommunication development in rural areas in developing countries.


The panel of judges were sad not to be able to award prizes to many other excellent photographs, however a gallery of a selection of shortlisted entries, including the winners can be seen at http://tinyurl.com/8s6hd

Taking the side of justice and human dignity in media, and promoting diverse media ownership, WACC works for the right to communicate especially in situations of censorship and oppression.

World Association for Christian Communication
http://www.wacc.org.uk
Global Media Monitoring Project
http://www.globalmediamonitoring.org


wow, winner literal ang lola nyo ever! hehe. to view my winning photo, go here. to see the other finalists and winners, punta ka dito.

kewl. :)

wanted the first prize sana pero well, 200 diollars is 200 dollars pa rin naman. pambayad din ng rent yun hehe :P

later.

21 May 2005

jobba da hunt teehee

man, this is just so funny it's hysterical. jesus fuck, i have to blog this talaga! like now!

once in a while -- especially when i feel depressed in my current work mode or when i panic that i don't have enough money -- i trip out on job sites and try to browse for jobs that are out there. wala lang, just to see what's out there nga. there might be something better there kaya minsan, i check them out. i have been subscribed to jobstreet like dati pa so i get occasional announcements. i noticed one that said 'wanted tutors' so i checked it out. it's one of those anonymous clients na walang company profile eklat. they're looking for part-time and fulltime tutors daw, 3-4 days a week work, work at home puwede, at tumataginting na 25-30k a month ang take home! so stupid me, pinatulan ko. i texted the number there. wala lang. baka keri yun, malay mo. well, after a while, sinagot ako ng isang text which leads us to the present day.

i had a 2pm appointment with someone and they set it up sa QC sports club. doon galing lola nyo ngayon. punyeta, when i arrived, sandamakmak na tao ang andun. turns out the companies involved are herbalife and wellness works. sounds suspicious! from the sound of it, parang ito yung mga multi-level marketing or networking eklat na ganun! true enough, when they ushered us in there, loads of food/vitamin supplement bottle types were displayed in front katabi ng lcd projector chu. (internal monologue: "inaaay!") and the people handling the thing were dressed like those stupid suckers who hunt you down sa mga sm malls to entice you to try out "family first!" punyetah! a resounding nooooooooooooooooooooooooo! was circulating sa head ko (kinda like when luke discovered darth was his dad "luke, i am your father!" "noooooooooooooooooooooooo!" yes it's the same intensity pare). kaya nung nagkakagulo pa lang sa pagpasok ang mga tao, i made some lame-ass excuse that i'm going to the john. and then i ran away na! hehe hndi naman, naglakad lang ako nonchalantly palabas at diretso sa seattle's best to drown my sorrows on my comfort shake javanilla grande.

thought balloon: hay, the things i get myself into sometimes...

punyeta this is so funny it should be made into a short film. sa dami ng mga jobhunt escapades ko ano, i ought to write a book about the telltale signs if a company is gonna pull your leg lang or not. or coping mechanisms for people during job interviews. like i remember this time when i applied sa global sources ba yun? where a writer friend used to work. interview time came and this stuck-up macho tatay was interviewing me. after the professional questions, personal naman. asked if i had a boyfriend. sabi ko wala. sabi niya bakit, maganda daw naman ako (yuck, DOM DOM alert!). oo passing het lipstick dyke super pa ko nun e. anyway, sabi ko kasi i am not interested in men, i am interested in women, and maybe i should ask if that's going to be a problem for this company. taray ng lola nyo! after that, reject ako. ayos. kasi after i said that, nanigas yung tatay interviewer na parang na-stiffneck siya all of a sudden and he acted like he had a neck brace. it was also so funny but it was also so stupid. hm, smelled of lgbt work discrimination so that darn bill better be passed already!

well anyway, those were the days. these are the days. i just hope that whoever needed a job badly dun sa crop ng people kanina, makakuha sila ng job. kung totohanin ba naman nila yung 25-30k e, why not di ba? kaya nga lang, i shoulda followed my CSI gut instinct when they were texting me details about the job thingie (di nila dinidiretso pero the qualifications they were looking for we so so so vague. as in graduate ng kahit anong course!). hay, tama talaga si idol kong csi catherine willows when she said "when it sounds too good to be true, it probably is!"

korek ka jan sister! korek ka jan!

punyeta manonood na nga ko ng star wars memya! gateway, here i come!

19 May 2005

i exist!

i just wanna... wanna... wanna... wanna... ay na-stuck ang cd. :P



  You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.

�Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.�
�It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.�
--Jean-Paul Sartre

�It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.�
--Blaise Pascal

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Existentialism

 
80%

Hedonism

 
75%

Utilitarianism

 
70%

Justice (Fairness)

 
70%

Strong Egoism

 
55%

Kantianism

 
50%

Apathy

 
30%

Nihilism

 
25%

Divine Command

 
0%

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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ayun. tama ba yan? it comes close to hedonism, so what does that say about us existentialists (existentials?), i wonder... hmm. things that make you go hmm...

had surprise house guests. cool naman :) the house needed guests. nagsasawa na yata siya sa energies ko lately..medyo depressing kasi ang aura ko lately. di ko pa siya napapausukan ng insensos... kaya 'wag kang mag-alala bahay -- babawi ako't kukulayan kita!

pramis!

18 May 2005

meredith brooks mode

sorry ha, but i just need to bitch -- publicly!

you guys, what do you think of writers who give advise on "writerly things" to another writer who obviously has had much more experience, exposure and education in the writing biz?

okay lang sana sa akin ito kung alam ko ang pinanggagalingan ng writer. kung mas keri siya sa akin sa grammar and all things about style, i'll listen to him or her, no problem. wala akong ego when it comes to workshopping my stuff because i really really crave for that because i want to make my works better. pero kung kini-critique niya ang isang literary material nang hindi niya inaalam kung paano ang approach ng literary material na iyon, medyo sablay yun, di ba? obviously, hindi pa siya nagdaan sa mga national writers' workshops at sa undergrad or postgrad literary writing classes dahil kung may enuf experience siya sa ganun, alam niya dapat how to ascertain the project of the story, 'ika nga ni mam jing hidalgo. kung naghahanap siya ng conventions sa isang genre na iba ang conventions, sablay. maghahanap ka kaya ng william gibson-ish stuff sa works ni shakespeare? maghahanap ka ng jeanette winterson-ish stuff sa works ni tom clancy? maghahanap ka ng tolkien-ish stuff sa works ni virginia woolf? sige, career-in mo yan at tignan natin kung di sumakit ang ulo mo!

ang tanga, no? hm. the thing about young writers these days is that there's such a lot of arrogance going around in their circles. sometimes, they're not in touch with what went before them. most times, they're pooh-pooh-ing the others that will come much later. i think tama si jologzboi when he said in the ccp literary forum we had that our generation is in the middle of the generations: hindi kami pasaway, alam namin ang mga canon and the anti-canon peeps that were and are ahead of us (and we respect them even if we are trying to 'subvert' some of them), and we are actually looking at the younger ones to give them advise and nurturing. e kung punyetang younger batch ito e pasaway naman? hay, never mind. i don't need you. we don't need you. leave me alone. go back to blogging or whatnot.

this is the time when you have to pull out your stuff and ride some kind of high horse din e, just to prove a point. sometimes, you realy need to do it -- you're forced to, eh.

hijo, mananalo ba 'ko ng dalawang palanca kung hindi ako akma sa literary writing world? maa-anthologize ba ako 6 times kung wala akong alam sa pagsusulat? think about it. sige, go back to copywriting...

hm. para yata itong yung mga tao na nagbibigay ng grammar advise when they themselves cannot even get their syntax straight. ako wala akong kiyeme to admit na i need help in english sometimes kasi naman it's not my first language at characteristic yan ng majority ng mundo na hindi english ang first or second language. sabi nga nung kanta, "tayo'y mga pinoy, tayo'y hindi kano, huwag kang mahihiya kung ang...grammar mo ay sablay." pero kung manglalait naman ang isang tao ng grammar ng iba samantalang ang saril niyang grammar ay sablay, aysus, wala nang mas sasablay pa doon, hane? my gash! i don't know for you, but with me, life is peach!

parang ito yung "so who is the beautiful girl of the dennis? is it you or is me? and the winner is me!"

o kaya yung "do you smoke? do you drink? do you drugs?"

hay naku, you can never can tell!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



17 May 2005

hue, me? hue-mor me.

life is colorful. let's see.

photothoughts...


light me up inside... chos.
nahuli sa po-quiaps.



can-dyliver
parang ang sarap ng kendi pag ganito ang presenteyshun



dashboard confessional!
only in da pilipin taxis...

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very interesting day i had. strange that some people were not answering certain text questions. crazy that some people ask you leading questions that you do not answer directly. frustrating that some people make you ask multiple questions when they will give me just answer. relaxing that your questions are met with fellow questions then both the questioner and the questioned try to find a similar/parallel answer to those sets of questions.

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i've come to rationalize life within a comfort/discomfort dichotomy. the question here is, where do you want to belong? it's too tempting to stay on the slash, but you will literally get slashed nga if you stay there too long. better make up your mind. hey, i know i did -- even if i am not so sure if i did the right thang. sometimes, you go with your feelings. most times, you go with your gut. rarely do you let your intellect decide. hm.

like i said before, i wish color made the world go round, instead of money. hay...

16 May 2005

closing time...

'ika nga ng semisonic...

every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...

sabi nga ni tom taus sa international version ng ANAK NG BULKAN film...

so it is written...so it shall be...

chos.

yeah, well, that's that, folks. next week, i'm officially a freelancer, so to find me, text not call. ym is good, too. emails? direct them at the usual web-based ones (especially gmail and yahoo). isiswomen.org will be phased out soon so don't email me there, aight? ('ika nga ng 'merkanong jologs).

c'est tout. long story, hard to tell. for further updates, textez-moi na lang, hane?

we out.

13 May 2005

quickie

it's not what you think.

just a quick one before i go to sleep. tried tweaking kemikal earlier and i'm glad where it's going. pero saka na ulit. didn't go to work today due to residue sneezing yesterday carried over today. you know how i hate such mornings... hay. pollen and pollution, i hate you. so i ended up resting, really, and catching up on sleep. old friends reconnected within the last 24 hours and it's cool. more of that soon. follow-ups with life threads seem to be...slow...but i'm glad to hear from the couple on the top spots. yipeee! i got in! :) i got it! :) shucks, i hope i get the other one... just when i was losing hope... 'ika nga ni princess leia "help me obi wan kenobi; you're our only hope."

the force is with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

more later. bathroom break. sleep na rin.

rise, lord libay. (insert darth's hika breathing sound fx)

hihi. :)

09 May 2005

blimey part trois: attack of the sith-phunin hihi

i guess the curse of the written word is still hovering above me like smog over metro manila. good thing it doesn't render me totally useless in that department... but the visuals are what's strong with me these days, heightened by current mini-engagements. i am happy about that...

i am sad about jumping without a safety net. but i need to. jumping is better than slowly rotting inside. my soul yearns for more flight. i should take heed. doesn't matter if i fall flat on my face or i get drifted by currents. the thing is, i need to jump. now. before it's too late.

photothought...


peek a boo-hoo.

should we should we should we... let's fly! let's take a cosmic ride, pare. whatdya say?

ra-he-ye-i ye!

06 May 2005

meeeess personaliteeeeeee

Your #1 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #3 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #4 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #5 Match: INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.
What's Your Personality Type?


i recently discovered how to transfer the survey slut here. and the quizmonster. that's why we have such stuff now here. ayun.

what a day. literal highs and lows. from a seemingly overcharged battery to a depleted helium balloon... that's moi. my mind can't decide whether to sleep or to create, veg out or rebel, celebrate or mourn. like a friend said "enjoy your freedom. your time is yours." that makes a lot of fucking sense to me right now. it really does.

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my number one match says i can be a guru dudette. hm. masseuse puwede? i'm learning! pero swak sya ha. interesting result.

number two agree din ako sa career choices. puwede nga ako child psychologist. ginagawa ko na yan e. animal psychologist nga trip ko ngayon e. may ganun pala.

match 3 gawa ko na lahat. writer, artist, psychologist. tru. i am my own psychologist. mahal sina dr. reyes eh. 1k per hora mader. syet. never mind.

with match 4, i'm not sure about the vet part. grossed out ako minsan sa mga roadkill e. pano pa pag hawak ko na yun? pero they got the others right. hm, composer? actually, i have quite a few rap songs i composed before. does that count? i count them as poetry kasi. most of them suck now as i read them. dehins talaga ako po-wet.

hm, kakaiba yung 5. the wannabe csi in me siguro dito papasok. i loved watching science-related shows nga naman when i was a kid. who remembers THE EDISON TWINS? winner yun. actually, i wanted to be an astronomer, so scientist na rin yun. programmer? siguro to a certain non-geeky extent. engineer? i almost wrote a related course -- "architecture" -- as my top choice sa entrance exams ng peyups dati. i chose fine arts. who woulda thought i would get in sa first choice ko? e di sana nag-archi ako. hm. but not landscape archi ha. yung tunay hehe. :P bad ko.

gosh, i'm surprised at the accuracy of this exam. kakaiba.

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bakit nga ba? minsan mag-iisip ka kung may dahilan ang ilang pangyayari, kung may purpose ang ibang bagay. sabi nga ng classic jaclyn jose delivered line sa MACHO DANCER "Walang sayang sa buhay. Lahat may gamit, lahat may pakinabang. Di nga lang malinaw minsan." galeng di ba?

kung wala ka nang mahanap na purpose, move on to other things. kung di mo alam ang dahilan ng pagtrato nila sa iyo, flyzoom ka na sister. life's too short, sabi nga ni csi warrick dun sa gorgeous club singer na type nya. too short to experiment on obviously wrong choices. hay. sabi nga ni csi catherine, the difference between beautiful and kitsch is time. o devah? kaya bago mag-fade ang byuti ko, fade out muna ko from this mise-en-scene and reenact my script in another set. para pag rollcam na ulit, i will be ready for my close-up, mr. de mille.

and that's a wrap. good take ba? let's hope so.

02 May 2005

do not judge my brother, he is not a book!

i like i like i like the result of this! hehe.

orlando
Virginia Woolf: Orlando. You are a challenge, for
outer events, the outside world, the time etc.
play no importance to you. Your focus is in
writing, in gender issues, and inside your own
head. Self-analysis and exploration of yourself
as well as the outer world hold great
importance to you.

Which literature classic are you?
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